Hey everyone! So this is my first non-FanFiction, FanFiction, so to speak. It's not technically about Seddie, but Jathan! The only reason I wrote this, was because of some serious pent up frustration that I have about the two of them. Now that iCarly has stopped filming and they are all going their separate ways, I just can't but think that it can't be over between Jennette and Nathan! Ugh! So unfair! So anyways, here is a little four shot that I came up with because I could. Sorry if you don't like it and also sorry in advance for any grammatical errors! But most importantly enjoy!

Disclaimer: I do not and will never own iCarly, Sam, Freddie, Carly, Jennette, Nathan, or Miranda!

Chapter 1

Jennette bent over the laptop that was sitting on her legs.

It wasn't that she was hiding the video she was watching, it was just that she didn't want anyone to see

. Okay, so maybe she was hiding it, but it was for good reason. She turned the volume down even lower than the already 20% it was on.

She didn't want to risk anybody hearing it too. She wasn't sure why she was being so sneaky, it wasn't like she was doing anything wrong.

The video she was watching was one of her and Nathan doing an interview with TrueTV, and it was one of her least favorites because they had been asked THE question. She was just getting to it now.

"So, do you guys get asked a lot about the kissing scenes from fans?" Jennifer was asking. Jennette gave a small smile that was supposed to look embarrassed. Nathan in turn gave a smile of his own and answered for both of them.

"Yeah we do. But we always tell people that we do what we have to do. I mean come on, it's like kissing your sister," he said and continued to smile at her as if waiting for her to agree. In truth Jennette was crushed. He'd never put it like that before.

Denied feelings, gotten another girlfriend, but called her a sister? Never. She remembered smiling and nodding back as if what he'd said made perfect sense. And maybe to him it did. But to her? Jennette knew that she shouldn't feel for him the way she did.

He was her best friend and had been from the time they'd met until now, but Jennette had always had feelings for him. Sure she hadn't realized just how strong they were until he'd given her first kiss. She smiled fondly at the memory.

She'd been so nervous they'd had to do the scene three times before she got it right. Now, with the computer on her lap, she scrolled down through the comments smiling the whole way through. 'Jennette and Nathan are so cute,' 'Why aren't they dating yet?' 'Sister? Nobody looks at their sister the way Nate looks at her.'

These comments were her favorite. It was just the video and the important person's opinion that mattered...not the fans'. "Whatcha looking at?" Said a voice behind her. Jennette jumped and slammed the laptop shut before turning around.

"Dang Nathan you scared me!" She exclaimed, one hand on her throat. It would figure that while she was brooding over her unfair love-life, the source of the problems would be the one to find her. He raised an eyebrow at the computer.

"What were you looking at?" He asked again. "Nothing really just checking Twitter," she lied smoothly. He looked at her for a moment and smirked slightly. "Liar. I can't believe you think that works on me. I can tell when you're lying get this cute little crinkle between your eyes."

She scoffed. "I do not." She knew she didn't sound very confident. His smirk faded.

"Yes you do. You're lying and I don't know why. You never lie to me," he responded. Jennette knew if she stuck around long enough he'd eventually get the truth out of her, and she definitely didn't want that. So she slid the laptop off her lap and stuck it in her messenger bag.

"I'm not lying to you," she shrugged and she walked around the couch in her dressing room. He was standing just inside the doorway. She made a move to get around him, but as she went to pass him, he reached out to grab her arm. His grip was gentle.

"Jennette," he said softly, his voice almost filled with something like pain. "What?" She almost snapped. She was trying to get away from him for this very reason. She wanted to reach out and wrap her arms around him, and...No! She couldn't think like that.

She couldn't risk their friendship. "Please talk to me. You've been acting distant lately. But just towards me. With everyone else you're fine. Same old Jennette. But with me? You seem different. Did I do something?" Now Nathan's voice did see to be filled with pain.

"No, I'm fine. Everything is fine," Jennette could feel herself shaking. It wasn't from anger. She hardly ever got angry. No, her will was crumbling. In a few short moments she would be putty in his hands. Which was why she had to leave, now. "Nettie?" He said softly.

