A/N:This is my first Animorph story and I hope it doesn't suck but this is the first so beware of that. This is a *little* about Jake mourning over Cassie! and other things.And Cassie is in this too if you may have guessed. Please r/r.
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Disclaimer:Nope, I don't own the Animorphs.


CASSIE AND JAKE




Jake went to a Cafe' down sixth street, hoping to get some coffee and just do what he always do; stay home and feel sorry for himself. He wasn't proud of the mistakes and the things he did when he was a teenager, nope it was anything but that. He sat down in the same booth he always did and told the waitress his order and just read the paper like he always did. Some people were looking at him, like he was god. Some seem like they wanted his autograph. Jake couldn't think of way they would want someone to murder his own brother and cousin, autograph. But then he remembered that everybody knew about the "Animorphs" now and what they did. He was famous but he wasn't proud of it. It was his fault why Rachel couldn't see the ending of the war and probably enjoy the riches of life, like Marco was doing now. Rachel would probably go on a shopping spring if she was alive to spend her money.

He chuckled to himself on that one.

No matter what anybody did to cheer him up, he would never take away the fact that Rachel was dead. His brother, Tom whom he had grown up was also dead because of him. And it was also his fault Tobias hated his guts. It was his fault way his parents never saw Tom again.

It was all his fault.

Then there was Cassie. Cassie was probably traveling around the world with her money, and looking at the many different animals and helping them when they need it. That was Cassie for you. He hoped that where ever she was she was happy.

Because he still did love her.
He just wasn't sure if Cassie hated him too because he killed her best friend.
But he didn't really kill her, but he did play a big part in it.

He still remembered the day Rachel died, she had said that she loved Tobias. That just made Jake feel even more worse. Now if was his fault Tobias was lonely. His fault why Cassie missed Rachel. His fault why Rachel's mother and sisters would cry at night, for their sister.

Jake had saw Jordan a couple of days ago. He was thankful that his Aunt didn't glare at him and throw him out of the house because of what he had done. But Jordan looked almost like Rachel, it was remarkable at the likiness. But he pained him when Jordan had glared at him and get out of the hug he was giving her. The words that she had said struck him like a knife. He never thought Jordan would say or know anything like that. His Aunt got after her, which made matters worse. But he said he had a reason as to way he had came back to town.

He had found a letter, that had his Aunt's name on it, in Rachel's handwriting. It had been a while since he had seen Rachel's handwriting, but he still remembered what it looked like. But he felt as if he had to deliver it.

He would have stayed but somehow he knew that he should leave. But Jordan had a right to hate him. He took her sister from her. He didn't deserve to be famous and rich, no he deserved to be in prison for what he had done.

It wasn't suppose to be like this. They were suppose to still be alive and happy.
Tom.
Rachel.

They were suppose to be free and happy.

If he would have known that this was going to be the ending, he would have shot himself and save him the angish. But why can't he shoot himself now?

He had a gun in his car. He could turn into a bug or something and let someone kill him with bug spray. No, that was the loser way out.

But he couldn't help but think of that gun.

Then the waitress came with the coffee and he took it gladly.

Then someone appeared in inside. A woman.

And that woman was Cassie.

She looked older, but seem to have the same beautiful features, that he feel in love with. She had some jeans and a white blouse. Her hair seem to be longer, she seem different for some reason. She seem to be looking for a empty table or a booth, but it didn't seem like one was open. With a quick thought Jake tried to get her attention.

"Cassie, over here!," he hollered.

Then Cassie looked up at him. Her face was unguard leting him see-, suprise, happiness, worried, and confusion.

She seem to race towards him and he was very surpise when Cassie was hugging him so hard that he could barely breath. Then he returned the hug and let her warmth fill him up. Then she pulled back and looked into his eyes.

"Jake, is that really you?," she asked, in a whisper that only he could hear.

"Yes, Cass, it's me," he whispered back, using the nickname he always called her.

Then she got out of his lap and looked at him, as if not believing.

"What?," he asked.

She chuckled a little. "Your not the same Jake I knew."

He looked at her. "What do you mean by that?"

She studied him a little. "Your all grown up....and very unhappy."

He could see the pity look her eyes. He didn't want pity.

"Jake, why do you always ignore my letters?," she asked suddenly, looking at him.

He looked into her warm brown eyes. The same eyes that had showed love and care in them......for him.

He shook his head. Cassie distangled herself from him. He was a little upset by that but tried not to show it.

"I knew you hate me and-" he began.

"Hate you! Jake, I love you," she exploded.

"What to you mean?," he asked, was it what he thought it was?

"I love you as a friend, I'm not in love with you, but I still love you," she repiled.

He repeated her words sadly in his head. I'm not in love with you.....

Then he noticed for the first time a diamond ring on her left hand.

"Your married," he whispered not a question but in a statement.

Then Cassie's eyes jolted up to his.

"No, I'm engaged," she said softly.

He looked down and noticed she seem to be rather...chubby.

Was she pregnant too?, he wondered.

Cassie noticed how his eyes where traveling to her stomach area.

"Yes, I'm pregnant," she confirmed the question before he could say.

He looked at her. Cassie was to be a mother.

For some reason he couldn't help but think how that was....weird.

"How long?," he asked, trying to start a conversation.

"Only two months," she said.

He smiled weakly and patted her arm.

She was engaged so he had to keep his distance.

He gulped, and prayed her soon to be husband wasn't here.

Then the waitress came back.

"May, I take your order miss?," she asked.

Cassie who had been looking at the menue looked up.

"Hmm...I'll have the biggest hamburger you have and a coke please," she said.

The waitress wrote it down and went on her way to the next table.

"So how have you been Jake?," she asked.

"Fine," he said, meakly.

She looked into his eyes. Cassie knew he was lying and was pained by it.

But she seem to let it go.

"Well, I've been eating like a pig," she said, pointing to her lower stomach.

"So who is the father? if I may ask?," he said clamly. But inside he wanted to beat up that bastard.

"Michael Brooks, and he also works as my partner helping keeping the animals safe," she said.

Michael Brooks was already at the top of his list. Yup, and at night he is probably animal also at night to get Cassie pregnant.

She looked at him strangly. "Is something wrong?"

He shook his head firmly. "No, everything is fine."

Her brown eyes studied his face.

"I missed you," she said plainly.

He looked deeper into her eyes. He could have any thing in the world, any desire, but one.

To love Cassie.
But she was engaged.



A/N:To you want me to contiue? now as you may have guessed. This is spoiler to book #54. Now I think that Jake did die in the last chapter when he said- something about going to the bladeship. Anyway this is after the war a couple years later. To you like it? hate it? think it is okay?
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