AN: WAI! The prologue to a Jack/Rai story I'm writing. This was inspired my having to tell the guy I really really like that he should go out with a girl he had just told me he likes. It really is the hardest thing.
Disclaimer: I don't own Xiaolin Showdown
Title: Help me, heal me, save me.
Rating: M
Summary: The hardest thing was telling you, the one I love, to love another.
Pairing: Jack/Rai, some Rai/Kim, eventual Kim/Omi
Warning: SLASH! SLASHY SLASH SLASH! And maybe some cutting and suicidal ideas.
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When I first saw you there, I wondered what would happen. We were enemies then, and still are in a sense. You're on the good side, I'm on the bad. That night however, when you came over, knocking on the front door, our relationship was the same. We were still friends, just as we were whenever you're dad came to America and brought the three of you.
It was hard, I admit, fighting you every day, pretending to hate you so we both remained trustworthy, not that you did in their eyes though. I knew, I always knew there was darkness in your heart, what else could I know after all those situations we were in? Hell, we were freakin' Scooby Doo and the Gang back in Middle School what with that kidnapping and all.
I never told you how scared I was, I never told you I thought we would die. I never told you that was when your element first appeared, because you didn't remember. All you told me before you left was that you were going to train in China and would keep in contact. I didn't know that would be the turning point in everything, especially our feelings.
As much as we both didn't want to admit, it was there. We were growing further and further apart, we were loosing that bond we had so long ago.
But then, Shoku Warrior came. You ascended, surpassing all of us in both knowledge and power. It was kind of shocking when you still came to me for advice and just for a friend. You have great friends, and just the fact you would still come to a whiner like me made me realize what I'd been missing for ages.
It was you who first told me I wasn't attracted to girls, you who let me finally admit I was attracted to males, you who didn't care about that, you who I found making out with a guy one week and a girl the next, you who stayed with me even through my faults.
I realized, finally, that I was attracted to you.
But, the next day you came here, and you shattered my hopes.
You asked if you should ask Kimiko out.
And I said yes.
The single hardest thing in the world is telling the one you love that they should love another… and I don't know how long I can live with it.
Help me.
Heal me.
Save me.
I need you, Raimundo.