Before she knew what she was doing, she'd ripped her arm out of his grip. This seemed to startle both of them. But what she said next took the cake. "Don't bother with it Nathan. Just forget it okay? I'm fine. Everything is fine. I'm not lying to you.

And even if I was it's not like it's the first time," and with that she turned around and walked away. If she hadn't, she would have seen Nathan's shocked, crushed look and she would have seen him deflate right there. She would have seen him turn slowly and walk into his dressing room that he'd begged to have put right beside hers.

And most importantly she would have seen the one tear that slipped out and rolled down his cheek before he hastily rubbed it away.

Jennette blamed the video. If she hadn't been watching it, she probably wouldn't have been so frustrated with him.

But it wasn't his fault. Not really. He had no idea she liked him. Or at least she hoped not.

She knew she'd been harsh, but really maybe this was for the best. Maybe she needed some time away from him to get her head clear. Then she'd come back, feeling nothing for him but friendship. That is, if he still wanted to be friends.

Of course he would. It wasn't like they were fighting. Just a small disagreement to go with all the others. Well actually they didn't fight all that much so maybe not. Oh well, she'd cross that bridge when she came to it.

Now, she had to head over to Dan's office for a meeting with him. He'd told her that he had big news to share with her and Nathan, and they were supposed to come together which is what he'd shown up at her dressing room to do, she now thought.

So she'd have to make an excuse for Nathan, no big deal. It wasn't until she stopped just outside Dan's office and reached out to knock that she noticed her hands shaking. She hadn't noticed before and maybe she hadn't wanted to.

She hated hurting Nathan's feelings. Hated it with every fiber of her being. But she couldn't have stayed there much longer and she knew the only reason she had done it was because she knew it was the only way to get him to let her go.

He couldn't find out. Couldn't know how she really felt about him. It would ruin their friendship because he obviously didn't like her that way. So, she told herself, willing her hand to stop shaking. She'd done it for the sake of her friendship with Nathan. She knocked on the door and opened it. Dan Schneider was sitting behind a legit looking desk that papers and gum wrappers all over the top. "There's one. Where is you're not better half." Dan smiled. "I think he had a phone call to make. I'm supposed to relay the message," Jennette lied smoothly. "That's fine. I just figured I'd let you guys know before rehearsal tomorrow...Seddie's getting back together!"

Jennette made her way back to her dressing room in a daze. She'd managed to make it out of Dan's office in one piece, but now she could feel herself starting to tear apart. It had been hard enough the first go round when they'd had to kiss and hug and hold hands.

But again? When she'd barely survived the first time? And now when they were losing each other as friends? If she didn't love Dan so much, she wouldn't have agreed to do it. Even now if she told him that she couldn't, he'd change it for her, hut she couldn't do that to him. Instead of going straight to her dressing room like she'd planned, she walked next door to Nathan's and knocked.

It only took him a few seconds to answer and when he opened the door he looked surprised to see her. "Back again for round two," he said harshly. Jennette cringed and he immediately felt bad. "I'm sorry. That was mean," he apologized sincerely. Jennette held up a hand. "Don't apologize. I deserved it. I deserve much worse." He sighed heavily and ran a hand through his hair.

"No you do-" "Yeah I do," she cut him off, "I'm the one who should be sorry. I snapped at you first.

He made move as if to reach out and hug her but she put a hand up, further pushing him away. He was confused and hurt and a bit angry.

What was going on with her?

"I just came by to tell you that Dan wanted to let us know the Sam and Freddie are going to get back together. So get ready for lots of mushy gushy crap." Jennette deadpanned.

Was he really that bad? Nathan thought to himself. Did it really kill her to have to pretend that she was dating him? Even if it wasn't them. "Fabulous, maybe they won't screw it up this time," Nathan announced and shut the door in her face affectively ending the conversation.

As shocked as she was, she knew she deserved it. So, with that she walked over to her dressing room, and as soon as the door was closed, she slid down to the floor and began to cry.

So that was Chapter 1! Did you like? Did you not like? I wont know unless you comment!