Lupin's thoughts after Sirius's death, as he sits alone in a silent room.
A/N: I know this is only one of many similar pieces, but I just felt like
writing it. Nothing is mine except the words and Lupin's thoughts. Please
read and review - constructive criticism is appreciated.
I'm sitting here alone in a silent room, staring at nothing, thinking, even
though my mind feels empty.
Just a few hours ago I watched as Sirius fell through that veil, which has
hidden him forever from view.
It feels as if time has stopped, as if nothing exists or ever has existed
other than then and now.
And now there is only silence.
The memories of what passed between then and now seem distant and slightly
blurred, as if they belong to another life or a different man.
The only thing I remember clearly is the look in Sirius's dark eyes as he
fell..did he understand what was happening?
I whisper his name hoarsely into the dark, silent room, and my eyes are
filled with unshed tears.
And all of a sudden - almost for the first time - I realize that I will
never see Sirius again, and the tears start falling.
Silently.
He was all I had left, the only remainder of my "family"..
Once upon a time my friends were my family.
James, Sirius and..Peter. And Lily. Sweet, pretty Lily. She loved James and
Sirius with all her heart, no matter how angry she got, and she was my
friend. A good, true, friend.
I loved her.
The other Marauders were my best friends, we swore we'd always be
together, we would always be there for one another..but now I'm sitting
alone in a silent room, and I'm the only one left.
Peter is alive, but he's no longer one of us. If it hadn't been for
Peter..I wouldn't have lost James and Lily. Harry would have had a family.
Sirius..no, I can't think of Sirius.
But I am.
It all comes back to Voldemort in the end, all the death and destruction
and betrayal.and I know that I am only one of the many who have lost loved
ones at the hands of the Dark Lord and his followers, but tonight that
means nothing to me.
The only thing that exists is the emptiness in my heart.
Once I had four great friends, now I have no one.
Sweet Lily and arrogant, fearless James have been gone for so long that
sometimes I have trouble remembering the sound of their voices.
Peter is much worse than dead. I still have trouble believing how he could
have destroyed us.
And Sirius..now he's gone also, and I'll never hear him laugh - or bark -
again, I'll never again argue with him or just talk about anything and
everything like we used to..he's gone forever and I'm alone.
No, not alone. I have Harry. Harry needs me. He's as lonely as I am, maybe
more. He's never heard Lily's laugh, or spoken with James. Sirius was the
closest he's ever had to a parent, and he's lost him as well.
I guess, in a way, I'm all he has left, or at least the only link to his
parents left. I will try to take care of him in place of the parents and
guardians that no longer can..Harry will be good for me, we can help each
other over the rough spots.
We're going to be all right.
But the emptiness still surrounds me in this silent room, and I think it
always will.
A/N: I know this is only one of many similar pieces, but I just felt like
writing it. Nothing is mine except the words and Lupin's thoughts. Please
read and review - constructive criticism is appreciated.
I'm sitting here alone in a silent room, staring at nothing, thinking, even
though my mind feels empty.
Just a few hours ago I watched as Sirius fell through that veil, which has
hidden him forever from view.
It feels as if time has stopped, as if nothing exists or ever has existed
other than then and now.
And now there is only silence.
The memories of what passed between then and now seem distant and slightly
blurred, as if they belong to another life or a different man.
The only thing I remember clearly is the look in Sirius's dark eyes as he
fell..did he understand what was happening?
I whisper his name hoarsely into the dark, silent room, and my eyes are
filled with unshed tears.
And all of a sudden - almost for the first time - I realize that I will
never see Sirius again, and the tears start falling.
Silently.
He was all I had left, the only remainder of my "family"..
Once upon a time my friends were my family.
James, Sirius and..Peter. And Lily. Sweet, pretty Lily. She loved James and
Sirius with all her heart, no matter how angry she got, and she was my
friend. A good, true, friend.
I loved her.
The other Marauders were my best friends, we swore we'd always be
together, we would always be there for one another..but now I'm sitting
alone in a silent room, and I'm the only one left.
Peter is alive, but he's no longer one of us. If it hadn't been for
Peter..I wouldn't have lost James and Lily. Harry would have had a family.
Sirius..no, I can't think of Sirius.
But I am.
It all comes back to Voldemort in the end, all the death and destruction
and betrayal.and I know that I am only one of the many who have lost loved
ones at the hands of the Dark Lord and his followers, but tonight that
means nothing to me.
The only thing that exists is the emptiness in my heart.
Once I had four great friends, now I have no one.
Sweet Lily and arrogant, fearless James have been gone for so long that
sometimes I have trouble remembering the sound of their voices.
Peter is much worse than dead. I still have trouble believing how he could
have destroyed us.
And Sirius..now he's gone also, and I'll never hear him laugh - or bark -
again, I'll never again argue with him or just talk about anything and
everything like we used to..he's gone forever and I'm alone.
No, not alone. I have Harry. Harry needs me. He's as lonely as I am, maybe
more. He's never heard Lily's laugh, or spoken with James. Sirius was the
closest he's ever had to a parent, and he's lost him as well.
I guess, in a way, I'm all he has left, or at least the only link to his
parents left. I will try to take care of him in place of the parents and
guardians that no longer can..Harry will be good for me, we can help each
other over the rough spots.
We're going to be all right.
But the emptiness still surrounds me in this silent room, and I think it
always will.