Jacob/vampire Bella bores me,so I present you my first fanfiction.
"Do you have to satisfy yourself with eternal mediocrity that you can't escape or you can choose to reach for dangerous passion that can slip through your fingers anytime?" that was the question Alice asked herself more and more often.
And time was running out. That question would pop out everytime Jasper'd undress her or when she'd go in forest leaving Jasper alone after sex. "No." she'd say everytime to herself and let herself to feelings she had for her partner in eternity,her nearly-soulmate,Jasper.
He'd kiss away the pain that was tearing her apart,the ,of course,knew her feelings.
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APOV My eyes were closed and my mind wandered somewhere on the other side of the was I,laying with Jasper in our room and trying to force myself to love him.I couldn't.
I distanced from him every day more and more and in our private moments,like this,it was most noticed didn't pay much attention;he,probably hoped it was my phase,it will pass me in two weeks.I also hoped it was passable,maybe more than he now,only memories of our great love and obligation to myself to re-live those feelings,were what I felt for all this years and everything we're been through,not to mention he still loved me,I owed him.I owed him love.
I felt only silk sheets, bought at one occasion for out love-nest,under my bare body,and Jasper's lips on my back pressing gently on my cold skin.
"Alice what's wrong?" I heard Jasper's calm voice.
"Nothing." I replied shortly as I didn't know about his ability to feel and influence other's myself with sheets I stood up and dressed myself.
"I know you,love." his voice was still the same despite on what he could've I felt.
Everytime I'd think-over this conversation,my heart would break a bit.I know you,love. He knew,loved and trusted me.
"It's Edward." wise lie came out of my mouth as I was putting on my red dress with ribbon. "All this with Bella and my headaches." I didn't lie about it,I was worried for them.I just didn't tell him about the pain in my heart. "Pain will make me insane." I messed my ,headaches were sharper every day in that point they'd blur my vision for few was cure for this terrible state I was he'd come closer,pain would become weaker and after his strong arms would wrap my,compared to his,tiny body,pain would go 'd make pain go away and my lust for him grow more and more.
"Jacob will come later." Jacob. It was weird hearing his name coming out of Jasper's mouth. He said it with so much hope,not knowing how he makes me feel.
"I'll take a walk before he comes." I gave him a smile and went there was no Edward around to read my mind,I let my thoughts flow.
When did he take place Jasper had for hunder of years?When did I give him my heart with Jasper's still in my hands?When did he occupy my mind leaving Jasper somwehere behind and I'd forget about Jasper's existance 'til someone mentiones him in conversation?I already knew the answer; when he kissed me.