Fire of temptation
M-18
Smut/PWP
A/N ; Axel x Roxas explicit fic, occasionally Axel's POV.
Axel is confused by the strange sensations inside himself what Roxas
causes to him, being near him. One day Axel decides to thank him for the
feelings that he can experience with him even as a Nobody.
A fanfic full of feelings and passion.
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Intro
From the day when we met, the day when he got his name and he joined to the Organization XIII,
I've been having these weird sensations inside myself and in my dreams,
not that you can feel anything without a heart. Because we Nobodies, lack of the key to feel.
But what it is then ?
They're feelings that isn't feelings ?
That doesn't make any sense, and that, I've never really thought that I'm one of the Nobodies.
I really don't know why do I find myself thinking about so a lot of stuff lately, and as crazy it sounds -
I'm not even sure about what do I think.
Axel - The flurry of flames, the Nobody number VIII,
a fool without brain and a heart, that's what I am right now.
That boy sure has mixed up my head, with all his questions and his blank expressions.
Roxas, number XIII, the keyblade wielder, also my very best friend -
oh wait, can you actually say that if you're a Nobody ?
Well anyway, that's what I call him.
Everyday after our job's done, we meet-up at the Twilight Town's Clock Tower at the station.
We sit on the top of it, in the heights, eating sea-salt ice cream - my and his favorite flavored ice cream.
We talk about different stuff and laugh together while sun is setting beautifully with the all orange-reddish color variations.
Those time's are the best of my days, of course not to mention,
our little vacation days when I'll get a chance to sleep, are the best ones too.
Too bad, we don't have almost never vacation days.
Because our superior likes to whip us to do a lots of work,
his name's Xenmas, or should I say, Mansex, the nick is insulting, I know.
I've never liked that guy.
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Chapter 1 - Melting like a ice-cream ;
Axel is sitting on the sofa's at the lounge room,
laying against his arms and he has putted his legs on the white table,
he knows that no one likes it, but doesn't care about it.
He's looking at the Kingdom hearts,
the moon what looks like a heart and begins to drawn into his deep thoughts again.
All around the castle is the eternal night, silence, with only the neon lights which casts to the sky.
Until Roxas bumped into him, he shakes his head and blinks a couple of times.
"Earth's calling Axel, did I interrupt something ? You really looked serious there,"
the blond boy sits beside his best friend and stares at him,
the readhead mumbles and touches the back of his nape, rolling his eyes quickly.
"I was thinking that we should go have some ice cream ! Hehe,"
Axel stands up and flashes his smile to Roxas and grabs on his arm.
A silent, depressing moment. Roxas was giving his empty,
mysterious stare again while Axel's emerald-green eyes moves on his partner's face surface.
Then he closes his eyes, with his eyelashes fluttering against his cheeks which were turning rose red.
"I'll go with you, since we have some freetime. But you really shouldn't hide things in that way,"
Roxas sighs and stands up. With Axel making the dark corridor,
an easy gate to the other worlds if you belong among the darkness, it's not safe for normal people.
And they entered in it.
I'm sorry Roxas, hiding something from you is really.. Painful.
And I know that this is pain, it has to be.
Why do I feel it so clearly ?
As entering to the Twilight town, Roxas walks in front of me, but stopped while I shouted that It's my treat today.
That's right Roxas, today is my treat.
How many ice creams I have given to you or you've given to me ?
Well so many enough that it's my time to drop a round.
Roxas nods and follows me to the kiosk, I bought a whole pack of goodies that they would last longer,
means a longer moment with him today. A chance to get more time.
"Why you bought the whole pack, Axel ?,"
Roxas looks suprised with his deep blue colored eyes and pulls from my sleeve lightly.
"Because we're best friends, silly !
We'll get to eat now three ice creams !
Hope you can find space in your tummy for them!,"
I murmured and started to tease Roxas by shaking his spiky hair.
"Haha, Axel, you're so kind! Really, you're a great guy,"
The younger boy breaks off from Axel's arms, because what Roxas just said,
he frozed right on his place. Axel ended up stammering his answer,
but it was so unclear that Roxas didn't get it, so he bursts to a laughter.
When they climbed up to the clock tower,
they sits down on the borderline as usually and peels the ice cream's plastic-bag off.
"It all started from here, I remember it so clearly.
The warm sunset and us," Roxas says in a silent voice.
Axel remains silent with an understanding expression on his face,
So Roxas, I'm not the only one who thinks about the day when we met.
Right from the beginning,
you've been the one who has awaken me from the long sleep, because it was like it..
I'm sure changed from the merciless, brutal, sarcastic and cold person to this what I am now.
I cannot find any bad sides of me when I'm hanging around with Roxas, but with the other members - I'm the old myself.
Even the sourpuss Saïx keeps mention about it,
that something sure happened in the Castle Oblivion, sure did.
That was when I made actually laughter which felt deep inside my bones.
Is there just the emptiness ?
It was like something was stirring inside of my chest, under my very flesh and blood.
Roxas and I ---We're inseparable,
that's why I think that we're having a deep connection between us.
We are like the apple and cinnamon, he's so innocent and simple..
A bit bitter when it comes to the feelings and he keeps asking things like,
what's love, what's it like to have a heart, a bit dull but cute questions.
