Chapter 1: Chapter 1

I don't own any rights to sailor moon, but I am willing to buy them, if I were rich enough to do so…. But this is my first story so bare with me

Chapter one:

The water from the shower felt relaxing but I wish that it would wash the memories of tonight far down the drain

Flash back

It's been a year since my engagement to Darien, since everythings been GO! GO! GO! …

From the moment he purposed Luna came to inform him that the time was close for us to take the throne but we had to bring peace to the nations and the galaxy, since then there are meetings after meetings, Darien does all the talking, which is because I don't understand Politics...

I mean..Where is the compassion and love? They all want something..

But SERENITY had become Darien's passion, he was a focus driven man, I loved that about him but he spent every moment of his time on it, we hadn't even planned our wedding yet.

But tonight was suppose to be special… I didn't want to disappoint anyone, especially Darien, who was giving his speech tonight, which would lead to the signing of SERENITY, the peace agreement that would set the stage for Darien and I to become King and Queen.

"She is ready!!" ... It was the voice of the hair dresser

I stood looking in the Mirror...

I looked amazing; the dress was white with silver shimmer and the back was breathtakingly mature, even for me, it was a deep U shape plunge that revealed my whole back .The material Clung to my body which wasn't the body of the 14 yr old Darien had meet 5 yrs ago. The dress clung all the way to my body until it reached my knees where it flared out into a medium train. It was beautiful!

My hair was let down from its usual odangos and it was pulled back, to reveal my facial structure, and all my golden strains were held in place with a hair contraption but there were curls that were all over and they flowed down my bare exposed back, that the dress created and it made me feel sophisticated and sexy

"They are ready for your entrance Princess"

I turned to the man that bowed to me and held opened the huge double doors that lead out to the long staircase that would ultimately decide my fateful descent into "Queendom Hood"

"Where is she? She is ten minutes late and everyone is here already."

Darien was impatiently waiting for Serena and was verbally expressive of this to his best friend and general Andrew

"Relax buddy she's coming."… it was all that his friend could offer as comfort but the whispers of the crowd caught both of their attention and Darien looked up to see her at the top of the stair case, she looked radiantly beautiful…

"Serena"… he whispered stepping forward to announce her arrival and his place as her escort of the evening

'She is far beautiful than there are words express and air to breath.. I hope she just doesn't mess up!' … these were Darien's last thoughts before he looked into Serena's eyes to gaze at her descent

I saw him looking at me but my eyes meet the star case …where I freaked out… Breath I can do this, concentrate.... (memo to self, shorten stair case.)

Serena started her decent down the stairs breathing and smiling threw gritted teeth, each step a victory and she meet his eyes again

Those eyes said one thing to me "Don't mess up"…I felt my heart break, but I smiled at him but "that look" made me feel more nervous than I already felt and I felt it. … 'YEAP! My shoe caught my dress'… and I was now in motion to falling flat on my face.'

Serena watched as her most beloved friends and guest starred on in shock as their hands covered their mouths to conceal their horrid gasps

"I blew it"… she mentally chimed preparing to hit the marble floor

But Darien reacted faster than her fall and swooped her up in his arms, carrying her down the rest of the stairs

To my surprise I heard cheers. I thought I was for sure hitting the hard marble floor! He placed me down and reached out his hand and lead me into the main hall .

We walked into the Hall which was lined with all the Politicians, I did what Luna taught me to do which was to smile and nod and not look at anyone in the eye, that it was rude because it made them think that I was not humble.

The only eyes I wanted to look in were Darien's

The couple made their way down the line of people that had come to met them and behold their future King and Queen but Serena was nervous, she had never been around so many people watching her every move and she stumbled on the carpet but to recover she bowed to the general she stumbled in front of pretending that it was her initial intent,

"There is no need to bow my future queen ."

She looked up to see the General bowing

I was so nervous…do I tell him to stop? I didn't know what to do! I just let out a nervous laugh and the General looked up at me, I must have been blush red with stupid written clear across my forhead. Darien must have heard my laugh because he ran over to the general and picked him up, whispering something in his ear, and the General just started laughing. I just Smiled and nodded.

