Translation: Coming at you live!

Sorry for not creating anything up till now, but at school Oh My Gosh! Such frantic days at school that I'm not able to keep up with it. I mean, first I'm kicked out of guitar class for not knowing how to play, then a friend of mine(Knew from school) died over the week so we held a memorial for him T^T And now I'm stuck doing two projects, originally three but I finished two of them but I still have to do a bit more…Without further ado…

Pairing~ RyomaX Ryoga

Warning: Contains Shounen-ai & Incest! Turn back now if you disgrace these two things. May have a spoiler.

No summary this time, find out for yourselves what is going on!

If we could change ourselves

to be

something we're not,

what right

do we have

to step on those

who don't have to change?

Ryoma's POV~

It feels like just yesterday when I first met up with him. Not a day goes by that I don't stop to think about him. My mind is set but I feel my heart leaving my body. Like without him around, my heart will die as will my body. As if my world never really existed unless he was there. To think a day would ever come that I am able to finally see him again. After two years, the day I last saw him was the day he told me to "Find your grand dream!". I have to wonder if it really is possible without him.

It was now winter and Christmas was drawing in fast. Ryoga had sent my father a letter, stating that he would be joining us for the new years. That was three days ago. For this winter, my father planned a trip just for the five of us. And for once no sport-like activities for us to participate in. Unless someone who I know happened to be going too. Reluctantly, I agreed to it and had to endure my father's smothering hugs.

I felt uneasy telling Momo-senpai about my trip and decided to keep it a secret for when I came back. The trip was in a week, or until my brother came then we would be able to go. My father was excited but was really getting in over his head about it and kept packing the weirdest stuff. I sighed and scratched Karupin behind the ear and smiled a little as he meowed at the glorious scratch service he was getting. I heard a knock on the front door. Knowing my father to be too involved into his packing to realize that anyone was at the door and my mother and cousin were out shopping for groceries, I got up and rushed to get the door.

"Yo, Chibisuke!" I could feel my heart skip a beat as I saw the same smile he had back then.

Not knowing what to do, I shut the door without realizing it. Thinking to myself for a bit I re-gathered my mind while my brother stood outside in the freezing cold.

"Oi! How rude chibiuske, to do this to your own brother" My face flushed red and I opened the door as quickly as I had opened it.

"It wasn't on purpose!" Still blushing, I ran upstairs to pack my things. My brother followed.

"Eh…you have too much of a normal room, where's all the chicks?" I grunted while my brother put his things down on the floor.

"Unlike you, some of us have a serious mind to get where we want to be" Being so scientific, I ignored most of what he said.

"You haven't changed much at all!" He pulled me into a headlock and rubbed my head real fast.

"Let go!"

"Not until you say I'm the best brother you've ever had"

"You're my only brother you idiot, now let go!" I tried to pry my head free of Ryoga's grasp and succeeded.

"You're not cute at all. It's no wonder you don't have a girlfriend"

"Shut up and get out! I don't have a brother!" I shut my mouth real quick after noticing what I had just shouted out. I could feel the tears coming and covered my mouth with my hand.

Without feeling them, the tears fell. Running down my cheek and onto the soft, carpet floor, they ran for as long as the silence kept up. I backed away from my bag and into the wall next to the door, still in shock. I was surprised to see that Ryoga had not left after me saying that. I began to cry even more since he had now seen me like this. Distraught, stressed and relieved. Ryoga looked at me with sympathy and rested his forehead on mine, looking into my eyes.

"You really don't mean that do you?" He asked jokingly.

"I-I didn't mean it…you're always staying in America without visiting us and now here you are, out of the blue"

"So what, you saying you're in love with me?" I didn't know how to respond.

"Why…would you say that? Of course I…I…don't…I hate you" I wiped my tears away and shoved my brother's head away.

I packed a few more things and closed my bag up quickly, ignoring my brother's glare. I lifted the bag off my bed and headed for the door but Ryoga grabbed my arm and refused to let me go. I felt as though my head would explode with everything that had been going on already. I pulled my arm back but he kept me from escaping and shoved himself on top of me.

My face grew red but even though I wanted him on top of me, I also had my dignity as a man. I tried to push him off but his reassuring voice was too much for me to handle. His words were so full of kindness, that I couldn't bear to shove him off now that he was offering.

"If you had a crush on me, you could have just said so"

"Sh-shut up!"

"Aw, don't be like that, dad's busy and now we are" My head began to go blank and I wasn't thinking straight.

I could feel his breath against my neck while his hands travelled to my pants.

"Ah! No…that…"

"'That' what?" He began to rub his groin against my own.

"We're brothers…we…can't do this"

"Says who? We're in our house, what more do you want?" He kissed along my neck while still saying sweet things to me in English.

I began to panic in my mind while Ryoga began to pull off my pants. His mouth never once left my neck. I could feel my body heating up and my senses were beginning to dissolve. He closed his eyes and shut my mouth up with his own mouth, slipping his tongue in my mouth. I held onto his shirt while Ryoga stripped me of my clothing. Karupin had left already and was probably out near the tennis court. I began to breathe in and out heavily.

"Sorry, but the fun stops now, we'll pick this up later at the springs"

"N-no…you guys can go on without me. I'm…going to stay here this Christmas"

"Hey just because I came on to you doesn't mean you can back out now"

"This is all your fault!"

"Are we going to start the brotherly quarrel now?"

"Stop joking around, please!" I started straightening my clothes up and picked up my bag again, walking right by him.

I cleared my mind of my brother and headed for the stairs when something furry came into my view. I found it a bit too late, and tripped over it. My mind went blank again and the only thing I felt was the hard, cold floor that had met the side of my face. I felt like closing my eyes and just sleeping for a long time like what some animals do during the winter.

"Such a klutz aren't you chibiuske?" I could feel my body being lifted with ease and hoisted on to Ryoga's shoulder.

I could see my bag sitting at the crime scene. Cause of the crime…Ryoga. I closed my eyes, regretting ever walking out on my only brother. Too tuckered out to cry anymore, I gave my eyes a break and let the tearing thing pass.

"You're such a bother to dad, I can see why he suggested the springs. You're such a stubborn guy" I could faintly hear what he was telling me but somehow I got the feeling he was telling me of how much of a stubborn guy I was.

To be carried by my brother was a new dream since my dream of beating my father at tennis. But just not the position of being carried.

Change me brother…

A/n: Thanks for reading! I'll have another chapter up and ready soon. !!! Review and say what you think!!!