Chapter 1 : A Golden Dream

Disclaimer: Doctor Who and its characters belong to the BBC, and sadly not to me. I don't own anything nor do I make any money from writing my stories.

Summary : The Doctor, Martha and Donna travelled together in the Tardis and despite his smiles, he's still mourning the lost of Rose. Rose is trapped in the parallel universe, until she woke up at Torchwood after a weird dream. How the Doctor's will react about Rose's return? Martha is, of course, in love with the Doctor, so how Martha will react too?

Author's note : This is my first story in the 'Forever and Always series'.

Rose's outfit for this chapter is in the link on my profile.

Happy reading, guys !

- DW -

When Rose was not in her office, getting bored with paperwork, she was running down the street, hunting dangerous aliens or helping peaceful aliens. That was her new life now, her new mission: protecting the Earth. She was doing it for him, in his honour.

Still today, she was hurting. Just thinking about this separation, about this painful and brutal separation. And sadly, she had to live like that, with this memory forever, until her death. She was trapped on Earth … this Earth, not even hers. This planet where she was trapped, stuck, condemned to stay for the rest of her life was not hers.

No more travelling through the stars, discovering planets and saving aliens civilizations. Now, she had to protect her specie, the human kind, and just them. It's been five years already that she was in this universe. Every morning, she was looking through the windows and she could see a similar sky, but at the same time, so much different from where she came from. And by that, she wasn't thinking about the zeppelins in the sky, but about this mad man in a blue box. There wasn't any 900 years old alien in this sky, in this space, travelling in this universe, helping and saving civilizations.

Five years ago, when she'd been stuck in this universe, Rose had refused the job that her parallel father, Pete Tyler, had offered her. She didn't want to work for Torchwood, which was the last thing she wanted to do, because she simply hated Torchwood. They were the reason that she had been separated from the man she loved. They were the main reason why she will never able to see him again. So yeah, she had refused to work for or with this secret organization that had destroyed the one thing she loved: travelling with the Doctor.

Of course, Rose had start working. She couldn't stay put in one place, at her home, mourning the love of her life. She needed something to take care of, taking her mind off of this deep pain that was inside her. But of course, every night, in her bed, Rose was crying. She was crying, despite that she had accepted the fact that she will never be able to see him again. That had been hard, but at some point, she had accepted it. She was crying her eyes out, the tears she was holding back all day long. Of course, she was refusing to cry in front of her family or her friends; she didn't want to show the weak part of herself or her depressing state every time she was going to bed. Because that was really the case, she really was depressed.

Her family had just been very supportive after the brutal separation. Jackie, Peter and Tony, her little brother, they've been there all this time. She was living with them, helping her mother with Tony. And taking time with her parallel father, who she was considering him like a real father now. That was nice. Talking to him, hugging him and laughing with him, that was very nice. Having her daddy back was nice … without Reapers this time.

Sometimes, the evening, Rose was visiting her little brother who was four and half years old, in his bedroom and she was telling him about her adventures with the Doctor. He loved those stories; he was saying that the Doctor was his hero. Rose was smiling when he was saying that, because that was so true. The Doctor was the hero, to a lot of persons, even if he never saw himself as a hero.

And of course, Mickey, he was working for Rose's dad. In other words, he was working for Torchwood. Sure, having her dad and her best friend, being the leader and working for this institute that she hated was kinda awkward sometimes, but that was still nice. Because she was proud of them, and especially Mickey, he changed so much and for the better. She was on good term with him, he was her best friend. He had been so supportive too, and she was so grateful for that. And she didn't deserve a friend like him.

- DW -

Rose had the same job she could have done at Torchwood, but that was another institute named D.O.T.E, which meant Defenders of the Earth. She liked her job, and unlike Torchwood, D.O.T.E aimed to defend the Earth, without harming the aliens. Because Torchwood had this policy: "shoot first, ask questions later", even if the aliens were not dangerous at all for the planet.

After a long and boring day at work, Rose was returning to the Tyler's mansion. She still couldn't believe that she was living in a house this big now. Peter was incredibly rich in this world, unlike her mother when they were still living in the other universe. Now, Rose was living in an enormous mansion, and she had a private suite upstairs.

