You locked all the doors
You thought it was safer that way
You put up your walls
And now your whole world is caving in

And you never said
You meant to save someone
Somebody just like me
Yeah you never told me
You wanted to love someone
Somebody just like me

You swallow your pride as
You're left behind
Counting stars to name your lies

- Paramore, "Just Like Me"

Severus was killed by Nangini and awakes in heaven, or hell. How does he survive?


Severus awoke in the luscious lawn of Hogwarts, and saw the children running freely around the castle. He quickly got himself up and dusted his robes off. He was dressed in Slytherin colors, black, green and silver. He hurriedly walked to the castle and, as always, its luster made him feel so insignificant. Severus walked past a grand mirror and smirked to himself as he watched his robes billow behind him, warning the rest of the world that he was dangerous.

He realized shortly, that the man he was staring at was not at all the man he had seen in the mirror a few days ago. He recognized himself immediately, even with the absence of pictures from his horrid childhood. He recognized the Severus of about 16 or 17 years. He walked to the mirror, ignoring the stares he received from numerous students, and cautiously touched the mirror with his hand.

Ice cold glass stood between himself and the 16 year old Severus. Although it was truly his reflection, his innocent hands and misinformed eyes seemed foreign to him. His cold, erudite eyes appeared startled at the apparent innocence in the boy's eyes. Severus stared at the boy, watching him stare back with incredulous eyes.

Was this some trick of Voldemort's? The last thing he could remember was Nangini springing to attack. So perhaps, he was dead and had gone to Hell. Yes, Severus decided that reliving his childhood was about the worst punishment any God, or whatever may decide his fate, could give.

Must he relive the torturous ridicule from the two relentless Marauders? Must he endure the pain inflicted on him as he watched those, well, the one only, walk away from him? He wondered for a second what day it was, and what year he was supposed to be in.

Suddenly, Mulciber, a would-be death eater called his name. "Snape! We need to study for our O. and you promised to me and Avery that you would come. Now, let's go," he said to Severus as Severus turned to follow him.

Severus and Mulciber arrived in the Hogwarts Library which was just as grand as Severus had remembered it from before the Battle of Hogwarts. The walls were lined with books of all sorts, mythical, educational, some dark volumes which probably were taken off the shelves after a number of Hogwarts students, himself included, joined the ranks of Voldemort as Death Eaters.

Severus opened a book on potions, Potions for the Advanced Potioneer and slammed it on the table. "Read this chapter and I will quiz you in ten minutes." He then grabbed a Dark Arts book and skimmed through the beginning. After ten minutes, he began interrogating his two 'friends' as if he were a teacher. He almost started taking points like he would if he were back in his classroom. Maybe he would still become a teacher in this other world.

He promptly ended the study session, and retreated further into the library, searching for a date. He was in his fifth year, that he had surmised, but the date remained elusive to him. He was exiting the library when he saw her.

There, sitting in a bright orange armchair, her legs tucked under her and her eyes going back and forth reading the lines of some book, was Lily. Lily Evans, not Lily Potter, with her vibrant red hair cascading down her back, some locks resting on her shoulders. It was Lily, whose eyes he had stared into for six years long after her death, hating the eye's owner, Harry Potter. But he wanted her eyes to be the last thing he saw before he died. So was he in heaven? He got to spend days with her, alive and not just some memory. At least, she was alive to him.

Severus didn't approach her; he just continued walking out of the library. He did not wish to disturb the peace radiating from her person.

He strode to the Slytherin common rooms, following a younger slytherin, and stepping carefully through the portrait after the boy proudly said the password, serpentsortia.

Severus walked briskly through the dimly lit dungeon to the calendar hanging beside the fireplace. Yesterday's date was crossed out in green, so today was the 5th of March. And on the sixth, Severus said the one word that ruined his entire future: Mudblood.


I plan on making this into a longer fic. Is it worth it? Or, should I just post one more chapter and be done with it?