Learn to love, You can't live without it
Hi mina-san ! This is Haine no Kitsune again! Up there my second fan fiction based on Naruto! Hope you enjoy it! Don't be afraid, it's not because I have a few fan fiction in progress that I will not continue the other. It's just that ideas come for all of them so I wrote the chapters when they come!
Summary: When he was little, Naruto had enough of all the bad things that were done to him so he ran away from Konoha. Discovered what would have been his life if the story had been like that! Yaoi Of course ^^
Pairing: main pairing Itasasunaru, hint of GaaraNaru, NejiNaru end GaaraNeji and of course KakaIru ^^
Chapter one
The lonely child
'It will never end. It will always be the same. All people who look at me see a monster. What have I done to them? I don't know. I have never done anything. As far as my memories go back, they always had the same look in their eyes. Hatred, fear, anger, disgust … Nobody never showed me love. I don't know what it is. I don't understand why they hate me so much.'
This was what this little five years old child was thinking about. He was alone in his run-down apartment covered in blood, bruises and cuts. Walls were covered with horrible words written with his own blood. That night had been the worst of his life. They had come, had done horrible things to him, had written those horrible things with his blood and had left like nothing had ever happened. Nobody had come to his help. Nobody had ever cared about him. He hadn't a mom. He hadn't a dad. There was nobody.
'- I'm so sorry little kit.'
'- Dare?'
'- I'm called Kyuubi no Kitsune, I'm a nine-tailed red fox.'
'- Why do you apologize? Where are you?'
'- I apologize … because it's because of me that they're treating you like this. Five years ago, the Fourth Hokage sealed me inside of your body. He died when he sealed me. They hate you because they're seeing you as me, the murderer of their beloved hokage. I'm so sorry.'
'- I'm a monster … that what those words mean."
'- You're not a monster, I'm one.'
'- It's the same for them. You said they were seeing me as you.'
'- Kit … I'm sorry.'
The little child didn't say anything. He just stayed there without blinking. Hours went by and the little boy finally decided to move. He stood and took a small bag. He put a blanket, some food, some clothes in it and closed it. He took a shower, changed clothes, took his bag and left his prison.
'- Where are you going, Kit'?
'- I don't know, nothing can be worst than here.'
'- There only one thing I can do for you.'
'- What is it?'
'- I can heal your wounds, I mean physically.'
'- Please, Kyuubi-san, do it. It hurt when I move.'
The fox didn't answer and healed him. The small child left the village without anyone seeing him. Like somebody would even care about him. It was night too. The little boy walked, walked, walked without knowing where he was going. He finally stopped after a few hours near a great tree not too far from a river. He sat near the tree and ate a little.
'- Kit, you must eat more.'
'- I can't, I don't have lot of food. I have to spare some since I don't know when I'm going to find food.'
'- I can teach you some things to help you catch fishes or rabbits.'
'- True?'
'- Yes.'
The small child fell asleep. The fox had said he was going to teach him so he had to sleep. He had rolled himself in his blanket and was now sleeping like a little animal. By the time the sun set up, at Konoha, the village the small child had left, some people wearing weird masks had discovered the atrocities in the run-down apartment. Some of them stayed and two other left to go see the Hokage. He was in a meeting with some team's captains when the weird people entered the place without warning.
"- Hokage-sama, please come with us. There is a problem." Said the man who was kneeling respectively.
The old man stood up and in a poof of smoke, he disappeared. All the people who were with him previously followed him. They all re-appeared in the small apartment. The few women who were with them covered their mouth to not scream in horror.
"- For god sake, what happened here? Where is Naruto?" Said the old Hokage.
"- We didn't find him, some of his stuff had disappeared. He's nowhere to be found, Hokage-sama." Said an ANBU, one of the people wearing a mask.
"- I want you to find what happened here! If it's what I think it was, I won't be easy on the one who did that. All of the other, you go search for him and it will be better for you to bring him back unharmed." The Hokage said.
In a poof of smoke, all the ANBU disappeared and now was only remaining the Hokage and a few teams' captains.
