Disclaimer: Nothing belongs or ever will belong to me all right! All I want to do is write and not infringe on anybody's rights. Um I just got this Idea from listening to "Numb" by Linkin Park I think it really relates to Spock and his conflict with Sarek. This song fic uses the lyrics from "Numb" by Linkin Park and dialogue from the book "Sarek" by A.C. Crispin in pages (260-263) paperback version. This is really just a jumble of both I did not come up with any of it. Please read and enjoy. Vrekasht means outcast in Vulcanese.

Vrekasht...(Numb)

I'm tired of being what you want me to be

Feeling so faithless

Lost under the surface

I don't know what you're expecting of me

Put under the pressure

Of walking in your shoes

*I did not wish to attend the Vulcan Science Academy...I have been accepted as a cadet. *

* You are young I cannot allow you to...waste all your years of study. *

* I ask for forgiveness...but I have made my decision. *

Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow

Every step that I take is another mistake to you * Spock every time your control falters you reflect poorly upon all of Vulcan. * I've

Become so numb

I can't feel you there

Become so tired

So much more aware

I'm becoming this

All I want to do

Is be more like me

And be less like you

* You will be a puppet, a toy for Starfleet to order about as they please. Your future is bright...you will disgrace your family...your lineage. *

Can't you see that you're smothering me

Holding too tightly

Afraid to lose control

'Cause everything that you thought I would be

Has fallen apart right in front of you

* If you do this you are not be welcome in my lands, your name will not be known to me... you will be vrekasht to me! * [Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow]

Every step that I take is

another mistake to you

[Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow]

and every second I waste

Is more than I can take

*I have chosen my life's path...not murdered or mind violated another. * * I insist that you could reconsider this disastrous course. *

And I know

I may end up failing too

But I know

you were just like me

with someone disappointed in you

* My decision stands. If you wish to call me vrekasht, then so be it. Farewell, Father. *

I've

Become so numb

I can't feel you there

Become so tired

So much more aware

I'm becoming this

All I want to do

Is be more like me

And be less like you So what do you think? R&R please. I am trying to get back on the trek, I haven't written anything good; Flames will encourage me to do better! Please R&R!