Too Late for Love

By LukasAngelis

SP fanfiction: contains Slash, Sexual scenes, language, violence and at this first chapter could possibly suicidal thoughts and at this point may be angst. This story is basically my first fanfiction and I need to tell you two things 1) I wrote it to see if I could and 2) I'm not gay, really. They are a little older in this story I'd say around 14. I would think that is when some boys come to terms with this issue or at least when it comes up in their minds. However I am most likely wrong. (( )) means authors notes

Summary: Kyle realizes he is gay is attracted to Stan he about to come out to Stan and tell him he is attracted to him, but he is not that way. And it devastates Kyle that this could possibly ruin there whole relationship or even worse.

This first chapter I just want to be Kyle coming to the realization of the truth, and coming to terms with himself.

WARNING: I DO NOT OWN SOUTH PARK

Chapter 1: Kyle won't come out of the closest (so I pull out my gun)

Kyle Brovflovski lies in his bed looking at the ceiling after a long sleepless night and after many nights of just odd dreams. However, this night, was just Kyle thinking about the dreams he had whilst tossing and turning, trying to get to sleep and trying to figure out why he had these dreams and also why it bugged him so much. At around 12:30 he stopped trying to fall asleep because he knew he couldn't get to sleep with this problem nagging at his brain. He hated that nasty habit of his. He rethought all the dreams he could remember from the past few weeks that he had had.

In the earliest dream he could remember clearly (which was about two months ago) had him, Stan, Kenny and Cartman playing at Stark's Pond just ice skating and playing hide-and-seek but when it was his turn to Cartman's turn to seek they all went off running except Stan called to Kyle.

!!Flashback Dream Sequence!!

"Dude!" Stan said.

"Quiet, what?" Kyle replied

"I found a great spot a while back that I know Cartman could never find us at, so come with me I know it could fit two people."

"No, I'm going to find my own spot"

"Dude, just come on, your not going to find a better spot than this. Trust me."

"Oh, alright," So Kyle ran off with Stan to this "better spot" and when they got there it had been a pretty awesome spot. Except for one problem-

"Dude, you said this was big enough for two people," said Kyle looking at the spot that looked adequate for one person but much less than enough for two.

"It is big enough for two people, we just crawl inside and that fatass will never find us."

"From here it looks barely big enough for one person, much less two." Kyle said making his thoughts into words.

"Don't worry we just have to squeeze close together."

"No way! I'll just find my own spot." It was at that moment that he heard Cartman yell out "Here I come!"

Kyle realized he had no choice so he decided to take Stan's offer and hid in the semi-small bushes.

Kyle found out just how close he had to squeeze in for this to be a good hiding spot for two people. He felt that to get any closer and he would have to hug Stan. However what had happened was a little different, because Stan took the initiative. Kyle responded to what he felt was accordingly, "Dude! What are you doing?"

"One of us had to get a little closer or else he would see us and you were already far in. I hope it doesn't bother you."

All this was said to Kyle with Stan's mouth about three inches from Kyle's ear. As a matter of fact it did bother Kyle, slightly, but he wanted to defeat Cartman because he knew if Cartman found them first then Cartman would brag about it for at least the rest of the game if not the day.

"No, I don't mind just as long as you not trying to be gay or something."

"What do you mean, I'm not gay. Of course this position we're in is kinda reminding me of Wendy." Stan was talking in a totally gay way.

"Then get off of me."

"Oh come on Kyle, you know you like it." Stan said as he started to put his tongue in Kyle ear.

The moment the tongue touched his ear Kyle woke up in a panic and a sweat which he had expected, but he also had something he didn't expect…a hard-on.

!!End Flashback Dream Sequence!!

Kyle had freaked out about that dream and nearly threw due to the fact that he had a hard-on at such a…grotesque dream nearly nightmare in his opinion. He thought that maybe it had been something that he ate or something he had seen on TV, but he never told anyone about it, especially Stan. He had thought about that dream for days until he couldn't stand it and pushed it out of his mind. Kyle thought that this was the end of it and he could go back to normal life thinking about football, and his girlfriend Rebecca.

Unfortunately, one month later he had another dream just like this but different.

!!Flashback Dream Sequence #2!!

Class was coming into session with all the students walking into Mrs. Garrison's class. ((Yes I know she shouldn't be here, just use your imagination how she got to teach 8th grade. Besides IT'S A FUCKING DREAM SEQUENCE!))

