It's been a few weeks since Ilian decided to blow up the only thing that will help us survive the radiation. Thank god Abby and Raven are trying to make everyone into a Nightblood so that we can all survive this, but if that doesn't work then we are so fucked. I'm still healing thanks to Echo for stabbing me in the gut; good thing Clarke knows how to stitch people up really well. Nilyah has taken it upon her self to help me heal better and get my strength back up. Which I have to thank her for but at the same time I think I might be developing some feelings for her; which scares the shit out of me because Lincoln has always been my home. But maybe I can find a home in her; I'll have to see how things play out. We might be dead before I can even know what my feels are for her. Besides Clarke, Nilyah is the only other person that knows my secret; I don't think telling anyone that I'm pregnant is such a good idea since the world is most likely going to end soon anyway.
"Clarke would like to see you. She wants to make sure you are doing well.", Nilyah said to me as she came over to me with a smile on her face.
"She saw me like an hour ago, I don't think anything has changed in an hour.", I said to her sounding a little annoyed that Clarke was basically babysitting me.
"As your people say do not shoot the messenger.", Nilyah said to me with a giggle to her voice. I regret the day I taught her that saying.
"Shut up.", I said to her playfully as I shoved her shoulder a little as I started to walk away from her to go see Clarke.
"Octavia?", Nilyah said to me before I walked out the door.
"Yes.", I said to her as I turned around a little to face her.
"Do not be mad at Clarke, she is just looking out for you and the baby.", Nilyah said to me.
"I'm not mad at her, I'm just tired of people babysitting me is all. I know she cares. I'll see you later.", I said to her with a smile on my face as I headed to go see Clarke in the med bay.
"There you are, I figured Nilyah didn't tell you, or she did and you ignored her.", Clarke said to me with a grin on her face.
"I was tempted to ignore her. But I also know that if I did you would have found me anyway.", I said to her with a smirk on my face.
"Yeah I would. Mom wanted an update on you, and before you ask no I didn't tell her about the you know what.", Clarke said to me as I almost started to panic.
"Thank you, has she found a way to make us all into Nightbloods?". I asked Clarke as she started to look over me.
"She has an idea, she wants me to go there to help her with it to see if it works before we actually tell anyone what it is.", Clarke said to me.
"That's a start though.", I said to Clarke as she looked over my scar.
"Since no one is here or due to be here, want me to do a sonogram?", Clarke asked me with a small smile on my face.
"Not yet, maybe later. I would like Nilyah to be here if I decide to do that. You two ground me and I think I'm going to be a little emotional with that.", I said to Clarke with a smile of my own.
"Your choice, I'll be here later. Go do whatever it is you do during the day.", Clarke said to me with a laugh to her voice as I jumped off the table. I hated being on bed rest so to be in a bed for something other then sleeping I hate.
"Maybe I'll see you later.", I said to her as I left the medical bay. As I walked down the hallway I was so lost in my own thoughts that I didn't notice that I bumped into someone.
"You okay there Octavia?", Harper asked me as I got out of my own thoughts and realized I bumped into her.
"Yeah I'm fine just lost in my own thoughts. How are you doing?", I said then asked Harper, not really caring but wanting to be polite to her.
"I'm doing good. Does Clarke need any help in the medical bay?", She said then asked me.
"It didn't seem to busy in there but I'm sure she can find something for you to do.", I said to her as I headed back to my room.
"You could have been a little more pleasant with Harper.", Nilyah said to me as she came up behind me and almost made me shit my pants.
"First of all we need to get you a bell so you can't sneak up on people. Two you shouldn't be spying on me or telling me what to do. I owe nothing to these people I don't even like half of them. I tolerate them at best.", I said to Nilyah as she followed me into my room.
"You feeling well? You never have an attitude with me.", Nilyah asked me as I sat on my bed.
"Sorry I'm just worried about things. I didn't mean to take it out on you.", I said to her realizing that I was being rude to her for no reason.
"I know Octavia, I am here for you for anything you may need.", Nilyah said to me as she sat down next to me and I leaned my head on her shoulder.
"Thank you. I'm just worried about people finding out about me being pregnant. Like my brother and then he's going to be up my ass like he has been since I've been born.", I said to her as she started playing with my hair.
"You know he is only looking out for you. He is your big brother and he swore to your mother that he would always protect you. Even though I know you do not need protection, he is just doing what he thinks is right.", Nilyah said to me as we cuddled on my bed as I laid on her chest.
"I know all this and I do appreciate that he's looking out for me but I'm not a little kid anymore. Being on the ground has made me grow up a lot. I can take care of my self better then he can take care of me. Plus I'm still pissed at him for siding with Pike and getting Lincoln killed. That's going to take some time to forgive him.", I said to her.
"I know, only time will heal that.", Nilyah said to me as I got comfortable being in her arms as I slowly started to drift to sleep. "Go to sleep, I will wake you in an hour.", Nilyah said to me as she draped a blanket over us as I started to drift off to sleep.
"Later will you go with me to see Clarke about the baby?", I asked Nilyah in a sleep voice just as I was about to fall asleep.
"If that is what you want then yes I will go with you.", Nilyah said to me just as I fell asleep cuddling next to her. I have no idea how long I have been sleeping for but it seems like more then just an hour, like Nilyah said she would wake me.
"Octavia, we should get up.", Nilyah said in a gentle voice to wake me. I guess she must have falling asleep herself.
"I'm up I just don't want to move.", I said to her as I snuggled into her neck more.
"As much as I am enjoying this we have to see Clarke about the baby remember.", Nilyah said to me as she kissed my forehead.
"Ugh I just want to stay like this for forever. No one to bother us.", I mumbled into her neck which got her to giggle at my child like behavior.
"You are being a child, Octavia.", she said to me as I groaned into her neck.
"Shut up, okay I'm ready lets go.", I said to her as I stretched and got up out of bed.
"Are you nervous?", Nilyah asked me before we reached the med bay.
"A little, but you'll be there holding my hand right?", I asked her with a sheepish look on my face.
"If that is what you need then yes I will hold your hand the whole time.", She said to me with a smile on her face.
"Thank you.", I said to her as we entered the med bay.
"Just in time, I saw my last patient just a minute ago. Let's take a look at that baby of yours.", Clarke said to me with a smile on her face as I sat down on one of the beds; so she could do the sonogram.