AN: Warning contains explicit smut. I wanted to write this, after re-watching Mai Otome, as a semblance of closure about the Tomoe situation.
Author's Note #2 at the end of the page.
They were making their way towards the Gakuenchou's quarters, practically sprinting there. She just wanted to be alone with Natsuki in the comfort of their room. The battle was finally over and they had officially reclaimed Garderobe from the hands of Nagi Dài Artai and Schwarz.
They finally reached the Office and through there, the Gakuenchou's quarters. Shizuru quickly unlocked the door. The moment Natsuki entered the room, Shizuru had her pinned against the door. Shizuru hungrily caught Natsuki's lips with her own. Her left hand buried itself within silky, dark tresses while her right slide off the garment from Natsuki's shoulders.
Shizuru dominated the kiss. Her lips roughly claiming Natsuki's as her own. Natsuki shuddered when Shizuru's tongue penetrated the inside of her mouth tasting her, claiming her. Shizuru's hand made its way to the back of Natsuki's top and ripped it off without warning. Her fingers glided across Natsuki's smooth skin making its way down to the waistband of those tight leather pants.
Shizuru wanted Natsuki. No, she needed her. She needed to take her, remind her who she belonged to. Slender fingers teased along milky skin making Natsuki moan with pleasure while Shizuru swallowed the sound with her own mouth. Fingers slide towards the back of Natsuki's bra and removed it in one quick motion.
Gasping for air they broke apart "Shi- Shizuru, what … what has gotten into you?" Shizuru started planting kisses alongside Natsuki's neck. She whispered against her neck "I missed my Natsuki." Trailing her soft lips down that slender neck. Natsuki's hands gripped Shizuru's hips as her lover began to nip and suck her soft skin.
"Ah- Shi- Shizuru, d- don't leave any marks." Hearing her love make pleasure filled sounds, Shizuru trailed kisses down just above Natsuki's breasts and sucked at the milky flesh there.
Natsuki was hers and she wanted all of Earl to know. Normally she wouldn't mark her love since the skimpy outfit she loved to wear exposed her neck all the way down to the top of her breasts. But Shizuru didn't care, she was filled with so much desire, so much hunger … so much guilt. She wanted every piece of Natsuki. She wanted, no needed, Natsuki to engulf her very being. Drown out her sins and submerge her guilt until she could feel nothing other than Natsuki. Nothing else mattered but Natsuki. Nothing.
Taking a break from ravaging her neck, she trailed a finger down the red marks marring her lover's smooth skin until palming Natsuki's perky breast. Bringing her lips next to Natsuki's ears, she whispered "Natsuki belongs to me." Blazing crimson, eyes filled with lust, gazed deeply into emerald eyes, clouded by desire. The slender fingers dancing across her waistband slipped inside teasing the outside of her soaked lingerie. Her breath hitched and her lover captured her swollen lips, slipping her tongue inside, savoring the taste that was all Natsuki.
Natsuki's hips grinded against those teasing fingers, denying her release she desperately needed. Her hands slid up Shizuru's body until finding the zipper to her Meister dress. Breaking their kiss for air, Natsuki whimpered "Shi- Shizuru, please," Shizuru gently pressed one finger against Natsuki's drenched panties, moving the finger in a circular motion she moaned at her lovers heat, "Natsuki's so wet. Is that all for me?" Shizuru dipped her head down to capture her lover's pert nipple while rolling the other nipple between her fingers. "All for you… Ah… Shizuru," she whimpered while arching her back, her eyes fluttering close.
Hearing the sounds her love was making encouraged Shizuru even more. She lightly grazed her teeth against her lover's erect nipple then released it with a pop. She quickly switched to the other breast and gave it the same treatment. Natsuki's hand left entangled itself within chestnut tresses, pulling Shizuru closer against her while her right hand tugged on Shizuru's dress, she whined "Ah…Off. I- I want to feel you."
Shizuru released Natsuki's breasts and slid her hands down Natsuki's body until she reached her hips. In a quick movement, she picked her up. Natsuki wrapped her legs around Shizuru's waist and brought her in for a passionate kiss.
Without breaking the kiss, Shizuru made her way to their bed and unceremoniously dropped her lover on top of the mattress. She quickly stripped out of her Meister robe and undergarments and stood in all of her naked glory.
Shizuru paused to take in the sight before her. Dark tresses were splayed across the bed. Her lips, normally a light pink, were swollen and red from their passionate kisses. Erect nipples, a heaving chest and her body was flushed pink. The intense look in her lover's eyes clenched Shizuru's heart. Her pupils, were dilated, emerald eyes consumed with desire, hunger, but what hurt the most was the love in her eyes.
