This is another chapter that my editor never got last week-she says she made some changes to this one. I couldn't find them, but i re-uploaded it anyway. After a few reviews that came in I just wanted to make this clear that even though it searches as Raven and Robin it is not a pairing fic. That would be Raven and Kilowatt in this story that name just wasn't in the list for me to choose from on the characters-since it dealt with Nightwing too I just went ahead and stuck Robin in there.

This is a story that was handwritten about two years ago. It never quite came out how I wanted it back then. This is one of those stories that I took back out to work on after my obsession with the reruns of 'Criminal Minds' on ION began. For some reason the insight into the dark workings of the human mind have helped my writing...I'm just not sure at this point whether that is a good thing or not. Here is revamped story-much of it I find dark and disturbing. It deals with mainly Raven, but also Kilowatt and Robin-now Nightwing as it is set int he future. I choose Kilowatt because of the dynamic that was hinted at between he and Raven in the one Teen Titans Go Comics that he was in and just Robin/Nightwing wasn't working out in the original version. Maybe its just me, but I always felt there could have been more between Raven and Kilowatt. So if you're into the dark and disturbing please read and leave a review to let me know what you think. The rating is M-I just want to make that clear before anyone reads any farther.

Darling Raven 1-Darling Nikki v2

It has been several years since the Titans split up-going their separate ways-after a change in the mayoral office made it clear that they were no longer welcome in the city. The others all found somewhere to go-except for Raven. Since Azarath was destroyed by her father, the tower had been her only home. She has lived on the streets of Jump City for sometime now. A rapidly changing weather climate after a brief and disastrous world-wide nuclear war-not long after the Titans were disbanded-has brought snow to the coastal city this time of year. She draws her tattered cloak around her-but it does nothing to block out the cold. She catches sight of the tower-it is lit up again. Raven wishes that was because the Titans were back together again. She always pushed everyone away back then and now she would give anything to have them all back. Her mind turns to the past as it has more and more frequently lately.
Kilowatt...no one had ever come so close to her-not even Robin with whom she shared a bond. Had it not been for her powers keeping them apart Raven doesn't doubt at all that they would have become more than just friends. He was too much of a gentlemen to even think of risk stressing her control over her powers-but it was always there deep in the back of his mind where he tried to shield it from her. She thinks that's why he finally decided to return home. She lets her mind drift to very night he decided to leave.
Raven pauses as she hears Kilowatt and Robin talking around the corner.
"It's better this way, Robin. It would only hurt her if she knew and I can't do that to her."
"If your sure about this I can't stop you, but I just want you to know that you are welcome to stay."
She doesn't stick around to hear anymore. She has found something with Kilowatt-some connection even deeper than the bond that she and Robin share. She doesn't want to loose him. Raven uses her powers to escape to the roof-where the winds of an impending thunder storm carry away the few tears she dares to let escape. She stands there on the edge of the roof watching as lightening dances among the clouds.
"It isn't safe for you to be out here right now."
"Kilowatt..."
"...you should come back inside now, Raven."
Did he know she overheard him? Somehow she doesn't doubt that as he takes her hand and leads her back inside the tower. She looks back as the door closes to see the rain begins to fall in torrents-as if it were making up for the emotions that she could never express. She had promised to find away to get him home when he first came here-but in truth that search had stalled as they became closer. She had found for the first time someone that truly understood her and selfishly she never wanted to loose that.
It only strikes her now that he had held onto her hand until he had taken her back down to her room. He would have told her right then-she is sure of that-but he did know she had heard him talking to Robin. It was late any way and he had merely asked her to get some rest at the time. To ease the strain on her, Kilowatt had fully intended to turn the search for a way home over to Jinx. Raven sighs-her hood tumbling back off her head-as she looks up at the sky with its never ending snow fall as she recalls insisting that he at least allow her to finish what she had started. Maybe that wasn't the best idea because she had nearly lost him when she made a mistake and sent him to the wrong dimension where evil doubles ruled. She stumbles in a drift of snow-falling to her knees. It is a struggle for her to get back to her feet. Its so cold out and there is no warmth to be found for some one out on the streets like her. Raven stops as a coughing fit wracks her weakened form. If the severity of the cough is any indication she won't have to worry about that much longer. She had once pondered the question of whether or not she were an immortal since she is only half demon. With her run of luck over the last few years it wouldn't surprise her at all if she were doomed to forever wander the cold streets-that is worse fate than hell she thinks. She is sure she should have died long ago from hunger. Raven manages to walk for several more blocks-but eventually collapses to her knees again as another coughing fit comes on. She struggles to breathe when it finally ends. She tries to get up-but this time she is too weak to go on. She falls to the cold ground as snow falls down all around her. She fights to hold onto consciousness but it slowly slips away from her as the cold zaps her of her last remaining strength. For one brief moment she could swear that she sees lightening dance among the snow clouds.
One man sees her collapse as the limo passes by the old run down area of town, he pushes an intercom button. "Stop the car." He waits for the driver to stop the limo then he gets out into the cold and goes over to the girl. He kneels beside her in the snow and holds his fingers against her neck feeling for a pulse. For a moment he doesn't feel anything, but soon weak-stubborn beats drum in a slow rhythm. It's clear to him that on some level the frozen girl still stubbornly clings to life. He brushes her hair back out of her face-if she wants to live he will be more than happy to take control of that life. "Score another one for me." From the tattered clothes and bony frame he can tell that she has no home or anyone who cares for her or she wouldn't be in this state-that's good for him at least. He is always on the lookout for new girls for his business and its always easiest when no one out there is looking for the girls. He instantly recognizes the old uniform as he takes a good look at her. He smirks evilly as he watches her threaten to stir. "This one is going to do quite nicely, indeed."
Raven looks up briefly as she hears a voice. It sounds so far away somehow. She can't tell what is being said and all she can make out is the silhouette of a man in the dark surroundings of the dimly lit street. She tries again to get up but her limbs feel so heavy. She can't move no matter how hard she struggles. When she finally begins to succumbs to unconsciousness she can't help but wonder if its the grim reaper standing above her. As the darkness overtakes her-she resigns herself to whatever her fate will be-whether it be heaven or hell.
He stands up then gently lifts the frozen girl into his arms and carries her back to the limo. He lays her down on the back seat as he climbs inside. He again presses the button for the intercom as he closes the door against the cold. "Go to the parking garage, I'm going to take the service elevator up the penthouse-I don't want anyone to see her yet." As the driver pulls out he runs his fingers through the girl's long matted hair. He wants to keep just who he has found to himself so he dares not take her back to the infirmary. He takes off his heavy winter coat and spreads it out over her to help her warm up. He presses the intercom button again knowing that she still needs medical attention. "Once we get to the hotel drive back to the club and pick up the doctor. Have little sis send her over some clothes as well." He settles back on the seat across from the unconscious girl-plotting just what he is going to do with her.