Darien griped my hand and gently but hurriedly led me to my sit, where I was placed down

"Please Serena, just stay here and don't Move"… "I need to mingle with the other men; the girls will be over soon,"

"I…. I…"

"Serena Please….."

I saw his eyes, he was embarrassed but he thought he could hide it and He kissed me and then left. I wanted to focus but I could hear the chatter around me and I felt the bitter stings of cruel jealousy

"She is beautiful but what a klutz"

"yeah all beauty no brains"

I was about to turn around when I heard the girls approaching the table they all looked lovely...

I could see Darien chatting away with the Dignitaries, so I chatted away with the girls, then there was a loud trumpet announcing the start of the ceremony

I felt Darien's hands on my shoulders and he sat beside me, there were long speeches and I couldn't understand the politics. Then there was a loud applause, Darien stood up, and took his place at the microphone with me by his side...

Darien began his speech and 30 minutes later I could hear the crowd go wild... I was in my own head at that point and I could see the Peace agreement being brought out by Darien's soldiers, one of which was Andrew... he looked at me and smiled. I smiled back

Once the Document was placed on the table the Politicians, whose signatures were needed, were gathered around the "all important document"… I could see the flashes of cameras from reporters of worldwide papers that has been there to catch this historic moment

There were already 6 signatures down before someone said....

"Princess, you are so quiet!!!.".. "What are you thinking?"

Then everyone suddenly turned around to look at me.

Darien stepped in and said that I was just happy but then the crowd demanded a speech,

"Please tell us Princess your views on the treaty!"

What was I to do? I didn't know what to say... I wasn't prepared but the crowd didn't care ............so i just said what was in my heart

"I am just so glad to see that so many people want what has waged many battles"…I thought of all of them, Beryl –Galaxia… "I have wanted this for a long time; I once thought that PEACE was only a word not an action. There has been much sacrifice"…I thought of all the times when I wished I was just a normal girl …"This is the heart of my whole life "… My whole life… do people really know what this paper means to me???

I looked to see the faces of the men signing and I couldn't help but remember the many meetings with them. They were always wanting to know what was in it for them...... and then my heart was heavy.... this was not right. This needed to be done for selfless reasons.

"Over the last year this Peace agreement has caused much debate and to be honest............ the only thing I am thinking about right now is I can't sign it.".....I heard a great gasp.... then Darien's face

"SERENA WHAT ARE YOU DOING????"

"I'm sorry but "this Paper" is not just a "piece of paper".... it's blood, tears, sacrifice.... and I look at the people gathered around here and I can't help but tell myself.....How selfish they are! They are only signing this paper because they see something they will gain from it...I will not be a part of that.... PEACE is realizing that you are willing to die for the person next to you, for nothing more, than friendship, nothing more than a smile, nothing more than a thank you, this PEACE treaty is not about "PEACE" but about the PIECE of something everyone is expecting..... This paper represents the "love of the heart, the pure hearts, the true intentions," the want for a better humanity..... I cannot sign this paper till the world realizes that."

I could not bare to look at Darien any longer, I ran... I could see the rage in him and the frustration and all the emotions running through him.

I ran through the crowds, through all the people and all the commotion......... I ran to my room, where I heard the loud speakers announce the US president, he was one of Darien's closes allies in this treaty. He helped word most of the document. I just put my ear to the door, listening.......... my heart was throbbing in my ears... this isn't what I wanted...

I could see past all the lies and straight to the hearts.... this wasn't a paper .....it was much more than that

Ladies and gentlemen,

"Please calm down it seems that there has been a change in tonight's plan and that is okay because I haven't seen that kind of behavior in a long last time, not since I ran for president..."

