Laying close In bed cuddled up together A dream begins to play out before me as it materialises into a scene, a memory dragged back up to haunt! The grounds are bathed in warm summer light as the evening starts to set in we are all outside a picnic in the middle of us, godric sits next to me, in his element as he animatedly re-tells a story. Helena is toddlering around chasing butterflies as they flutter around lazily, I'm not really listening to the tale, just occasionally nodding and smiling!
Helga listens while playing with Helena and Salazar sits across from me so near and so far, how I ache to be with him.
I look for brief periods of time occasionally catching him looking at me feeling the heat that always simmers between us.
As the night starts to fall Helena is snuggled up on my lap and a slight chill in the air makes me shiver.
Godric turns his gaze on me "time for us to retire, I'll take Helena"
I stand knowing better than to say no, glancing over at Sal with a look that says sorry, maybe later.
"ROWENA woman, get a move on" I scurry after godric glancing back every so often until I can't see him no more, I bump into godric "sorry, why have you stopped anyway?"
His face is contorted with a strange sort of grimace he bristles but simply strides off walking into castle.
when I catch up Helena is already tucked up in bed and he is sat brooding by the fire and I know in that instant it will be a long night.
I walk in quietly heading for the bedroom when he speaks " come and sit with me, we need to have words" reluctantly with small slow steps I head back and sit opposite him looking down at the floor.
He grabs my hair pulling my face up to look at him, gritting my teeth against the pain as he speaks with a voice filled with hatred "you disgust me, don't even try spinning it the other way, I saw you and I'm not stupid although I have been duped by the both of you".
I look at him stupidly answering "what are you referring to godric, I thought this evening went well" trying for a lightly casual voice although he's still holding my hair tightly I'm trying not to flinch away.
He stands pulling me up and releasing my hair "how long have you b" he looks across towards helenas room then back at me his anger palatable in the air as the thought occurs the air is filled a new with rage and I recoil into a defensive postion.
"I should of fucking known, you stupid bitch" his voice is calm and deadly "He will never have you if it's the last thing I Do". He grins at me menacingly as I see his hand and duck he pitches forward nearly toppling over this only angering him further.
I run to the bedroom drawing him further from Helena she must be kept safe.
"Please don't do this godric, it was never meant to hurt you" his face contorts as he slowly paces towards me like a lion to his pray "you're nothing more than dirty whore and I will do what I see as necessary". I don't move quick enough and the blow winds me, I try to curl up and regain my breath "oh no you don't" grabbing my arm and wrenching me off the bed to the floor he pulls out his wand pointing it in my face he practically spits as he tells me "you do as i say and you may just survive" flying back and smashing into a table, trying to move away as he lifts me by neck it all goes black, godric breaks down and sobs, repeatedly saying "I'm sorry, I really am sorry" while holding Rowena in his arms
I jack knife awake with a silent scream, breathing heavily and shaking all over as silent tears begin to flow.