Curtains Up
I saw it in your eyes. That cute nervous look when I laid my paw over your heart; it was forbidden but we were in love; we didn't care. In fact we didn't care so much we never took the time to say we love each other. That look of concern when you saw those Eastern wolves coming. It wasn't because we howled together that he was afraid of; you were scared for my safety. Also that scared face I was hurt to see when our packs were ready to rip each other apart. I hate think back on that dreadful night.
Then Kate returned along with Humphrey and my spirits were raised high. The war was not going to happen but the fact it wasn't going to was because Kate was to marry you. Eyes are almost like tattle tails. Kate said yes to Tony's statement that she came back to marry Garth and you stepped forward with your eyes saying, I don't love you. Don't think I didn't see your sad gaze at me before you walked off as our packs celebrated because I did. We were- no- are in love. I know it. You know it. And yet you still accepted Kate's scent, nibbled on her ear and leaned forward to rub noses with my sister.
A wave of emotion came over me as you did it. Anger, hurt, depression and sorrow. I'm a stranger to anger though. I don't know how to express it really. When I heard Kate mention you I scraped her tail and crushed the pine cone I did it with to pieces. It was like something came over me.
I saw the world completely different with my both eyes open: I saw my love. Now that it's covered again, I don't see you anymore. All I see the path ahead of me away from Jasper. I noticed Humphrey disappeared and took a flea out of his fur.
I patiently waited the next few days. Avoiding you all... Especially you till I heard the loud sound of that train that eventually comes by. I was pumped and ready. I wanted to say goodbye so bad to my mom and dad but they never would have let me go. Would you have? You're married to Kate now but would you have tried to talk me out of leaving? I couldn't tell you either way because its what I wanted.
I don't know what Humphrey's plan was or if he'll ever come back. I know my plan and the promise I made to myself, and I intend to keep it. I don't want Dad, I don't want Mom, I don't want Kate and I surely don't want Can-do to come after me. I want you!
Like the time Tony gave Kate, I give you till the full moon to find me before I'm ready to let you go and move on. But I don't even know if I believe it when I tell myself that. I don't even think you realize just how much you mean to me; not the slightest clue.
"Its OK, Garth... I only want to run away so far to make you miss me."