Disclaimer: I don't own Victirous
Jade's point of view
Sikowitz is making me do an impromptu monologue for my final exam.
"Jade your topic is bitterness," Sikowitz said.
Oh this is too perfect. I am already standing at the top of the stage.
"They say," I began, "that I am a bitter angry person. NO SHIT! Tell me something. How would you feel if you were 3 years old and saw your real father get hit by a car and killed? How would you feel if your step father who loved you until your mother died refused to support any of your dreams? How would you feel if your boyfriend; knowing certain things piss you off do those things anyway… intentionally to piss you off? He may think it's funny and cute and sometimes it is but frankly when you're upset he should first make sure you're okay and then be an idiot. How would you feel if all of a sudden everything in your life went topsy turvsy? I'm not a good enough actress to pretend to give a damn and put on a cheerful face. I just am too angry to care. Why should I care? Nobody sees me as anything more than a bitter person anyway and yes I hate to admit it but I have a vulnerable side.
Beck's point of view
Jade looked directly at me as she was giving her speech. Some of the things that she said stunned me.
"I am a sensitive person alright," Jade continued, "There I said it."
She said it as if that was something to be ashamed of. I have seen Jade's sensitive side. I will never forget one time when we were at the beach-
"One time I was at the beach with my boyfriend. We had just had a terrible fight and I was really pissed off. It was because he had gotten mad at me for something I didn't even do. I was still hot and burning with anger. I decided to go into the ocean to cool off. Well as I was in the ocean I noticed a puppy. She was the most beautiful animal ever. Yeah I claim to hate dogs. I don't. I actually love them."
I smile at this memory. The dog had gotten lost in a hurricane. She and her owner had been out at the beach and she was swept up in the high tide. Jade checked the collar. She brought the dog to our place. Jade, our 3 year old Willow and I live at the RV. Willow loved the dog but Jade had gently explained that the dog had an owner and he probably missed the dog very much. Willow had a fit about it. I was starting to get a little frustrated. Jade promised Willow we would get her a dog. Willow calmed down.
"I called Mr. Wilcox the dog's owner and drove 78 miles to return his dog to him. But you know what I learned when I was little. If you're a weakling you're screwed."
Weakling? Jade thinks that being sensitive makes her a weakling?
Well that would explain why Jade doesn't trust. Jade is done with her monologue but I am in complete and utter shock… At this point I think I'm feeling exactly what she's feeling.
Heavenly Father please forgive me for being so impatient with Jade, I thought to myself.
Jade's point of view
"Earth to Beck," I said impatiently.
"Jade," he said, "I'm so sorry. I know I get really impatient with you but I sometimes forget about all that you've been through. Maybe it's that I don't want to remember it. It's been so rough. I-"
"Beck its fine," I said, "I admit I can be a bit hard to handle sometimes."