"- Hokage, whom apartment is it?" asked a man with only one eye visible.
"- That's the apartment of Uzumaki Naruto, a five years old child."
"- Uzumaki … You mean …"
"- Yes. Please send some people to clean all of that after the investigation."
In a poof of smoke he disappeared and a few moments after, all the other did the same. He went back to his office and prayed for the child to be all right.
Five years went by without any track of Naruto. The five years old child was now ten and was living alone in a way. But Kyuubi had taught him a lot of thing and he was now able to protect himself and do things by himself. The only thing was that he wasn't able to smile. Nothing was able to make him smile. He had never smiled. He had become quite good friend with the Kitsune inside of him. Kyuubi had taught him all kind of things. Taijutsu, genjutsu, kinjustu … and some forbidden techniques like the kage boushin.
He had move a lot and was never staying at the same place for more than a week. He didn't want to go back to his nightmare. Even if he was now ten years old soon to be eleven, he was still small and had a tiny body. He had trained a lot but he hadn't a lot of muscles.
At Konoha, the old Hokage had died during a war with a snake man called Orochimaru. Now, they were in search of a new Hokage and had send a man, a long white haired man name Jiraiya who was calling himself a great perverted hermit.
It was a sunny day, no clouds, and no wind. Just the sun and the blue sky. Jiraiya had found where was Tsunade, who had been made the fifth Hokage, and was now heading this way. He decided to take a short break and sat near a tree. He was trying to write some of his Icha Icha Paradise but he had no inspiration. He stood up when he heard a noise. It was a waterfall and who said waterfall said pretty women. So he headed this way but there was nobody. He sighed but hid when he heard noise near. He looked carefully and saw a beautiful little blond that he mistook for a girl. The little boy began to undress and went in the water. Jiraiya understood that he was a boy. This little boy was somehow familiar to him.
He looked at the boy's clothes. They were all dirty and had a lot of holes. How was this little boy living? Jiraiya took back his attention on him. The little boy was near the edge and was cleaning his face. When he had finished cleaning his hair and his body, he left and put on his clothes. He hadn't a towel so he was always doing that. He hadn't new clothes. They were still his old one but now, like he had grown a little, they weren't at the right size anymore. His pants were long shorts and his pull was a t-shirt and was revealing his tan skin. He was tiny with skin on bones. Jiraiya decided to stop hiding and walked to the small boy. He froze when he recognize him. He was just looking like one of his students, dead today. Namikaze Minato. He put a smile on.
"- Good morning, little boy." He said.
"- Dare?" Naruto answered.
"- My name is Jiraiya. I'm a hermit. What's your name?"
"- Monster, demon, evil … Call me as you like, I forgot years ago what was my real name." He said lowly.
Naruto walked away bare feet. He hadn't shoes since his last one were too little. He went to the trap that Kyuubi had taught him how to build. He had catch two rabbits, now he had just to make a fire. Jiraiya had frozen when he had heard the little boy's answer. He had asked him even if he already knew his name. Something must have happened for him to be there and not remembering his own name. He decided that Tsunade could wait. He went after the little boy. He saw two rabbits and the little boy who was setting a fire.
"- Hey, boy, can I keep you company?" He asked.
"- As you like, sir." Naruto said.
"- Since when do you live like that?" Jiraiya asked forming a few hands seal.
"- Five nearly six years." Naruto took the rabbits just when Jiraiya was using a fire jutsu to accelerate the fire.
Naruto didn't say anything. He gave Jiraiya a rabbit to thanks him for the fire and began to remove the skin and the fur of his own. When he had finish, he put it over the fire and waited. They said nothing. Jiraiya didn't know what to say. He didn't understand what had happened to this little boy for him to live like an animal. He couldn't take it anymore.
"- Nee, boy, want to come with me to the nearest village?" He asked.
"- No, don't want to." He said between two mouthfuls.
"- Why not? I won't do anything to you." Jiraiya said.
"- Because monsters don't have the right to live with other people." He simply said.
