Date Started: Saturday, January 24, 2009 ; 10:26:22 PM

Summary: Ren's thoughts at the wake of a dear friend. Also slightly based off of some RenxYamato-centric RPs I've done. RenxYamato

I Didn't Mean to do That

I didn't mean to do that. I didn't mean for the pipes to fall. You should know that much. I went over there and my only coherent thoughts were: Protect Yamato. Heh, it's kinda funny when you think about it. Those two words, since we've became friends, no best friends, were something in the back of my head.

It wasn't something like protecting Kura or Ichi, I know those two could handle themselves. I was just never all that sure about you. My suspcions were confirmed when all the stuff with your Dad happened. You never really thought things through whenever stuff like that did happen. You were to busy thinking about those around you, how it would effect them, not even once thinking about yourself.

It was the same case when I heard you through the fog while I was in a coma. How you said you had no idea what you would do if I ended up dying. How you were going to...if I was ever afraid for you it would have been then.

But now you are. Damn. What am I going to do now without you? Well, first, probably kill the jack ass who was speeding down the fucking road at two AM. The funny part was, you were heading home from my place.

I didn't mean for the pipes to fall.

I didn't mean to go into that coma.

I didn't mean...I didn't mean a lot of things I guess. And now it's to late to tell you the thing I really want to say. Sorry.

It's funny if you think about it, you used to get after me so much for saying sorry, and now I want to say it even more so. Over. And over. And over. If it would get you back I would say it a million times.

Now as I place that stupid little flower on your casket, I'm just screaming I'm sorry over and over again.

See you in the after life love.

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Date Ended: Friday, January 30, 2009 ; 6:42:32 PM

Author's Note: Yeah, like I said, this was inspired by the Yamato and Ren-centric RPs on my Gokusen RP forum (link is in my profile, we're like in dire need of members, especially a new Kosuke and a new Yankumi). The whole thing about while Ren was in a coma was based off of an RP where Yamato pretty much doesn't go to see Ren for a long while and then finally comes and just sits in the room talking to Ren.