But unfortunately, it's hard to describe those for him, especially about love. I've never had one..
And I guess I can't never experience it, because you need a heart to love.
Always when he looks so curious while asking those silly questions,
he makes me think about more deeper than the surface,
I usually just go pretty confused when he asks things like that, and the words just disappears from my mind.
Then when I didn't satisfy him with my knowledge, he sighs deeply and goes a little bit silent.
I know he's thinking that I'm only trying to avoid those kinds of things,
right now I'm just able to look at him sitting beside him.
The breeze of the wind is pleasant as it dances on my skin, Roxas,
as usually, looks straight to the sky and eats his melting icecream.
The light blue color makes a nice contract with his dark outfit,
"Axel ! What are you smiling at ? Sure looks funny," the blond young boy smirks as his eyes gazes me.
Axel frowns, then he turns his head away from his best friend,
rubbing his fire red hair and blushes to himself.
"Ah, well, you know I'm glad that we have days like these, even if Xion doesn't come with us every-time",
Axel turns back and bites his icecream stick,
that was the only thing what left from the light blue ice-cream.
"Uh, yeah I guess.. She's become strange. But at least I can find myself here with you,"
Roxas's eyes became reluctant as he raises his arm and points his ice-cream to the horizon.
His icecream was about start to melt and so does Axel.
"Nah, it's no big deal-- She'll come back to herself, trust me !",
the read-head starts to turn red again, not as red as his hair, but almost.
He feels uneasy, because he can't stand compliments about himself.
"Wonder why the sun makes the ice-cream melt..",
Roxas shrugs and takes his ice cream back from the straight sunshine
as Axel begins to hold his knuckles tightly together and his eyes wandered from place to place.
"The sun is so hot that it begins to lose it's shape, melting, got it memorized ?
It's like if you'd like someone very much, you feel that you're gonna melt up
when you feel the presence. Not that you can feel without a heart, hahaha---!,"
We both start to laugh like the hyenas, yet again, for kind of stupid sentence,
thought the laughter might sound like somewhat fake, it's because we cannot really do it,
we laugh like the normal people. It still feels hollow and cold on the other side..
But on the otherside, why do I feel so warm and I really feel like laughing ?
This is something what stinks, would it be even possible to attain your heart back
as a nobody without getting it back from the Kingdom hearts ?
Like we could obtain even a half of it by ourselves,
by having these strange heart-like sensations inside us ? And about that melting thing..
Why I started to feel the same like the ice-cream in my best friend's hands,
as he asked his funny question and goes out all confused. I'm melting a day by day,
a little by little to a more like a real person, and I sometimes, well I have to admit.
Feel like I'm addicted to him ! Sheez, I know it sounds pretty cheezy and strange,
but that's how it is.
He gots me all annoyed, embarrassed and melting for his presence.
I've been alone, walking in the darkness, searching for light,
now it is him who brings it, he actually glows from it.
A feather which I have to hold in my hands carefully.
The world is sure looking beautiful with him.
"one ice-cream left for both of us ! Then we'll RTC*,"
Axel hands over a single ice-cream to his partner who starts to complain that he's so full that he cannot eat anymore.
"Oh c'mon ! Your change to eat this much !
*Returning to the castle would be just boring, right?
Oh I forgot, zombies doesn't eat ice-cream, hahaha--,"
Axel taps on Roxas's shoulder and bursts into a impish laughter,
for a while his friend looks him oddly, but grabs on the ice-cream and chuckles with Axel.
"Woow, I've never been here this late that the sun is almost down already !",
the boy's eyes goes wide as he licks lustfully the ice-cream.
Axel isn't paying attention to the sunset, instead of that, he looks silently,
rather naughtily Roxas's session with the ice-cream. "..
Uh yeah ! Never been here that late for myself too",
Axel shakes his head and puts his hand over his forehead to get rid of his thoughts,
as he pulls out the ice-cream, he starts to devour it almost in the same way as he just saw.
Man ! What is wrong with me, seriously ?!
I look like a some kind of pervert and act like a one.
And besides, he must be about over 6 years younger than me, eww for me !
But I can't stop looking, he draws me near him.
Like a some kind of lure,
I'm pretty sure that I'm not going to resist my so called feelings soon anymore.
This is crazy-- Certainly.
Looking how his tiny pinky muscle licks the ice-cream's cold and sticky surface..
The spit which remains on it and how much the tongue leaves it,
boy oh boy, wish it could be me instead of that popsickle.
"You're actually hogging that ! Are we in hurry ?",
Roxas grins cutely and leaves my face expressionless.
Ah, damn ! Now that he actually mentioned about that,
I found myself eating this thing like a wolf it's prey.
"We're... Not?,"
I must've sounded so stupid while blanking out all so sudden in front of him every now and then.
But it's been like this lately.
"It's funny to 'tease' you !,"
Roxas takes the last bite of his delight, and stands up slowly.
"Go on, laugh at me,"
Axel licks off the last leftovers of the wooden-stick,
taking a rather serious look and he creates the dark corridor to go back to the Castle.
"Let's head back, Roxas",
The black sphere looked like it sucked Axel in as Roxas is about to enter in it,
those who are consumed by the darkness walks in the dark corridors.