Rose opened the door of the mansion and was welcomed by Jackie and Tony, who was in his mother's arms.

"Hey mum, hello Tony" said Rose, as she was taking Tony in her arms.

"W'ose" said Tony. Rose smiled. Tony who was trying to say her name was the cutest thing in the world … and the funniest.

"He wanted to wait until you got back so you can tell him a story" said her mother with a smile.

"All right", replied Rose with a little smile.

She carried Tony into his bedroom. She put and tucked him into bed, and she sat on the edge of the bed. She told him one of his favourite's stories: when she met the Queen Victoria and the werewolf. He had several favourite stories; he loved the story about the Beast and the Oods, and the one with Charles Dickens and the Gelths. He also loved the adventure she had during the Blitz in London, the very day she met the Captain Jack Harkness. She was sad each time she was telling him this story. She missed Jack, so very much. She didn't know what had happened to him after the battle against the Daleks. The Doctor had told her that Jack was busy rebuilding the Earth but she always had this feeling that this story was a lie. Jack was probably dead, and the Doctor never had the heart to tell her. That was what she thought. But now, it was too late, she'll never know the truth.

When she was done with the story, she wished goodnight to her brother. She kissed him on his forehead and left his bedroom. She went to her private suite. She locked her door and let some tears running down her cheeks. She walked into the bathroom, put on her pajamas and got to bed. On her bedside table, she had a couple of photos she loved more than anything: First of all, a photo with her first Doctor. The very first one, the one who took her in adventures: all leather, older look, northern accent with big ears, very clear blue eyes, and a daft old face like he used to say. She was with him in this picture, a big smile on her face; the Time Lord was also smiling. And the second photo that she had was a picture of herself and her second Doctor, with his pinstripes and converse, his long brown coat, his big brown eyes and his … very great hair, defying the laws of physics. In the photo, The Doctor and Rose were hugging, both unaware that someone was taking a picture of them. Of course, the person who was taking the picture was her mother. Rose was staring he picture … she missed it. His hands in hers, his arms around her waist, which was such a natural gestures for them. She looked at her hands, and they were so empty now. Like if something was missing. If only, just for a minute, she could feel Doctor's hands in hers or his protective arms around her... just for a minute. She would do anything for this minute. And once again, some tears were started to fall down her cheeks. She sighed sadly and she turned the lights off. She closed her eyes and quickly fell asleep.

- A weak light appeared far away. This light was not the first time that Rose had seen it in her dreams. Since a few nights now, when she was falling asleep, a golden light was appearing often in her dreams. Every time, the light was getting more and more intense. Like if that light was trying to reach her, unsuccessfully. But this time, the light was coming right at her, very quickly. Rose was starting to panic and she ran in the opposite direction. She didn't know what that light was. And she wasn't ready to find out. Good or bad intentions, for now, she didn't want to know. So, she ran, ran, ran … and all of a sudden, she stopped, because in front of her, the strange light was emerging. Rose turned around to continue her escape, but she realized that the light was behind her as well. She looked to her right, then to her left and finally realized that she was completely surrounded by the golden light. She was trapped, she couldn't run away anymore. She closed her eyes a few seconds, hoping that everything was going to disappear, but to no avail, the light was still here. The light was coming closer and closer to Rose; she was blinded more and more, blinded that she could hardly keep her eyes open. Suddenly, she heard a howling of an animal … a wolf. She jumped and started screaming her head off, hoping to wake up and finally ending this dream, no …not this dream, this nightmare.-

Rose awoke with a start, her heart was racing and she was all sweaty. She got up to go to the bathroom, refreshing herself, there was nothing better that putting some cold water on her face to wake up a bit. She had put her dressing gown and get out of her private suite and she walked over to the kitchen.

She wanted a cup of tea. She wanted a cup of red fruit tea. Her favourite since the Doctor had made her discovered on this planet called Thralior. The tea she had drunk on this planet was the best tea she had drank in her entire life. Of course, she had never told this to her mother. And the tea they had tasted on this planet had the exactly same taste that the red fruit tea. And she was happy that she could remember the taste of the Thralior's tea by drinking this tea from Earth.