There was a hearty laughter but there was still much tension in the room but the president continued to work the room into a calm direction

"Although this was not what we expected. I was confronted... I was confronted to seek the "true intentions of my heart" and to seek after selflessness, the Princess spoke from her heart, her words were bitter truths, and our world needs to faces that. We say PEACE but we mean PIECE or what is in it for us....we should not scorn but be thankful because it's fair and truthful. I think and with the Princes approval, that the declaration should be signed behind closed doors, out of the sight of public knowledge, so that nations do it for the world and not for those to acknowledge us, and with that nod from Prince Darien, I say that was a go ahead. So I hope that you have been enlightened to think and your heart open to truth.. Good night

I could hear the applause after the President spoke with my ear against the door; I heard every one leave and the silence of the Palace. I slowly got up from my floor in my room.. 'I have to talk to Darien, he has to understand that I just want them to sign with the truest intentions'

I slowly opened the door only to see the corridor that lead to the grand staircase heavily light with moonlight. I walked down and came to the end, only to notice the Library light on and I went to walk in but I was startled by the voices that I heard… so I hide behind the door

There was a loud noise, it sounded like glass hitting wood and then Darien spoke in a violent tone

"I am just glad that we are going to recover from this; I don't know what she was thinking"... Darien angrily growled at the scouts who were sitting in the library recovering from their own emotions but Darien was clearly the most upset…"She wasted a year of time and effort; this should have sealed our future of PEACE but now we are going to be in limbo… WITHOUT PEACE THERE IS NO HOPE!"

"Darien ....I am just as upset as I am sure all the girls are. we all have put many hours into around the clock protection, but beating Serena up is not going to solve anything.... Serena is still young and doesn't have a mature mind set... She only sits through all that political crap for you..."

"OH MINA.... Sweet as always but I am not going to be... Serena skewed up big time. She was ready to throw everything down the drain because of her feelings. I have feelings and I don't just act on them, I use common sense, she could have ruined the future time frame. What she did tonight was selfish, she's the one to talk about Self righteousness."

"Raye, that is a little over the top, you know Pluto would be here in a minute if it were that big of a mistake..Besides the President cleared things up and things are taking a different turn... Serena could have done better to prepare, just in case... but it's Serena, when dose she prepare?

The scouts continued on in there bickering and in order to bring the conversation back to terms, Luna jumped in… "She is still young and young minded, she needs to grow into being a Princess and get ready for her to be Queen, there is still much to learn and I know that she can be a crybaby, lazy, a little selfish, a little irrational BUT she is still the Princess, we still need to protect her"

Darien was starring into the fireplace, bitterly seething at the nights turn of events, he was pissed that all of his hard work had not paid off and Darien being the man that he was, his future looked uncertain and it left him feeling lost, a feeling that cleary made him upset and anger…."JUST STOP!!!! STOP IT!!!!"

The room suddenly became still, the princes voice was like thunder and shook the room like an earthquake. He turned his eyes to the scouts who grew nervous under his demeanor…

."Stop making excuse for her, she is not a baby and the more you treat her that way the more she will stay that way. She will be Queen one day and unless all of you start helping her to be stronger than you are only crippling her. She cannot run away from everything, she cannot speak her mind like she did tonight........ it could have put many lives in Danger .... Serena needs to learn ..... there is no reason why we should be crippling her..She is not a child and i expect each and every one of you to start treating her like an adult she is 19 now not 14 anymore, the wining needs to stop, the getting what she wants.. Stops..... All of it stops"

Darien! Gasped Luna

"I know this sounds harsh but it is for her own Good............. tonight could have ended in a lot of ways and I am just glad that the President was able to recover from her tongue that slipped, regardless if he felt she has true intentions, she cannot let her feelings over ride her common sense, We need a queen that is going to be a leader and not a child"

The room froze with silence and they all felt he was right no matter how harsh it was, he was right

Every inch of my body wanted to barge in and just ripe into them but I couldn't move, I was heart sickened, I was being slapped left and right... none of them believed in me...

I need To say something........to express my mind..... At their mutiny, there mistrust.

They were not there just to protect my body, but my mind, my heart......I felt a cold sweat come over me, Hearing my friends, my guardians, Luna, my Fiancé, all talking about me like I was this unaware, irrational, clueless kid, it made my soul tear open.

I make mistakes I make errors but I was not wrong about this. I am a regular person. I ran to my room after Darien finished his speech on how "I" need to grow up, my face flowed with tears that streamed down my face, I just sobbed, I knew that no one would come because they all valued Darien's Opinion... they all wanted A Queen not a Child

I needed to sort my thoughts. I need a shower.

End of flashback…………………………..

Back at the Library……………….

