Description: Bella is new and just moved to Chicago. When she meets Edward, life is never going to be the same ever again. What will happen when disaster strikes and Bella is left to cope? all human!! and lemon if you guys want!

ok, well this is just something that came to me while i was taking a shower a couple of hours ago. Based a little off the book Kissed by an Angel by Elizabeth Chandler. Made for Edward and Bella.

well i hope you like!

Sing Me to Sleep

Introduction: Life

There are many definitions of life.

Life: noun. A living being.

Life: noun. animation; liveliness; spirit.

It's cruel to think about the different definitions of life for me after what has happened. It will never again be the same as it was before. Nothing will ever be the same now. Before, there was meaning to the days- reasons to get up in the morning, to do the usual routine, to eat meals, to do anything.

Now that was all gone. Now, I was left with the past and what was. My friends may have been right when they said things were happening too fast. But I didn't care. Maybe I should have listened to them. It might have been easier for me to endure this pain. It wouldn't be so intense, and maybe I'd be able to actually breathe. Then again, if I had, then I wouldn't have the memories I do. I wouldn't have the happiest moments of my life.

Now that everything I lived for was gone, what should I live for? Nothing seemed important enough to me. I go through the daily motions, but that's it. Inside, I cry. Inside, where my heart once existed, there is an empty hollowness. It's like a thirst I cannot quench, a need that will never be fulfilled. It was a pain where no matter where I went or what I did, it would always be right there with me, never to let me forget.

I lay in bed with my eyes scrunched as tight as they can go. My legs were curled into me in a fetal position, my arms securely locked around them. When I wasn't at school, this is how I would spend my time. Through my closed eyes, I'd try to escape the endless agony that was always pounding through me. I tried to think of nothing. I focused on a blank wall; a wall where shadows consumed it, shrouding it in darkness.

My breathing would be in short, shallow pants. It hurt in my lungs like a physical aching to respire. Never was I allowed a chance to intake a breath of relief, for every time I inhaled, I was reminded of what happened. Reminded of how I was still breathing when I shouldn't be.

I was glad that I kept my blinds firmly shut and my light off. My room was in complete darkness and for that I was thankful. No light shown anywhere in the room, there was no light for me to see. For this I was thankful. Darkness had become my ally because when I saw light, it is forever associated with happiness, which I can't endure anymore.

Tears silently ran down my cheeks as I thought about how happy I was before. I missed it so much and wish for anything that I could go back to that time.

I continued this process like I have been for the past week.

Why do I have to live through this pain?

remember- this is an introduction, so yes, this will be shorter!

i'd really really really REALLY would love a comment. it would seriously make everything better. i've had kinda a crappy week. i cherrish every comment i get.

tell me if you like it. love it. hate it.

love you bunches!

Starrynight630