I wake up in the mornings, shivering, cold and feeling blue, why do I do this to myself, why am I missing you. I think of giving you a call, but then I realize you wouldn't answer it's a quarter to four. Sometimes when I get up it feels like I fall down, I try to get up and get rid of my frown. Sometimes when Im at my worst, God knows I wish you'd just knock on my door. I hate these Long days, and longer nights When I'm calling for you, and you're nowhere around. I miss you badly, I wish this would stop. I miss you badly, it's breaking my heart. My heart will never stop beating the sound your name. Wish you was here with me each and every day. Right here beside me my love, where you could stay, right here beside me in my arms is where you belong. Distance does not become easier to endure the longer you stay away. I ask myself through out the day Can I hold my thoughts, can I hold my emotions? Can I hold my longing for you, Is all this necessary? For one more day I'll handle the pain. Why did You leave me standing in the rain, is it just because you couldn't understand my pain. You left me going crazy, literally insane. If only id stopped you from walking away. I should of held on to you with a strong embrace. Please forgive me of my past mistakes. Give me another chance to put that smile back on your face. That smile I took away, and misplaced. It hurts Knowing I can't have your gentle touch. Begging and pleading with the Lord, for your love. Praying for one more day, I could have you in my arms, dancing at our wedding to our favorite song. I pray it's you one day knocking on my door. No one comes so I wait, my Love is always on delay. You left me knowing I'll never again have your heart have my best friend. So you can have words from my heart while we're apart. I'll still love you, even when I can't have you, I'm sorry for all the love lost. The lights will be on just in case you need my arms, I promise to hold you all night long.
Jesse Boston