The Demon That Is Me
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Second part of 'Old Friends and Past Demons.' Janeway has to save Spike and Angel, but is she willing to give up Voyager and her human life to do it? Pls R+R thanx!!
Warning: This story contains slight swearing and sexual scenes.
Delta Quadrant, U.S.S Voyager, Messhall, 2376:
"WHAT!?"
"You know, that's exactly what I said when she told me."
B'Elanna Torres stared at Chakotay in disbelief. It was after-hours, they were sitting in the Messhall and Chakotay had just told B'Elanna everything about Janeway, Z and her plan to get Spike and Angel back.
"Hang on. So your telling me that Captain Janeway is a demon, who wants to be 'reformed' back to her demon self to save her old friends. Their vampires, they won't die, will they?"
Chakotay drank some of his coffee then put the cup back on the table before answering her question. "If Z stakes them though the heart then yes they will die. Kathryn doesn't want that to happen."
"What so she's just going to throw everything away? This crew, this ship.you?" B'Elanna said with a hint of anger that suggested she wasn't happy with the idea.
"She'll still have her memories of everything that's happen on Voyager, and in her life, she'll just be demon." Chakotay informed her.
"That's not what I meant." B'Elanna sighed and stared down at the empty cup in her hands.
"What did you mean?" Asked Chakotay.
"I meant.why does she just want to leave? She promised to get us home and now she just wants to leave." B'Elanna poured herself another cup of coffee and drank half of it.
Chakotay was about to talk when a comlink interrupted him. "Janeway to Chakotay."
"Go ahead."
"Where are you? You said you 'wouldn't be long' it's been 2 ½ hours I need to talk to you."
"I'm on my way, Chakotay out." Chakotay picked up his cup and drank the last bit of coffee, then put the cup back down and stood up. "Thanks for listening B'Elanna; I'll see you in the morning."
"Any time." B'Elanna replied as Chakotay walked out of the Messhall.
It was the next morning; Chakotay was sitting on the bridge thinking about his and Janeway's conversation from last night. Janeway had told him that Z would 'reform' her in a week or two. Z would beam to Voyager with Spike or Angel beam back to his hideout with Janeway then beam the other one back to Voyager. She also told him that instead of being called 'Elizabeth' which Z was calling her, her new Demon name would be 'Kathrina.' Chakotay liked the sound of that name, didn't want it to his girlfriend's name. It had been two days since Janeway told him everything and he was still having a hard time expecting it. But it didn't seem to bother Janeway, knowing that she would lose everything Human to her, that she would lose everyone who meant something to her. Maybe she just not showing it, Chakotay thought. He sighed then opened the Command console to the right of his chair; this was going to be a long two weeks.
Somewhere: Spike sat up. It was day 3 of him and Angel being locked up in a cage by Z, Spike thought that they had no hope of getting free. He looked over to Angel, he was still asleep, and then he looked at the bars in front of him where Z normally left some cups of pig's blood for them. Spike got out of bed, pushing the covers down to the bottom of it, and walked over to the cups, picked one up and took a sip, it wasn't as good as people's blood, it will have to do, Spike thought. Then he walked back to his bed and sat down. He looked over at the door to see Z standing at it, smiling evilly.
"What do you want?" Spike asked.
"Come to tell you I've talked to Kathryn, and she's agreed to come back with me to release the both of you." Z answered.
Spike thought for a moment then said. "Ha! I would rather stay here then let her come into this Hellhole."
"Well you don't have a choice! She's decided not you, so I'm going to pick her in a week's time, and then you can both go." Z turned and was about to walk away when Spike stopped him.
"And how do I know this isn't a trap?" He asked. Z slowly turned back to face him as Spike continued, "You know bring her here, keep both of us. I don't trust you." He said bluntly.
"You don't have to trust me, but remember this, while you here, you life belongs to me and I can end it whenever I want to. So if I was you, be a good boy, and SHUT UP!" Z shouted, and then he turned and walked down the dark tunnel out of the cave.
Spike sighed and leaned against the bars, this wasn't what he had in mind about a rescue plan to get out of there. This can't get any worse, can it?
Voyager, one week later:
Chakotay was walking to his and Janeway's quarters. One week had gone and there was sign of Z. Chakotay was wondering if Z was telling the truth, he was hoping that he lied and was not going to reform Kathryn and keep Spike and Angel. He walked into his quarters with a sigh to see Janeway sitting on the sofa with her head in her hands, crying. He ran over to her, sat beside her and wrapped his arms around her tightly.
"Kathryn, what's wrong." He asked softly, having a feeling he already knew the answer.
"Z.he came.and he's.he's going to.to reform me.tomorrow morning." She answered between sobs.
His feeling was right. Chakotay hugged her tighter, out of comfort and the fact that he might never hug her again. "Don't cry honey. We've still got tonight."