Shizuru climbed on top of Natsuki and lowered her body so that their breasts were pressed up against one another. They both shivered at the contact. Natsuki reached down to find Shizuru's hands, she intertwined their fingers. Shizuru pushed them up and pinned Natsuki's hands against the sheets. She dipped her head down to capture Natsuki's puffy lips in a sensual kiss. Their lips glided slowly against each other .Then deepening the kiss, Shizuru tried to convey just how much she loved Natsuki within this kiss and Natsuki responded with the same amount of intensity.
Breaking the kiss and panting slightly, they gazed deeply into each other's eyes. Shizuru could feel the love conveyed in Natsuki's eyes. It overwhelmed her. She breathlessly panted out. "My Natsuki." Then she began moving down her lover's body, planting firm kisses and light nips against the soft skin, leaving light marks, until she reached the waistband of Natsuki's pants.
Guilt gripped at her in waves. She wondered if her goddess would look at her the same way if she knew of her sins … She shook her head slightly. No, she needed Natsuki to absolve her of her crimes. She knew, the only way to fix this was to immerse herself in Natsuki, allow her to drown out everything that plagued her soul and body. Yes, she was a demon and Natsuki was her salvation.
Shizuru gripped the waistband of Natsuki's pants and panties, she pulled them both down in one fluid motion while following their path with her body. Natsuki's breath hitched at the action as laid there completely bare and exposed to her lover. Shizuru slowly planted kisses up Natsuki's slender legs as she made her way towards her lover's dripping sex.
Shizuru hovered directly over the place where Natsuki needed her the most, taking in all she had to give. Her warm breathe teased Natsuki, causing her sopping folds to twitch with need. Her desperate need for her lover caused Natsuki to whine out "Shi- Shizuru, pl- please don't tease."
Shizuru smirked at that but she needed more, she needed Natsuki to tell her how badly she needed her, that she only needed Shizuru. She needed Natsuki to free her from her spiraling thoughts. She slightly shook her head to rid herself of the voice in her head, telling her how Natsuki would hate her, how she would lose Natsuki after this…
Voice hoarse, she quietly said "Tell me what you want, my Natsuki." The puff of warm breath against her pussy, made Natsuki shiver. She practically growled out "F-fuck me, Shizuru." The teasing coupled with the fact that they were separated for a month, made Natsuki more tightly wound than usual.
Shizuru dived right in, taking long hungry licks. She alternated between licking her lover's dripping pussy and sucking on her throbbing clit, making sure to thoroughly ravish her. Natsuki's left hand tangled in chestnut tresses, while her other hand firmly gripped the bedsheets. The sexy moans and high pitched whines only further encouraging Shizuru to devour her in the best way possible.
It didn't take long before Natsuki's hips started bucking, a clear indicator that she was close. Shizuru pulled away, hearing her lover whimper loudly, she quickly entered her with two fingers while raising her body to meet Natsuki's lips in a desperate kiss. Natsuki could taste her own essences mixed with the taste of Shizuru, which brought her even closer to her peak.
Shizuru continued to rapidly pump her fingers in and out of her lover. Breaking apart from their intoxicating kisses, she brought her other hand up to Natsuki's breasts, making sure to tease her nipples. She lowered her head to Natsuki's ear and placed fiery kisses on the sensitive skin. Natsuki clutched tightly onto Shizuru, feeling like she was only a few thrusts away from cumming.
Shizuru whispered hotly in her ear "Tell me that you need me."
Natsuki moaned out "I… ah … need you." Shizuru's thrusts picked up the pace, furiously pumping into Natsuki.
"Tell me that I'm the only one who can make you feel this way." Shizuru breathed out with desperation clouding her voice. A tear made its way down her porcelain cheek, as she bit down hard on the sensitive spot between her lover's neck and shoulder.
Natsuki could only comply, as she whined out loud, "Fuck … only you!" The furious motions of Shizuru's hand coupled with the pleasure radiating from her sex finally brought her over the edge. Her body quivered violently as she came, her pussy clamping down hard on the fingers inside her. She could only clutch tightly onto Shizuru as she cried out her name.
Shizuru pulled her fingers out of her lover as she began to shimmer down. She buried in her face into her lover's neck and possessively held Natsuki, as if she would disappear otherwise.
When she finally came down from the ecstasy of her climax, her voice raspy, she lovingly uttered with the utmost sincerity "I love you, Shizuru…"
That did it. Everything Shizuru had been holding back came rushing out in a torrent. Tears came pouring out against Natsuki's neck as she silently sobbed.
Natsuki felt the tears and instantly snapped out of her post-orgasmic haze. Suddenly struck with worry, she ran her fingers through Shizuru's hair and held her tightly, wanting to take away whatever was causing her lover's pain.
"Shi-Shizuru… What's wrong?" she managed to hoarsely say as her own voice cracked.
"I'm sorry … Forgive me… Forgive me … Natsuki." Shizuru trembled out into the crook of Natsuki's neck. The guilt overcame her almost instantly when she heard Natsuki's words of love. How could Natsuki even say that when she… she doesn't know …. How tainted I am.