"- You're not a monster. You're just a little boy." Jiraiya said.
"- In people's eyes, I'm a monster. I don't have a place to go neither where I belong."
"- Then come with me, I will give you a home. I just have to find a friend of mine before."
"- I'm going with to find your "friend" but that all, when you will go back to your village, I won't go with you."
"- Why that?"
"- I already told you."
Naruto finished his rabbit without saying anything else and put some water on the fire. When it was turned off, he stood and looked at Jiraiya.
"- We're going? Sooner you find your friend, sooner you will return to the place where you belong."
Jiraiya didn't say anything. He wasn't going to give up on this child, once he had found Tsunade, he was sure she was going to do the same. They went to the nearest village, which was the one Tsunade was in, and walked the street. People looked at Naruto with disgust and pity in their eyes but he didn't mind them. Jiraiya stopped at a hotel and asked for a room. He went in with Naruto and gave him a yukata. They were going to the hot spring. Naruto had never gone to one. He didn't understand why Jiraiya was so gentle with him and somehow Naruto had a killing pain in his chest. He didn't know why. When he entered the hot water, he shivered. It was the first time since a long time that he was bathing in hot water.
After a long moment, they left and put on their yukata again. Jiraiya had told one of the servants to go buy clothes for Naruto and to throw away the old one. When Naruto looked for his clothes, he didn't find them. Jiraiya gave him the new one and explained him before he could refuse. Kyuubi told him to accept them. Naruto put them on, they were too big but like that he wasn't cold. They left the hotel and began to look for Tsunade. They entered a playhouse and were separated because of the people. Naruto walked a little and stopped near a table where a blond woman with big breast was.
'- It's been a long time since I saw something like that.' Said Kyuubi.
'- What is it?' asked Naruto in his mind.
'- It's called the Roulette. You have to put some money on the number you think the little ball will go on. If it does, you win. Like that you can win a lot of money.' Explained Kyuubi.
'- How do you know? You're a Kitsune. You can't play.' Said Naruto without understanding.
'- It's true but I live a long time so I know a lot of thing. I actually never play but I know the rules. You could try.' Kyuubi said.
'- I don't have money.' Naruto stated.
'- Don't need, just whisper the number you think it will be.' Kyuubi said.
Naruto walked and stood near the woman with big breast and looked at the number on the table and the roulette. He whispered the number nine and waited. The woman beside him, looked at him but put another number. It was the nine. Naruto didn't even blink, he said another and four times in a row, he had been right. Just when he was walking away to try to find Jiraiya, he felt himself lifted and looked at who it was. It was the woman with big breast.
"- What are you doing here alone? This is not a place for a child."
"- I'm searching for someone with someone but I lost him in this crow." Naruto said.
"- Then, until the person you came with show herself, stay and play with me."
"- But I don't have money to play."
"- I lend you some."
"- What if I lose? I don't have money to give you back."
"- Don't worry about that."
She smiled at him and looked at the table. Naruto looked at the table and at the roulette and said a number and won. They played like that numerous times before a young dark haired woman arrived.
"- Tsunade-sama, I just met with Jiraiya-sama. He said he had something to tell you." She said.
"- Shizune, I'm playing and this little boy makes me win! Said to Jiraiya I will see him another time." The woman who was holding Naruto said.
"- But he said it was really important."
"- Ah …" She sighed. "Let's go."
She put Naruto down and followed Shizune and Naruto followed them. Tsunade and Shizune noticed that. She stopped and looked at him.
"- Why are you following us?" Tsunade said.
"- I'm going to say good bye to Jiraiya-san. I just want him to give me my bag back and after I leave. It was the deal." Naruto answered.
"- The deal? What is that?" Tsunade said her eyebrows frowned.
"- I told him I was going to help him find his friend and after I'd go back. Now, he had found you so there is no need for me anymore." Naruto saw Jiraiya and ran toward him.
"- Yo, little boy. You found her." He said.
"- Somehow. Can I have my bag back? I help you like I promise now, I want to go back." Naruto said.