"NO!" Kathryn shouted as she broke free from his arms. She walked over to the window and looked around at Chakotay. "I don't want tonight; I want the rest of my life with you. But I can't because of who I am." She cried. Chakotay got up and walked over, then wrapped his arms around her again.
He had never seen Janeway cry like this, she always brave and strong, but to see her like this hurt him. "It'll be fine Kathryn I promise."
Janeway looked up at him; she could see the pain in his eyes because she was crying. "Chakotay make tonight really special."
"I will my love." He replied as he stroked her lips with his.
"I want you to hold me, touch me and love me like you may never get the chance to again." She said softly as she fought back the tears.
Chakotay wiped her tears from her cheeks with his hands, and then cupped her face with them. Then he bent down to her and kissed her.
Somewhere:
It was the next morning; Spike and Angel were both up, drinking their morning pig's blood.
"What are we going to do?" Angel asked. Spike had informed him of Z's plan, both of them had a feeling that he was hiding something from them, but didn't know what, apart from it had to be bad.
"Nothing that's what." Came Z's voice from behind the door. Spike and Angel both looked over to him. "Well, not until I say."
"Bloody Hell, you could kill someone by sneaking around like that." Spike said.
"Good, shame it didn't work this time." Z retorted as he unlocked the door. "Angel you're coming with me."
Angel got up and looked at Spike, who was about to make a run for the door. He shook his head and Spike stood still, glaring at Angel then Z. Angel walked out to stand beside Z, who then locked the door.
"See you later Spike." Z laughed, and then he and Angel disappeared. Spike sighed and sat down on his bed. He then picked up his cup, and slung it across the cage, making it hit the opposite bars and sending pigs blood everywhere. "Bloody Hell!"
Voyager:
Z and Angel appeared in the living area of Chakotay and Janeway quarters. Z sat down on one of the sofas and motioned with his hand for Angel to do the same. Angel hesitated but did what he was told to do and sat down opposite Z.
"We'll wait for them to wake up before we swap." Z told Angel who just nodded in response.
One hour had passed before the bedroom door opened. Janeway walked in, but stopped dead in her tracks when she saw Z and Angel. She pulled her pink dressing gown tighter together then walked over to the sofa that Z was sat on, Chakotay followed behind her and sat next to her.
Angel eyed up at Z, he was watching Janeway and Chakotay. Then he looked over to them, Chakotay, who was in his grey boxers, was hugging Janeway.
"Get changed." Z ordered Janeway who looked over to him. "Or get dressed, depends whether you have anything underneath." He smiled at her Janeway looked away from him in disgust, but got up and walked back into the bedroom. Chakotay glared at Z before getting up and following Janeway.
"Are you sure you want to do this?" Chakotay asked when the door had close behind him.
Janeway turned to face him. "I won't lie to you. I don't want to do this, but if I don't Z will kill them and I don't want to be responsible for two death. I wouldn't be able to live with it."
Chakotay walked over to her and hugged her tight. "It's your decision, and I respect that. But never forget that I love you."
"I know, and I love you to." Janeway kissed him, walking over to her cupboard to change.
Somewhere:
Z appeared with Janeway outside Spike's cage. Spike looked up at them, Janeway was dressed like Z, black tight trousers and a black tank top, but Z was also wearing his ankle length, black, leather jacket. Z grabbed Janeway's elbow, unlocked the cage, and pushed her into it. Janeway fell to the floor, but quickly stood up and turned to face Z, who had finished locking the cage.
"What's this for? And what about your promise?" Janeway asked then looked at Spike who was standing next to her.
"Haha!! Your in there so you don't contact Voyager, and my promise, I've never kept a promise!" Z laughed, before turning and walking out of the cave.
Janeway looked at Spike, who looked at her. After a silence he said. "That's you bed." Pointing to Angel's old bed, then he sat on his bed. He knew this was going to happen, so it didn't really surprise like it did Janeway.
Janeway walked over to her new bed, sat down and sighed. This is great.
Two days had passed since Janeway got locked up with Spike. Right now she was lying on her bed, staring up at the bared ceiling. She knew Spike, who was sitting on his bed, was watching her: she could feel it. And it annoyed her.
"Kathryn." He said.
"Yes." She replied.
"You never told me what happened between the times you entered you one body and the time you left." Spike said.
Janeway sighed, and then sat up swung her legs off the bed and looked over at him. "What do you want to know?"
"Anything. What happened when you were in your first body?"
Janeway thought for a moment. "The year 1649 springs into mind."
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Second part of 'Old Friends and Past Demons.' Janeway has to save Spike and Angel, but is she willing to give up Voyager and her human life to do it? Pls R+R thanx!!
Warning: This story contains slight swearing and sexual scenes.
Delta Quadrant, U.S.S Voyager, Messhall, 2376:
"WHAT!?"
"You know, that's exactly what I said when she told me."