The apologies terrified Natsuki, all she could do was protectively embrace her love and whisper reassurances with every kiss she planted on her chestnut tresses, "it's okay, Shizuru … I'm here … I love you … There's nothing to be sorry for…" While her stomach filled with dread and her chest tightened with every tremor from the woman in her arms.
Time seemed to have seized as they held onto one another. The sobs didn't subside till what seemed like ages.
Shizuru spoke into Natsuki's neck, her voice hoarse from crying, and trembling with emotion "I… Natsuki …. I…" She had to do this. She had to tell Natsuki the truth.
Shizuru squeezed her eyes shut, and brokenly whispered, "When … When I was imprisoned … I- I… slept with Tomoe …" As those agonizing words left her mouth, she could feel Natsuki tense underneath her. She could feel the fingers on her waist grip her tighter. She could hear the painful gasp leave her love's mouth, "You…"
Shizuru let out an excruciating whimper as the tears flowed again. She would lose the only person she ever loved. The only person she could ever love. In any timeline, in any universe, in any and every story. Even when the stars collapse and the universe withers, leaving nothing in their wake, her love would stay eternal. That was the one constant, she was sure of it.
Maybe it was selfish of her to confess to her sins as they laid naked, as she trapped her love with her own body, as she cried into her neck, taking any and all the comfort her love would give.
Or maybe it was the only time she could confess. When she could drop her façade and bare her soul, her heart, her everything to her eternal love.
The anguish whisper of her lover shook her to her core, "Shizuru… why?" She could hear the tears. She could hear the pain she caused. Shizuru would do anything for Natsuki. She would gladly give her life for Natsuki.
Her devotion, her love gave her the strength to face Natsuki. She gazed deeply into those heartbroken emerald eyes and cupped her cheek gently in the palm of her hand.
"She said that you were held captive… She told me that she would try to release you… She said that she loved me … I let her do as she pleased … Because I… I couldn't bear the thought of you being held captive or worse … I had suspicions that she was lying but I couldn't risk your life over it …" Shizuru took a deep breath and continued as she wiped away the tears falling from Natsuki's eyes.
"She … She thought she could win my heart through by body… That I would forget about you and love her …" Shizuru gazed deeply into Natsuki's eyes, conveying the infinite love she felt for Natsuki.
"But Natsuki, what she didn't know is that my heart belongs to you. My soul belongs to you. My very being, my reason for living all belongs to you. I am utterly, completely, truly yours. Even if you stopped loving me, I will always love you, for my love for you will never fade. It is the only thing I'm sure of. Of all the mysteries in the universe, my love for you shines clear. It is eternal."
As Shizuru explained everything, Natsuki felt countless emotions pass through her. One part of her wanted to find Tomoe this instant and fire her cannon point-blank at her. Another part of her felt sorrow for herself for everything Shizuru had to endure but mostly for Shizuru herself. Her rage was solely focused on Tomoe. Her anguish engulfed her until Shizuru reaffirmed her love.
Natsuki did the only thing that felt right. She placed a gentle kiss upon her eternal love's lips and declared "It's okay, Shizuru. It's okay." She kissed her again, slowly caressing her lips with her own, she conveyed all the love she felt for Shizuru.
As they broke apart, they rested their foreheads against one another. Their tears slowed down into a trickle, their breaths mingled in the small space between them.
Natsuki spoke again "My love for you is eternal Shizuru… I love you and I'll never stop loving you and only you, my Shizuru." They wouldn't let this break them apart. They would be okay. Through more tears and honesty. Through more love and sorrow. Through baring their souls countless times to one another.
AN2: This is a bit of an explanation about the story. It is meant to be a moment in time, as the beginning of their healing process. It takes place directly after the destruction of the Harmonium, so basically the moment Natsuki and Shizuru are finally alone. As mentioned in the reviews, Shizuru wasn't planning on telling Natsuki the truth, at least not yet. However, her guilt coupled with her love for Natsuki overcame her. And yes, it was cowardly and selfish of her to confess in this way but I believe Shizuru would prefer to avoid talking about the situation all together or dismiss it similarly to how she did in EP 25. As a character who hides her emotions, I felt that this would be the way for Shizuru to tell Natsuki everything, without trying to hide back any of the truth.
As for Shizuru claiming Natsuki and not the other way around, it suits Shizuru's possessive nature. She is afraid that she will lose Natsuki once she knows the truth, so she wants Natsuki to declare herself Shizuru's one last time. Also Natsuki didn't know the truth yet so it wouldn't make sense for her to claim Shizuru yet. I'm sure Natsuki would claim Shizuru afterwords and Shizuru would wholeheartedly give herself to Natsuki. As i mentioned earlier, this is only the beginning of their healing process. I fully expect them to have many mature conversations following this and for their relationship to come out even stronger after everything.