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A/N listen to don't close your eyes by Keith Whitley and she's just looking for him by Reba Mcentire well reading this. They both had a part in the inspiration for this story.
She didn't want to be back here. She hadn't been back in ten years. Not since that Year she'd had her heart ripped out two times within months of each other. First by Edward. His name still caused her heart to stop sometimes. She hadn't been enough for him. Though when the going had gotten tough he'd left. Him his family everyone.
Then she'd fallen into the arms of her best friend Jacob. She'd thought he was her salvation. How wrong she'd been. He'd been her down fall. Just as she'd built herself back up. Just as she was learning to breathe again. He'd broken her into a million pieces. It wasn't his fault not really. It was the universes cruel joke on her. Give her a vampire boyfriend who abandons you in a forest. Then give you a werewolf boyfriend who imprinted on someone else. She couldn't stay anymore. Everywhere she turned she was reminded of one or the other. She couldn't put herself back together with all the reminders around her.
She'd packed her bags, said goodbye to Charlie and ran to Florida to her mother. To a place Vampire's and werewolves didn't exist. She'd moved on or tried too. She'd dated. She'd ben with men. She'd went a little wild trying to forgot, the heartache she'd left behind. She wanted to hate them, to hurt them the way she had been hurt. She wanted to tear their worlds apart. She wanted to smash their hearts into a thousand pieces. She wanted to stand by and watch them trying to piece together their fragile existences.
She knew that wouldn't happen though. She didn't know where Edward or the Cullen's were but she would guess they'd forgotten about her now. Maybe Edward had found someone else. Maybe he was married. As for Jacob. She knew where he was. He was still in La Push. He was married and she'd heard he was expecting a baby. The perfect little family, the perfect existence. He didn't feel her heart ache and never would because fate had been kind to him. He never had to wonder, to be concerned that she would leave. If she really loved him or if he was just a place holder for something, someone better.
That was Bella's problem, or one of them anyway. She always wondered. Wondered if the person she was with really wanted her, if it was a forever kind of love. If she would be hurt again, and so she sabotaged herself. She ran and broke hearts before her own heart could be broken again. she'd stayed with Renee and finished her high school career. Then she'd flown again. this time to Dartmouth. She'd graduated with a B.A and Masters in English lit and her first book Heart in the fire was on the best sellers list.
Life had been going smoothly for her, for the most part. Her job was great. She saw her mother when she got the chance. She saw Charlie when he could make it her new home in New Hampshire. Sometimes he'd bring his girlfriend Sue Clearwater. After Bella had fled the boarders of Washington Harry Clearwater had passed away. Bella didn't remember the man well but she knew that her father had taken the death hard. She was glad he and Sue had found each other. She liked the older woman she thought Sue was good for Charlie.
She liked Sue she was happy for Charlie but she did curse them at this moment. It was because of them that she was headed back to a place she promised to never go to again. A place of ghosts and shattered hearts. A place that haunted her memories. She knew she'd have to see him. She Jacob, see his happy family. She everything she didn't have. She steeled her heart against the pain. In love twice and both times had ended with her broken. No she couldn't think of that of them, even if she'd have to see one of them. she thanked every god in existence that the Cullen's weren't back in Forks.
She'd get through the wedding, god awful bridesmaid's dress and all. She'd give her congratulations to Sue and her father and then she'd be on the next plan out of there. She could make I through the week she was sure of it. Or at least she hoped she could.
If it all got too much for her she'd just lock herself in a room and work on her next book. Feet to the flames. She pulled into her father's house in Forks. It didn't look any different than it had ten years ago. She took a deep breath. She put her heart in the box she knew it needed to be in and she walked towards the door. It was opened a second before she reached it and she looked up and her world stopped and she started to hyperventilate because there stood Seth Clearwater, future step brother and he'd just anchored to a place she never wanted to be. She knew that look she'd seen it before. Why her though, why him. Fate had a sick twisted sense of humor and she was going to fight it. She wasn't going to stay here. She wasn't going to fall into his arms. She wasn't going to risk her heart again. she hardly knew him. She'd pulled herself out of the world of the supernatural she wasn't going back there she refused. No she was going to act like nothing happened. It didn't happen it couldn't have happened. She wouldn't allow it.
A/N So what do you think. This won't be your usual Bella and the falls into the imprint and excepts it easily story as you can see. Next up we get to see what Seth thinks of all of this. Is he strong enough to fight for her? What about Sue and Charlie?