My Only Love

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Summery: Chakotay needs to see Kathryn quickly, before something happens.

Song: My Only Love

Artist: Jennifer Love Hewitt

Deep in my soul,
Love so strong,
It takes control.

It all happened so long ago now. Think back I now feel I didn't deserve her. Why is she gone? My feelings are irrelevant, with her gone I'm starting to sound like Seven. Two months ago she died, I can't bear to live without her.

It all started when we were on an away mission, you don't need to know about that yet.

Now we both know,
The secrets barred,
The feelings show.
Driven far apart,
I'll make a wish,
On a shooting star.

Flashback

In sickbay, the Doctor had just informed me of the Captains condition, at her request. She had been sent to her quarters for rest. "The Captain is seriously ill. She has a fatal illness. There is no cure."

End Flashback

Even sat here in her quarters, on her ship. It would never be my ship, always hers. Its so sad, she'll never see home again. It was hard, telling her sister and mother in person.

There will come a day,
Somewhere far away,
In you arms I'll stay,
My only love.
Even though you're gone,
Love will still live on,
The feeling is so strong,
My only love,
My only love.

Flashback

The Doctor finished speaking to me and I told the rest of the senior staff. They were all devastated.

End Flashback

I still feel like it was my fault. If I hadn't of let her go off on her own, this would never of happened. She would of never have gone in the forbidden sector. (She didn't know it was forbidden, or she would of never have gone in it.)

There will come a day,
Somewhere far away,
In your arms I'll stay,
My only love.
You've reached the deepest part,
Of the secret in my heart,
I've known from the start,
My only love.

Flashback

I went to her quarters to see how she was doing. I rang the chime but got no answer. I tried again but still no answer. I put in my override code and entered. The room was dark; I could see a figure under the blankets in the bed. I figured she was asleep. I know I should leave but something was telling me to stay. I heard moans coming from the bed and I go over to see her. She was awake.

End Flashback

I knew I should of gotten help with what happened next, but I didn't.

There will come a day,
Somewhere far away,
In you arms I'll stay,
My only love.

Flashback

She looked me in the eyes and I knew it was time. She spoke her last words to me. "Chakotay, get this crew home, promise me," She says. "I promise, my only love," I reply. "My only love." I see her die and inform the crew.

End Flashback

You've reached the deepest part,
Of the secret in my heart,
I've known it from the start,
My only love,
My only love...

Goodbye Kathryn, You are My Only Love.