Introduction
Darkness.
At least that was all that I could register, my eyes wide, blinking hard against an eternal night.
A night that had no stars, no milky soft light from a hazy moon- It was the night from your mind,
a darkness that thrived off numbed thoughts, frozen in fear. I wasn't sure if my eyes were actually
open, or if they had been clamped shut- a familiar pain reawakening within me. Strong, cold as ice,
a long needle piercing my unprotected cheek. My voice raw and shaky- woke within me as I cried out
time and time again. Nothing happened. No one came. My teeth clenched tightly, my muscles ached from head to toe. My eyes gave no indication of light, no movement from around me. The copper taste of blood was everywhere. I could not escape from my own personal hell.
Empty space.
I had no knowledge from up to down, where ground and sky would have met. No thought passed through my mind without panic, hinting to my exhausted lungs, that my time might actually be over. Rough and shallow, I was breathing fast, a dangerous pace, on my way for a panic attack...my heart skipping along almost as fast as my breath. I could feel the quick and uncontrolled pulse of my heart beat- it echoed through my being, pounding harshly in my ears. Like thunder to the soul.
Then came the pain.
One breathe, two-three breathe, one breathe.....and then - nothing. I am unable to breathe anymore, as my lungs fought for air that did not exist , an eternal exhale. I could feel my muscles screeching for oxygen, my body trashing to no avail in pursuit- It felt as if I had fallen from a cliff, only to meet the rocks at the bottom for a friendly handshake. My heart had given its final attempt of life, and failed. I shuttered along with my heart, I almost could feel it crashing in my chest. I tried to scream out , that's all I could do, There wasn't anything else I could help with- I failed at that to. No screams, no familiar sound of breathing, not even a heartbeat.
An impenetrable silence. A darkness no light could ever break. Pain from which I had never experienced in my short life- twisting its spinney, glass like fingers around every physical nerve in my body.......was this death?