Let ME Shine
(A Songfic from Duo's POV)
Written By: Duosgrl
Inspired by: Journey's "Troubled Child"
This is partially in response to Travaria's suggestion I write a Songfic from Duo's POV. Thank you, Tra. I was already looking for an appropriate song for Duo but your suggestion and continued kind comments spurred me to get serious about it.
~...~ = Lyrics
[.....] = Duo's thoughts
Troubled Child
~Sunrise, creepin' in your eyes
Cold empty sidewalks
Miles away from trusting someone
Far from giving up
Young blood, cry tough
Mean street run
There's a hunger inside you
Desperate rebel runaway
Far from giving up~
That's the way I used to be. Back when life on L2 was all I knew. I think I keep this old song playing to remind me of where I came from and how I was, how far I have come since then.
[ha! In some ways I'm still that kid. I always will be.]
When your wits are all you have to keep you alive, you grow up fast. But Father Maxwell's and Sister Helen's legacy of love and forgiveness never left me. Somehow I still hold on to that. I think that's why I am still sane. I have them and their teachings to fall back on when all the killing gets to be too much.
~Someday, someway, all very soon
You'll end long nights
Chasin' the moon~
And as nice as that is, I want more. I want someone to love me again. Someone to share the beauty of this world with. I'm tired of being so all alone. Oh, I hide it well. That's just part of being Shinigami. I mean, if the rest of the guys knew I get down and depressed too, it would make it harder for them. Come on, I'm the counselor, the one who keeps everyone together. If not for me, we really would be alone.
[I would be all alone.]
~War with yourself
Makes you feel better
Caught behind the lines
Troubled child
Faith finds a cure
It makes you feel better
You know you can shine
Troubled child~
Everyone who has ever loved me has died. Everyone I have ever loved has died. Sometimes I wonder if it's because I'm not good enough to love. Maybe there is something wrong with me; I have too much blood on my soul to deserve anyone. When I get so far down in the pit of depression and anger I try to remember that God forgives people like me. That is the reason I can go on trying. That is the reason I think that someday, when this war ends, there will be someone for me. I will have a chance to pay back everyone who had faith in me and prove I have a good soul. Someday, I will get to be the person I want to be and not the one I have been made to be.
~Voices echo, from the past
Decisions made for you
Trials they made
To touch your heart
Never found their way~
My past will always haunt me. I don't think I could live any other way. I wouldn't want to. But maybe, just maybe I have already found someone who won't mind; who will love me because I have such a past. Because, you see, he does too. I don't know any details but I don't need to. Every once in a while, when he thinks no one is looking, he lets his emotionless mask slip. I catch glimpses of dark, hurting memories. Memories just like mine. That's why I keep my faith in God. God put my Heero here for me to find. I think Heero is someone who could love me, understand me, and not die. He has tried to die so many times and not once has it worked. I know he's not immortal or anything like that but, he has a strong will to live. Even if he doesn't know he has it.
~Someday, someway, all very soon
You'll live long nights
Chasin' the moon~
OH, Heero, could you ever feel that strongly about me? Could I become your reason to live? You are the reason I don't give in to all the guilt that plagues me. Let me shine for you.
Watcha think? Be honest now. I kinda like it. ^_^Duosgrl
Disclaimer: Don't own GW or any of its characters, don't own any Journey songs. This one is used without permission. The only thing I own is lil ole me(tm).
(A Songfic from Duo's POV)
Written By: Duosgrl
Inspired by: Journey's "Troubled Child"
This is partially in response to Travaria's suggestion I write a Songfic from Duo's POV. Thank you, Tra. I was already looking for an appropriate song for Duo but your suggestion and continued kind comments spurred me to get serious about it.
~...~ = Lyrics
[.....] = Duo's thoughts
Troubled Child
~Sunrise, creepin' in your eyes
Cold empty sidewalks
Miles away from trusting someone
Far from giving up
Young blood, cry tough
Mean street run
There's a hunger inside you
Desperate rebel runaway
Far from giving up~
That's the way I used to be. Back when life on L2 was all I knew. I think I keep this old song playing to remind me of where I came from and how I was, how far I have come since then.
[ha! In some ways I'm still that kid. I always will be.]
When your wits are all you have to keep you alive, you grow up fast. But Father Maxwell's and Sister Helen's legacy of love and forgiveness never left me. Somehow I still hold on to that. I think that's why I am still sane. I have them and their teachings to fall back on when all the killing gets to be too much.
~Someday, someway, all very soon
You'll end long nights
Chasin' the moon~
And as nice as that is, I want more. I want someone to love me again. Someone to share the beauty of this world with. I'm tired of being so all alone. Oh, I hide it well. That's just part of being Shinigami. I mean, if the rest of the guys knew I get down and depressed too, it would make it harder for them. Come on, I'm the counselor, the one who keeps everyone together. If not for me, we really would be alone.
[I would be all alone.]
~War with yourself
Makes you feel better
Caught behind the lines
Troubled child
Faith finds a cure
It makes you feel better
You know you can shine
Troubled child~
Everyone who has ever loved me has died. Everyone I have ever loved has died. Sometimes I wonder if it's because I'm not good enough to love. Maybe there is something wrong with me; I have too much blood on my soul to deserve anyone. When I get so far down in the pit of depression and anger I try to remember that God forgives people like me. That is the reason I can go on trying. That is the reason I think that someday, when this war ends, there will be someone for me. I will have a chance to pay back everyone who had faith in me and prove I have a good soul. Someday, I will get to be the person I want to be and not the one I have been made to be.
~Voices echo, from the past
Decisions made for you
Trials they made
To touch your heart
Never found their way~
My past will always haunt me. I don't think I could live any other way. I wouldn't want to. But maybe, just maybe I have already found someone who won't mind; who will love me because I have such a past. Because, you see, he does too. I don't know any details but I don't need to. Every once in a while, when he thinks no one is looking, he lets his emotionless mask slip. I catch glimpses of dark, hurting memories. Memories just like mine. That's why I keep my faith in God. God put my Heero here for me to find. I think Heero is someone who could love me, understand me, and not die. He has tried to die so many times and not once has it worked. I know he's not immortal or anything like that but, he has a strong will to live. Even if he doesn't know he has it.
~Someday, someway, all very soon
You'll live long nights
Chasin' the moon~
OH, Heero, could you ever feel that strongly about me? Could I become your reason to live? You are the reason I don't give in to all the guilt that plagues me. Let me shine for you.
Watcha think? Be honest now. I kinda like it. ^_^Duosgrl
Disclaimer: Don't own GW or any of its characters, don't own any Journey songs. This one is used without permission. The only thing I own is lil ole me(tm).