Kyle was already in his desk so he could watch all the other kids make to their desks. He saw Red come in, although she was wearing her regular clothes but he couldn't take his eyes off of her; that was until he saw the next girl come into class. Millie, dressed in a tight t-shirt and a skirt, came in just as Red did and Kyle acted the same way. Then Rebecca came into the class. She was wearing a Tank-top and a miniskirt Kyle acted the same way, however it was different. This time he really couldn't take his eyes off her, even though the cycle continued with more girls coming in with less clothing on, he didn't ever take his eyes off Rebecca.

This changed once Stan entered the room. Once he entered the room, Kyle immediately just gawked at him, with Stan dressed in his normal school attire of a brown jacket, blue jeans and that blue hat he always wears.

The cycle behind Stan continued, until there were girls in the class totally naked, but he was still staring at Stan. His eyes followed him until he reached the desk at the other end of the room with no girls on it. Kyle wished he could be over there sitting next to him but all the girls were on his side, and they seemed to be blocking him from getting to Stan. He pushed the girls aside just so he could get to Stan but as he got past the girls Rebecca was still hanging on to him telling him to come and be with her. All this time the room was getting longer and Stan, farther away. Kyle felt himself beginning to cry as he tried as hard as he could to get rid of Rebecca and get to Stan until finally she let go. Once she did the room shrunk again and Stan was right there, waiting. Kyle went to go hug him and when he did Stan replied, "I knew you'd come." Saying it over and over. With Kyle feeling so happy to have his best friend again, he went for a deep passionate kiss. Once again right before the kiss hit Kyle woke up nearly screaming but not and covered with sweat. And just like last time he found himself with a hard-on.

!!End Flashback Sequence!!

Kyle didn't know with what to make with these dreams that he was having. Or rather he did but didn't want to admit it to himself. Thoughts were entering his mind that he had never considered before. Was he gay? He could answer that with an uneasy no. But he had a girlfriend. Yeah, but how has that relationship really going? You see her only on weekends because she's homeschooled, and even then when you do see her it's all supervised because of one screw-up. Now neither of them could ever say anything compassionate because it's hard to be compassionate with her father, mother, or brother around. Then his mind picked up again, oh come on if you loved her you would do something like leave notes or just find a way to be alone with her again by maybe gaining the family's trust again. But you don't seem to care that much, do you?

Even if that is true that would just mean I stopped liking her the way I did, I still look at other girls. Yeah and you look at them like pieces of meat. But when you look at Stan you see something different, you see someone who actually listens to your problems not just blows them off, or calls them retarded. Someone who comes to you with their problems when he can't tell anyone else. Sure there was that gun pointing incident a few years ago, but you've both gotten over that. All of that stuff just means we're best friends, that doesn't mean anything else.

"Oh yeah" his mind said as if with its own voice by now. "Then what about the dream two nights ago?" Kyle remembered this dream most and he felt almost shamed by it.

!!Flashback Dream Sequence #3!!

In the lunch line of their old elementary school, Kyle was waiting in line standing behind Clyde and in front of Dog-Poop waiting for some of Chef's great cooking. He saw Stan walking towards the table with his tray and Kyle's eyes went immediately to Stan's ass. He saw it shaking and he just wanted to touch it. As he looked at it time seemed to slow down as he just watched his ass move and shake. The urge grew so strong and he felt a burning in his loins so he exited the line in a flash and was over to Stan in what seemed like a second. He turned Stan around, put down Stan's food, hugged him, and put his hands on his ass. Once his hands were there he needed his face do something so he brought it to Stan's and just kissed on the lips. After that Stan reacted by returning the kiss, even more passionately than Kyle had given. It was during that kiss that Kyle was rubbing Stan's ass as there bodies were together in a fiery embrace.

While the kiss was going on Kyle woke up only to realize that not only had he had a hard-on… he had wet the bet.

!!End Flashback Sequence!!

"Well, what about that?" Kyle's mind said to its owner.

Kyle didn't know how to respond to that. All the years of teachings and learnings didn't help him this problem. He knew it was wrong. But he didn't know how else to explain it.

"Come on, say it."

"I guess…"

"It's on the tip of your tongue." Kyle's mind said again.

"…maybe…"

"Almost there"

"…I'm gay." Kyle finally said

"That's right."Kyle's mind replied in a satisfied tone.

"And I like Stan. What am I going do to?"

What will Kyle do next? Find out in the next chapter of "Too Late For Love"

Please Read & Review. Do as I say! Pwetty pwease.

LukAng Peace out