Chapter 1
Gojyo's Point Of View
A/N: sigh A BOATS again. I am just living the crappy life of a crappy lifed person. Oh well. By the way, to give you some info, I am Gojyo. Yay.
I used to love you.
So much so, I would do anything for you. I loved the way you teased me and joked with me, and even though you were pretending to hurt my feelings, right after you'd hug me and smile.
I liked it when you did that.
But, I could never tell you how I felt, because if I did I knew I would be the one getting hurt. And if I got hurt, I wouldn't know what I would do.
I've been hurt many times already, I don't need another tally on that slip of paper.
I figured you knew I liked you, I made it obvious with the way I talked to you, the way I teased you and whined for your attention. So, I waited for you to come to me. I thought you knew.
You looked up at me with your emerald eyes at me one day and said, with that smile on your face, " I think I am in love with Sanzo."
I froze and my heartbroke. I looked around to make sure I wasn't really Sanzo. I wasn't.
" W-What?" I muttered.
" Yeah, I think...Sanzo is the one I love. We're going to start...dating once the journey is over."
I kept a facade up. I couldn't let him know how much my insides were shattering.
" That's great." I smiled.
" Really?" He asked, perking an eyebrow, " I thought you might like me, Gojyo."
" No, no." I shook my head, " You go out with Sanzo. I think you two would be a great couple."
" You do?" Hakkai cheered.
" Yeah." I nodded slowly. Hakkai smiled at me one last time and headed off to make dinner.
Now, we're back.
And I look upon them.
Being happy, doing the same things him and I used to do together.
And I start to cry.
I lost everything over a lie. Because I couldn't tell him now I felt.
Now, I am the one hurting...all over again.
A/N: Such is my life.