"You may all leave the Library and I expect that you leave Serena to be with her thoughts!"…"Good night"

The Girls and the cats left the room and Darien found himself there by himself drinking a glass of brandy, which had caused the numbness in his thoughts about the night

I looked around the room that was perfect in detail... Serena helped design it... she wanted it to be a surprise for me....

she thought of every detail that would make me think of her. The ceiling was like that of the American train station Grand Central in New York, beautifully displaying the stars.

She brought in every book from Japan to the end of the worlds .I can't understand her.......why could she not see what a mistake she was making before the words came out of her mouth... all night she was quiet then all of a sudden, bam!!..... All she had to do was sit there and just let me handle things

AHHHHHH!!!.............what am I saying????

I mean who was I kidding, this was Serena, I was amazed how long she was able to go through the whole night with minor accidents...she was rather quiet, but why?

She looked at me several times, could she see the doubt in my eyes?

I could tell that she was trying hard.... she was trying for me ...... I didn't tell her how beautiful she was.......

Why do I doubt her? Should I be so upset? .... In the end the President had made everything okay...everything was going to be Okay... the president said the Serena made him realize that she had true intentions and thanked me? so why was i still mad?

Was it because they saw her heart.... they saw past the unprepared speech, to her truthful open heart?

Was that why i was mad? … Because I failed to do so? why?

I looked at her with such anger, she left the room crying, I just stood there..... I was so wrapped up in my own intentions that I failed to included Serena's thoughts, She must have felt this way for a while?

I need to talk to her, to say that I'm sorry and that she was right.... my Serena was right.... I know that she acts like a kid but that's what I love about her, her intentions and heart were pure.... INNOCENT and not corrupt.... and that hurt because I was Jealous of that.

I was in the shower longer than planned but it felt SO good, it washed away everything, the makeup, the curls, the pain, the sorrow.....

I stepped out of the shower and walked over to the vanity and the reflection that starred back was no longer the confident one that had been there before.

They wanted a leader and I am no leader, never have been, Raye makes sure I know that

They need someone who understands and I don't. It's all too much over my head.

They want someone who is capable to carry herself and I'm a klutz!! Everyone knows that!

They're all right.... they deserve someone SO much better than me (my tears were falling)... so much more

I love them and they were all upset with me including Darien

He was more than upset with me he was resentful toward me in those moments

I love him more than life itself... I want him to look at me with pride and not anger.

I know what I have to do....... I know I have to give them what they want.

I hurried around my room, putting clothes on. I packed my clothes and I left ... I went to the balcony and climbed down, ran a little and stopped, I looked back and admired the Palace. The light to the Library went off... I need to go before they find me gone and bring me back......... i ran and ran....

Please Darien Forgive me.... Girls please forgive me.... I know I messed things up.. I know I let you down.. I know you deserve so much better.. I can't put lives in Danger because of my lack of understanding...i won't come back till I am the leader you want! I love you all

I knocked on Serena's door but there was no Answer

I walked in and it was cold from the Balcony door being open, so I closed it and then I looked around, she was not there, her closet was opened, there were clothes dugout .Serena must have left.

I jumped up because I felt something on my leg

LUNA!!

"Sorry Darien didn't mean to scar you"

"It's okay....i was looking for Serena have you seen her?"

"NO? i followed your orders to stay clear of her."

"I figured that."… "I thought I should ask.... looks like she ran away, she probably went to her parents to get away"

"Darien I thought you said that this was for her own Good"

"I know but I was just thinking, thinking about how much pressure we put on her to fit into this mold when she is just perfect the way she is, Klutz and all. i love her that way, but I have been under so much pressure that I put her away in this box only to come out when I wanted her to.

I felt the tears coming but I held them back

"Darien I know that you love Serena, there is no doubt, but I don't think that you should beat yourself up over this. We only want the best for her. She has a lot to be responsible for."

"I know Luna and that's what scares me the most, because I meant every word in the Library, but I feel ashamed because I feel like I'm forcing her to do it before she is ready. She is not my Queen but my love, I love her the way she is, I was not thinking of her but of myself"

"Darien go to bed and in the Morning we will talk more. She will come back when she is ready..... She needs her space.

The End........ To BE continued....................

So I have taken your comments to heart and I have updated this chapter and have removed a lot of the confusion. Thank you for all your supportive criticism...