When she arrived in the kitchen, she saw her mother sitting at the table, drinking tea. What a coincidence.

"Are you having trouble sleeping?" asked Rose.

"No, Tony woke me up car he had a nightmare. Rose, you should telling him less scary stories"

"There's nothing terrifying in the story that I tell him tonight. And that was even one of his favourites."

"I know, Rose. But don't forget, he's only four and half years old."

"Oh, he had nothing to worry about; I even I told him that Queen Victoria, in this universe, had probably never been scratched by a werewolf." replied Rose.

Her mother sighed while she was watching her daughter making tea. Red fruit tea. Like always. Jackie had noticed that Rose seemed to really love this kind of tea. More than hers. And that wasn't something she was happy about, but whatever.

Once Rose had finished her tea, she sat down next to her mother.

"And you, why are you here?" asked her mother

"Like Tony, I had a nightmare."

"You want to talk about it, sweetheart?" kindly offered her mother.

"I don't really want to talk about it … I'd prefer to forget. That was just a dream after all."

"Was that about the Doctor?"

"No!", answered Rose. She didn't want to talk about the Doctor, knowing she will ending up in tears for sure. So she decided to change the subject, and to talk about her dream: "No, that was a strange dream, very strange. There was … this … kind of light, which was so bright. I was surrounded by this light … I couldn't run away … and then … there was this screaming … a howling … a wolf, I guess … I was afraid, mom … I panicked … just by seeing this light … I … I don't … I don't know, I … I felt like I wasn't ready to know something … this dream was oppressive, frightening …"

When she was speaking, Rose's eyes was unfocused, confused. Her eyes were moving to the right, then to the left like she was reading. Jackie quickly put her hand on her daughter's hand, and her eyes stopped and looked at her mother's face. Jackie smiled sadly and said:

"Sweetheart, it was just a dream. Drink your tea and go back to bed, all right?"

Rose nodded in agreement and her mother added:

"I'll go to sleep, try and get some sleep. I love you, sweetheart."

"I love you too, mom."

Jackie smiled, got up and kissed her daughter's forehead. Jackie left the kitchen, leaving her daughter alone.

Her mother was right; it was just a stupid dream. She finished drinking her tea and returned in her private room. She went to bed, and for the second time of the night, her eyes were staring the two photographs in her bedside table. She kissed her fingers and put them on the two pictures, and between two sobs, she whispered:

"I miss you so much … Doctor … if you could only hear me … I want you to hear this. I'm still very much in love with you and I miss you every single day, and it hurts …it hurts so much. What hurts the most is knowing that I will never see you again. I miss you … oh god, I miss you so very much."

Rose cried for several minutes and eventually, she calmed down. She fell asleep, once again …

-Rose had her eyes closed, but she saw behind her eyelids that the light was back again. She hadn't the audacity to open her eyes, she felt like if she stayed like this, the light couldn't do anything to her. After a few minute, she took her courage in both hands and slowly opened her eyes. The light was really here, but was different this time. The light was so much brighter … less threatening than last time. And against all odds, Rose was starting to walk towards the light. She was not afraid anymore; she even wanted to run towards the light. She knew that if she was going to that light, something good will happen to her. What? She didn't know, and she didn't care right now. All she wanted to do right now was to go to that light. So she ran, ran and ran towards that light. But she suddenly stopped, letting the golden light coming to her. Finally, the light had reached Rose. She felt her body floating and moving in a dark place, a very dark place. The only light source was this golden light that surrounded the beautiful blonde.-

- DW -

Author's note :

Here is my new story. Please review, that's always make me happy.

I had this idea for so long now, and I finally decided to write it down. I wanted to share this story with you. I hope you've enjoyed the first chapter.

The pairing in this story: 10/Rose of course. Martha, Donna and others characters will be there. Martha's fan, sorry, don't read the story, because I will not be nice with this character. I kinda liked Martha, but the fact that she was jealous of Rose and even hated without even know her was getting on my nerves a bit. And I wanted to add this love triangle in the story.