Hello and welcome to my very first fanfic. I love Sookie and Eric together but up until book 8 I thought that Sookie would end with Sam, so I decided to give it a shot. I want to thank Suki59, onefee27, and especially for giving me the push I needed to get past the first post jitters.

"Sookie! I found it! It's perfect!" I ran upstairs to Amelia's room not bothering to hide my excitement. Amelia had been searching for the perfect spell for days to help me.

"You found it? Are you sure it will work?" Please, please let it work.

"Of course it will work, have I ever steered you wrong?" I stopped to think about that. The only real disaster Amelia had with magic had been during sex and I wasn't about to have sex with her.

"You promise you're not going to turn me into a cat?" Please don't turn me into a cat. Or a bug, I really don't want to be a bug.

"One time I messed up! Once! And I'm never going to live it down!" Amelia flopped herself onto her bed. "I just got off of the phone with Octavia, she assured me this spell is legit and should work as exactly as it says."

"What exactly will it do to me?" I had to know all of the side effects before I could participate. Anything to do two heads, nausea, or turning into a bug. Please don't turn me into a bug.

"When you speak to the one who holds your heart, you won't be able to lie to him." Amelia answered.

That didn't sound so bad. I'd been running from Eric for so long now, just like I ran from Bill. Even being married in the vampire world didn't stop me from running. I couldn't seem to own up to my feelings for him, like I had part of myself locked away from him. Almost like I had part of my heart locked away from myself. If you lie to yourself, is it really a lie?

"It only lasts until the brightest moment of the full moon." Uh oh. The full moon was tomorrow. I keep track of these things now with the amount of Weres and shifters I know. There's only one secret I was keeping from Eric, well everyone, and while I was pretty sure it wouldn't come up in one night, over the course of a month it might. I could do the spell today and see if it works tonight, or wait a month to try it.

"When can we do the spell?" I asked.

"Right now if you want, I have everything we need already. It's actually a really simple spell."

I looked at the clock and realized the sun would set in about an hour. That would give me plenty of time to do the spell, get ready, and drive to Shreveport. "Let's do it." I tried not to let my nerves show in my voice. Even if the spell went wrong it would only last until tomorrow. Hopefully.

I watched as Amelia placed her crystals around the room. She selected some herbs and instructed me to sit on the floor. She added the herbs to some kind of oil, mixed them in a bowl, and then grabbed my hand. She pricked my finger and added a drop of my blood to the mixture. Then she recited some words in what I would guess was Latin and lit the mixture on fire. It burned out in a few seconds.

"Done."

"Already?" I could smell the magic in the air, almost taste it on the tip of my tongue but it seemed to happen so quickly. I would be a fool not realize that this spell could change my life.

"Yep."

"How do I know it's working?" Besides telling Eric the one thing that could get me killed.

"It's working, trust me. Time to find tall, blonde, and dead and lie to him."

I pondered my fate as I walked down the stairs to my room. I certainly didn't feel any different. I wanted this spell to work. Ever since I was a little girl I wanted what every little girl wanted, a husband who loved me, 2.5 kids, a house, and maybe even a dog. I gave up that dream once I realized I would hear every thought my husband would think. I can't hear vampire thoughts.

Maybe tonight I could make some new dreams.