It was silent, except for the wind whipping through my hair as I stood underneath the dark endless sky, waiting for it to bring me my death. I slowly stepped forward, claiming my consequences before the rest of my family, before they could take the blame of my wrong doings.
Just as the wolves came to me, I acted instinctively and threw my hands up to cover my face. As I did that, they all flew backwards and hit the trees, before crashing to the ground in harmony. The only thing that shocked me was that I never touched any of them.
That's the first time I ever used any of my abilities. The first time I used them without the consciousness of my mind.
It was only the beginning.
" Bells!" Chris yelled from the living room. I could hear him and Shane playing another gory video game.
"What?" I responded from in the kitchen. I really didn't know why we were yelling. I could hear him perfectly even if he whispered.
" Can you please grab me a beer?" He asked, this time without yelling.
"Why can't you get it yourself?" I huffed while pulling out the onions from the fridge and handing them to Heather.
" Because I'm kicking ass over here!" He replied.
I rolled my eyes and walked over to the pantry doors. I stepped inside and turned on the lights. It was fun taking my time because it pissed both Shane and Chris off. It only took a moment to walk to the back and reach the stainless steal, double door fridge that held all our liquor. Grabbing two beers, I walked out with the lights turned off and went into the living room to give them both a beer.
" What took you so long?" He frowned.
I heard Heather gasp. " Oh, no he did not!" She walked into the room and placed her hands on her small hips. " She just got you both a beer and you ask what took her so long? Next time you want something, get off your fat ass and get it yourself." She yelled at Chris.
He flinched like he had just been slapped in the face. He paused the game and turned towards me. "Sorry Bells." He did that puppy dog face that he thought worked on me.
Shane shook his head. " Thanks Bells. Told you that he was an ass though and you didn't believe me." He chuckled.
" You guys are gay." I rolled my eyes and walked out of the room with Heather at my side.
"You know there is going to be a time when you say that to the wrong person! People take that to offense when you call them gay!" Shane yelled after me.
" Oh shut up romeo! If you weren't my best friend I would think you were gay! And I'm sure that other people do too!" Heather spat at him.
I laughed and heard him huff and unpause the game. He was pissed that Heather said that. He was so dramatic when it came to calling him gay. He wasn't gay but there has been times where we were all shopping and people have confronted him about how it was nice to have someone gay there to tell us girls how we looked. And to tell you, he wasn't happy.
I did have a friend like that though some years back and it was nice. He was a really great guy. Sadly he ended up with cancer and died.
Me and Heather made dinner and as soon as the food was set at the table, it was attacked by the boys. I rolled my eyes.
" Bells? Can you go get Nate for me? I'm sure he is in the 'extra' room, if you know what I mean." Heather asked me as she wagged her eyebrows when she said 'extra'.
" Sure." I said as I lightly bounded up the stairs and into the Safe room. That room was originally designed for feeding. As in feeding on humans. If you got out of there, that meant you knew where the button was for the door to open. The only people that knew where it was is me, Shane, Heather, Nate, Alyssa and Chris.
The room isn't used for feeding anymore, since we choose to feed off of animals and human food. So the room is used for privacy, a place to be left alone and have time to yourself.
I opened the door and walked in, climbing a second flight of stairs into the dark room.
" Nate?" I asked into the darkness. I could see him even though there was no source of light entering the room. Immortals had no problem seeing into the darkest of darkness. It was something we could do.
" Whats up little sister?" He asked me. He had called me that ever since he got married to Heather. She was my sister so that made him my brother-in-law.
" Heather wants you downstairs. They are eating. But by the time you get down there Chris and Shane would probably have cleaned us out of food already. So get your butt down there." I said, laughing at how truthful it was. Feeding those two was work.
" Alright." He sighed and got up from the couch, walking to the nearest wall and pulling a picture aside to press the button and release the door at the bottom of the stairs.
He paused at the top of the stairs. " Your not eating with us, are you?" He turned around to face me with a worried expression running across his face.
I looked down at the dark, wood paneled floor. "No." I sighed.
" You should really eat something Bells. Your getting really skinny." He said as he shook his head and turned around to bound down the stairs.
" I know." I said softly, knowing he was already downstairs and couldn't hear me.
I walked down the stairs and closed the door behind me, making sure it was closed all the way. I made my way to my room and walked in, not bothering to lock it.
The sun was setting in the horizon, cascading beautiful colors across the skyline, showing it was the end of yet another day. I walked to my porch and sat on the railing, leaning against the side of the pale vinyl siding of the house.
Inhaling the soft scents that ruled the air around me, I closed my eyes and hummed to myself sadly. Its been almost 114 years since I really had a time to breathe and think about life. I never had time before, believe it or not. It didn't cross my mind until today that I missed home. Its been so long since I have been in Forks, and I wanted to go back. I wanted to visit the places that held all my most precious memories, the ones I tried to hold closest to my heart throughout all these years.
The memories that left me breathless wove their way into my head as I let the tears I held back run down my cheeks. They came with no sign of stopping. I cried for about another ten minutes, thinking about how much I had lost when I was human.
I lost my dad a few months after I graduated. He had died while on duty, responding to a call of a shooting at the town limits. He was shot twice in the leg and suffered a bullet to the head. He passed away as the ambulance got him to the hospital.
I lost most of my friends when they went to a party, getting drunk and playing with fire. The house caught fire and they couldn't get out. They perished in flames, the second worst way to go.
I had lost my heart. It had been taken when Edward had left. He took it with him and I never got it back. This was the first most horrible way to die. Dying of a broken heart.
The soft tears that fell became more of streams as they gushed down my face and soft sobs came out of my chest.
"Bella?" I jumped at the sound of Shane's face. "Can I come in?" He asked.
I turned my head to see him standing in my doorway, his face was smeared in worry. As soon as he saw me he ran to my side and hugged me.
" Bella, honey, whats wrong?" He pulled back to look in my eyes.
" Nothing." I sniffed and whipped my tears away with my finger tips.
" You're not crying for nothing, Bella. You know you can tell me anything." He said as he stroked my hair.
" I know. I... Its just hard to." I said between sobs.
He squeezed my shoulders. "It's alright Bells, honey. You don't have to if you don't want to." He cooed in my ear as he rubbed my back.
I leaned into him and closed my eyes, feeling a bit better. I always knew that I could tell Shane anything. I wanted to tell him but I'm not sure if I could handle it.