Choices
By: mj0621
Disclaimer: I don't own anything and if I did, my ships aren't sinking right now...
Rating: T (to be safe, but nothing to be worried about really)
Pairing/s: SMacked (of course) drama/angst, MacPeyton
Summary: In life, you need to make choices so choose carefully because it maybe you're last shot at it.
Author's Notes: This idea has been in my mind for days... I've been hanging around YouTube too much.. lol Anyway, this is sorta a songfic. Four songs/parts to be exact. And again, two endings. I dedicate this oneshot (yes, I'm still in a writer's block) to these people who are there to cheer me up when things got rough for me and who are always there to support me (specially in my writing) and those who make me happy: Isabel Juno (Izzy/Technomousy ) and Neil, tvfreak92 and ilovecsi4326 (Devan and Lila), AliasCSINYFriendsER (Mandi), JacobedRose (JRose) and Triki (Trix), Jade Storms (Det. Jade) and Byte366 (Bytie), Dippish (Dip), bubble-rouge08(ate Cate), my couz and all the other special people. Thanks for chatting/PMing/emailing me. You guys are the best! Hugs tight
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Stella's POV:
Part One: Don't Mess With My Love (M2M)
I thought you we're a friend of mine but I was wrong
You try to fit into the arms where I belong
You moved right in behind my back
Everyone knows friends don't do that
I thought you were somebody I could trust
You always said you were happy for us
How could you go and break my heart
When you knew all along he was mine from the start
She came here with a smile. A woman with a nice strong attitude, confident and smart mind. We became friends immediately because of our similarities. I thought to myself, finally, a new female friend in a man's world. I smile as we got closer... that woman named Peyton Driscoll.
He is everything to me
And you know we're meant to be
He's my baby
Don't mess with my love
Take everything I own
Ooh just leave that boy alone
He's my baby
Don't mess with my, mess with my love
Don't mess with my love
I bought three cups of coffee for Mac and Peyton one morning. I felt good since I woke up and there's nothing that's gonna ruin it. I abruptly stopped my tracks as I saw Peyton giving him coffee. I admit, I was a bit jealous. Who wouldn't be? I mean, I can't help but to think I'm being replaced in his heart... And she... knows all my secrets... including him.
You came right over and looked in my eyes
You said those stories were rumors and lies
And I wish I could believe in you
But I'm sorry to say he told me the truth
I've been hearing way too many rumors about the both of them and it breaks my heart to know that I feel that those rumors are true. Peyton and I talked in the breakroom and she denies everything about it. Saying that those are just office gossip and nothing else. I nodded and went to see Mac for a case. I wasn't sure I believe what Peyton said and I feel sorry for doubting a friend. My inner self couldn't resist so I asked him about it. He sighed deep and said they're 'dating'. Looks like my suspicions were right. For once, I hated that.
Friends don't do what you do
There's no excuse
I'm so confused
I thought you cared about me
But now I see
All you care about is you
Since then, I avoided her in every way I can. I trusted her with all my secrets... specially the ones I never told Mac... because it was about him. She ruined our friendship and she lost my trust. I try to smile everytime I see Mac... or her... or both of them together but shit, it hurts like heck. Why? Why is this happening to me? Why are you hurting me?
Part Two: Do You Know What You Want (M2M)
Someone treats you right
Stay with you day and night
I can tell that's what you need
I know just what to do
I'll take good care of you
Baby you can get that from me
I see them again together walking in the corridors towards the locker room and as much as I didn't want to, he saw me. He gave me this weird look but I shrugged it off and left immediately. At home, I couldn't help but to remember that look he gave me. I can't point my finger on what's wrong but I just know there's something with what you're saying with your eyes... Remember the time when I said you can talk with me by just looking? Was that what you were trying to do?
I can tell she's not treating you right
Every time you look at me
So which one will you choose
You look so confused
Tell me the truth
Do you know what you want
People are starting to see that you're not happy. They're even saying that I am the reason why. Am I? This is awkward for us, I won't deny that. Anyway, I wasn't the one who started this... Right? I have too many questions for you like: Is she taking you for granted? Or giving you too much of everything? Does she control you? What now?
Do you know what you want
Do you know what you want
Love's so hard to find
So make up your mind
Do you know what you want
Things are getting out of hand around the lab because of my bickering with Peyton. Even techs are getting involve. I know I don't need to tell you this but you need to choose. In life, you need to make choices so choose carefully because it maybe you're last shot at it. So who's it gonna be?
Oh baby can't you see
One minute you're with me
Next one you are all over her
She talks behind your back
You know I'll stay on track
Something she wouldn't for sure
I know that it's hard to fix this but it won't be solved if you don't choose. I'm sorry I put you in this place. I tried to avoid this but it was evitable. Childish I know but I had to fight back... I had to fight back after what she has said about you. I won't tolerate that.
How can I help you to make up your mind
Boy you're running out of time
So which one will you choose
You look so confused
Tell me the truth
Do you know what you want
As this takes more time, it's getting more complicated. It interferes with our work and our personal life. I don't want to pressure you but it's clear that this must end now.
Please call me and say
I am the one
You need in your life
The game that you play
Ain't no fun
Please answer me now
Gotta know what you want
Whatever choice you make I need to hear it. I wish I'm the one you choose. Selfish I know but I need you in my life. It tortures me to know it's possible that I won't be the one you'll choose. I can give you what you need. I'll give you my everything... because I love you... so please choose. Is it gonna be her or me?
TBC...
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Part three and four are next... Mac's decision...
Tell me what you think. I am not good with songfics...
mj(wgf)