"- Why not eat with us tonight?" Jiraiya asked.
"- Don't want to, it will be too late after to go back." Naruto said.
"- We need to go back to the hotel if you want your bag." Jiraiya said.
"- Then I go ahead."
Naruto left and Jiraiya sighed. Tsunade and Shizune had heard all of their little conversation.
"- What is the meaning of this, Jiraiya?" She asked severely.
"- I found this little boy in the wood when I was coming here to find you. He said he was living there since nearly six years. He was in a really dirty state. His clothes were not at his size and were all in a bad state. He was bare feet too. At first, I didn't recognize him but I know who he is but I don't know why he was in the wood alone. When I asked him his name, he simply told me to call him like the other: monster, demon, evil … I only had to choose since he wasn't remembering his name anymore."
"- What the hell is all of that? Who's this child?" She said angrily.
"- You didn't recognize him? He doesn't look like someone we both knew?" Jiraiya said.
"- You mean he's … Naruto?" She said with a chocked face.
"- Yes. I don't know what happened to him. I didn't ask either. He just doesn't want to stay in a village." Jiraiya said.
"- Where is he now?" Tsunade asked.
"- He went back to the hotel to fetch his bag." He said.
"- Let's go. I don't want him to go without knowing what happened." Tsunade said.
"- What if he doesn't want to talk?" suggested Jiraiya.
"- I will see if this time comes. Why are you here? Shizune said you wanted to talk about something really important."
"- Oh, you just had been designed to be the Fifth Hokage of Konoha." He said.
"- Nani? " She screamed angrily.
Tsunade made her way back to the hotel and found Naruto who was putting on his shoes. He had his bag on his back and was ready to leave.
"- Boy, where are you going? You were leaving like a thief without saying good bye?" She said.
"- What if it was that? We don't know each other so I have no obligations toward you." He answered while standing.
"- We need to talk, boy." She said.
"- Don't want to. I have nothing to say to you." He went to the door where he found Jiraiya.
"- You're ready to leave? Stay with us tonight. We treat you to delicious food." Jiraiya said.
"- No thanks, it will be too late to go back after." He said. "Thank you for the clothes." He added while bowing.
"- If you really want to thanks me, you have to accept my invitation."
'- Kyuubi-san, what do I do?' He asked the Kitsune inside of him.
'- Accept! It's free food and you will have a bed for the night. You'll go back tomorrow morning when they will be asleep.' The Kitsune answered.
"- Just for tonight. Tomorrow I'll leave." Naruto said.
Jiraiya and Tsunade exchanged a little smile and went to Tsunade's room to eat dinner. Naruto was enjoying the food even if no feelings were showing on his face. He ate all he could and thanks them. Tsunade and Jiraiya were drinking sake and Shizune was holding dessert to Naruto. He took it and began to eat it. It was really good but he was full. He only ate one part and stopped there.
"- Boy, what's your name?" Tsunade asked with a smile.
"- Call me as you like … People always use what they want." He said.
"- You don't recall your name?" She asked.
"- I don't know, there was this old man who was calling me … Naruto … I think it was … but he only use it once. So I don't know if it was my name or if he mistook me with someone else. But why do you need my name? We won't see each other ever again." He asked.
"- Don't say that. We will see each other a lot." Tsunade said.
"- My name is Shizune and that woman name is Tsunade. Nice to meet you, Naruto-kun." Shizune said while smiling.
"- 'Nice to meet you', nee?" He said lowly.
He stood and went to a corner of the room. He lay down and closed his eyes. Five minutes later, he was sleeping rolled on himself. The table was cleaned and they all went to bed too. Tsunade put Naruto on a futon and covered him with a blanket. She lay down next to him and fell asleep after a long time. Jiraiya and Shizune did the same.
When the sun rose up, Tsunade awoke to find the futon next to her, empty. Naruto had left without saying anything. She awoke Jiraiya and Shizune and they all left soon after. They paid the hotel and were now searching for Naruto.