This is my very first fanfiction. I hope you´ll enjoy it. Now betat! Thanks, Ansosa!

HungerGamesOwl

The first meeting of Finnick and Annie

I hate myself.

I really hate myself.

My name is Finnick Odair and I´m the victor of the 65th Hungergames. As you probably know, I have killed. No, I have killed children.

And yes, I feel bad -very bad, to say at least.

I am standing here on the beach of Disctrict 4, thinking.

I sigh and slowly walk into the cold waves. The cold is therapeutic. It helps me to think. One voice in my head says, "There wasn´t any possibility of you winning if you didn´t kill. You had to do it", but there´s also another voice, which screams "Murderer!" the whole time. And I think the second voice is right. I should have died in the arena. There were other children which should have won like Ash. Ash. He was such a nice guy but Crystall of 1 had killed him with her knife within 2 seconds. I see the picture in my head. Ash screams and Crystall laughs. I close my eyes and hope the picture will disappear but of course it doesn´t.

That´s not the only picture I see every day. Also I see the afraid eyes of the girl. She is trapped in my net and I´m stabbing my trident directly in her heart. Sure, it was a fast death, bit I did it. I´m sure she had family, persons who loved her and hoped she would come back to them. I was the one to destroiy their hopes. Every night I wake up screaming because I see my victims with fear in their eyes. It hasn´t gotten better.

I sigh and go deeper in the ocean. Now I´m swimming. Looking back I see that the beach is around a mile away. I let my body fall in the saltwater. I´m diving deeper and deeper until I reach the sandy bottom. I don´t want to live. I really don´t.I close my eyes and hope that the death will come fast. I cannot breathe. I feel like I´m dying, like I´m floating farther away. Suddenly, someone pulls my body out of the water.

I cough up saltwater. "You were drowning." says a voice. A girl with black hair and green eyes like the sea is standing in front of me.

"I know" I say "that was the general idea."

"Why should Finnick Odair drown himself?" "Maybe because he hates himself and the whole life" I answer.

"That´s silly" She replies.

" I have killed children. It´s not silly." I say.

" It´s not your fault. It´s the Capitol´s fault" she says softly.

"That doesn´t change anything" I snap.

"Listen, I know it´s hard but you don´t seem like the type of person to give up so quickly."

I think about her words. Maybe she´s right.

"I see them. Every single night I see the children I murdererd. They are screaming and pleading of me not kill them, but I have to. It´s terrible." I say quietly.

"Maybe I can help you. Come with me" She holds out one hand to me. I look at it sceptically.

"What do I have to lose?" I think. I take her hand and she begins to walk with me following closely behind.

I follow her to a cliff. She sits down on a smooth rock and looks at the ocean. It´s beautiful to look at from up here. You can see the sun disappearing and hear the waves crushing against the cliffs.

" I come up here when I´m upset or need to think" she says quietly. I don´t answer, but I settle next to her and look at the stunning, sparkling ocean. I breathe a long, deep breath of the fresh air. It seems fresher up here. She´s right, it´s a very pleasant place.

Neither of us utters a word, but after a while I feel the need to express my gratitude.

"Thanks" I say quietly, trying not to ruin the peace.

"You´re welcome" she smiles at me. It´s a very charming smile. She proceeds to stand up.

"Wait" I say, brushing her hand with mine. "What´s your name again?"

"My name´s Annie" she answers cheerfully "Annie Cresta"

Then she turns around and walks away.

I watch her as she walks away. Maybe life is worth living for.

That was the day I met Annie Cresta. I will never forget it.

Thanks for reading. It´s my first fanfiction so it would be great if you review.