I Once Loved You by Pandora North Star
Notes: Cordelia PoV about the episode Lover's Walk
Xander Harris can go to hell. Literally. Like Angel did. How dare he? He cheated on me! Cordelia Chase! I gave him every ounce of popularity he ever earned in high school and he turns around and makes out with Willow Rosenberg. Not only is she unpopular but she has the worst hair cut.
If I could actually sleep I know I would have nightmares about the fall. You dream about falling but actually fulling through old stairs is a whole other thing. I still feel like that rusty piece of metal is in my side. It hurts so much. Another millimeter would have pierced a kidney. In some ways I'd rather be dead than face everyone. By now it's all over the school. That kind of thing just doesn't stay quiet. Funny. I'm usually the one to circulate the rumors. It's probably all that bad karma I've wracked up. Who am I fooling. I know I'm mean but I have a right to my popularity. I worked hard to get it. I get up early just to dress every morning.
They're all just intimidated. Especially Harmony. That's why she's my second. Keep your enemies close. Although it's probably an open opposition now. Boy what a position I put myself in. And I do only have myself to blame. If stupid Buffy hadn't come to town then I could have gone on living blissfully ignorant of all the creepy crawlies. Of course I could have been eaten too. I haven't decided wether living a normal life in Sunnydale or one with Buffy in Sunnydale is more dangerous.
Maybe I should try to hook up with Oz. Get back at Willow and Xander. He probably won't go for it. He's too nice. What do you bet that he'll even take her back? They're a better couple than us. Even Buffy made up with Angel after he tried killing her and all that. Xander and I weren't meant to be. I knew it all along but I forgot during the fun times. And that's when it's bad. I should have run away that first time we kissed. But I didn't. What did I do? Date him and let him break my heart. Never again.
Notes: Cordelia PoV about the episode Lover's Walk
Xander Harris can go to hell. Literally. Like Angel did. How dare he? He cheated on me! Cordelia Chase! I gave him every ounce of popularity he ever earned in high school and he turns around and makes out with Willow Rosenberg. Not only is she unpopular but she has the worst hair cut.
If I could actually sleep I know I would have nightmares about the fall. You dream about falling but actually fulling through old stairs is a whole other thing. I still feel like that rusty piece of metal is in my side. It hurts so much. Another millimeter would have pierced a kidney. In some ways I'd rather be dead than face everyone. By now it's all over the school. That kind of thing just doesn't stay quiet. Funny. I'm usually the one to circulate the rumors. It's probably all that bad karma I've wracked up. Who am I fooling. I know I'm mean but I have a right to my popularity. I worked hard to get it. I get up early just to dress every morning.
They're all just intimidated. Especially Harmony. That's why she's my second. Keep your enemies close. Although it's probably an open opposition now. Boy what a position I put myself in. And I do only have myself to blame. If stupid Buffy hadn't come to town then I could have gone on living blissfully ignorant of all the creepy crawlies. Of course I could have been eaten too. I haven't decided wether living a normal life in Sunnydale or one with Buffy in Sunnydale is more dangerous.
Maybe I should try to hook up with Oz. Get back at Willow and Xander. He probably won't go for it. He's too nice. What do you bet that he'll even take her back? They're a better couple than us. Even Buffy made up with Angel after he tried killing her and all that. Xander and I weren't meant to be. I knew it all along but I forgot during the fun times. And that's when it's bad. I should have run away that first time we kissed. But I didn't. What did I do? Date him and let him break my heart. Never again.