B'Elanna Torres stared at Chakotay in disbelief. It was after-hours, they were sitting in the Messhall and Chakotay had just told B'Elanna everything about Janeway, Z and her plan to get Spike and Angel back.
"Hang on. So your telling me that Captain Janeway is a demon, who wants to be 'reformed' back to her demon self to save her old friends. Their vampires, they won't die, will they?"
Chakotay drank some of his coffee then put the cup back on the table before answering her question. "If Z stakes them though the heart then yes they will die. Kathryn doesn't want that to happen."
"What so she's just going to throw everything away? This crew, this ship.you?" B'Elanna said with a hint of anger that suggested she wasn't happy with the idea.
"She'll still have her memories of everything that's happen on Voyager, and in her life, she'll just be demon." Chakotay informed her.
"That's not what I meant." B'Elanna sighed and stared down at the empty cup in her hands.
"What did you mean?" Asked Chakotay.
"I meant.why does she just want to leave? She promised to get us home and now she just wants to leave." B'Elanna poured herself another cup of coffee and drank half of it.
Chakotay was about to talk when a comlink interrupted him. "Janeway to Chakotay."
"Go ahead."
"Where are you? You said you 'wouldn't be long' it's been 2 ½ hours I need to talk to you."
"I'm on my way, Chakotay out." Chakotay picked up his cup and drank the last bit of coffee, then put the cup back down and stood up. "Thanks for listening B'Elanna; I'll see you in the morning."
"Any time." B'Elanna replied as Chakotay walked out of the Messhall.
It was the next morning; Chakotay was sitting on the bridge thinking about his and Janeway's conversation from last night. Janeway had told him that Z would 'reform' her in a week or two. Z would beam to Voyager with Spike or Angel beam back to his hideout with Janeway then beam the other one back to Voyager. She also told him that instead of being called 'Elizabeth' which Z was calling her, her new Demon name would be 'Kathrina.' Chakotay liked the sound of that name, didn't want it to his girlfriend's name. It had been two days since Janeway told him everything and he was still having a hard time expecting it. But it didn't seem to bother Janeway, knowing that she would lose everything Human to her, that she would lose everyone who meant something to her. Maybe she just not showing it, Chakotay thought. He sighed then opened the Command console to the right of his chair; this was going to be a long two weeks.
Somewhere: Spike sat up. It was day 3 of him and Angel being locked up in a cage by Z, Spike thought that they had no hope of getting free. He looked over to Angel, he was still asleep, and then he looked at the bars in front of him where Z normally left some cups of pig's blood for them. Spike got out of bed, pushing the covers down to the bottom of it, and walked over to the cups, picked one up and took a sip, it wasn't as good as people's blood, it will have to do, Spike thought. Then he walked back to his bed and sat down. He looked over at the door to see Z standing at it, smiling evilly.
"What do you want?" Spike asked.
"Come to tell you I've talked to Kathryn, and she's agreed to come back with me to release the both of you." Z answered.
Spike thought for a moment then said. "Ha! I would rather stay here then let her come into this Hellhole."
"Well you don't have a choice! She's decided not you, so I'm going to pick her in a week's time, and then you can both go." Z turned and was about to walk away when Spike stopped him.
"And how do I know this isn't a trap?" He asked. Z slowly turned back to face him as Spike continued, "You know bring her here, keep both of us. I don't trust you." He said bluntly.
"You don't have to trust me, but remember this, while you here, you life belongs to me and I can end it whenever I want to. So if I was you, be a good boy, and SHUT UP!" Z shouted, and then he turned and walked down the dark tunnel out of the cave.
Spike sighed and leaned against the bars, this wasn't what he had in mind about a rescue plan to get out of there. This can't get any worse, can it?
Voyager, one week later:
Chakotay was walking to his and Janeway's quarters. One week had gone and there was sign of Z. Chakotay was wondering if Z was telling the truth, he was hoping that he lied and was not going to reform Kathryn and keep Spike and Angel. He walked into his quarters with a sigh to see Janeway sitting on the sofa with her head in her hands, crying. He ran over to her, sat beside her and wrapped his arms around her tightly.
"Kathryn, what's wrong." He asked softly, having a feeling he already knew the answer.
"Z.he came.and he's.he's going to.to reform me.tomorrow morning." She answered between sobs.
His feeling was right. Chakotay hugged her tighter, out of comfort and the fact that he might never hug her again. "Don't cry honey. We've still got tonight."
"NO!" Kathryn shouted as she broke free from his arms. She walked over to the window and looked around at Chakotay. "I don't want tonight; I want the rest of my life with you. But I can't because of who I am." She cried. Chakotay got up and walked over, then wrapped his arms around her again.
He had never seen Janeway cry like this, she always brave and strong, but to see her like this hurt him. "It'll be fine Kathryn I promise."
Janeway looked up at him; she could see the pain in his eyes because she was crying. "Chakotay make tonight really special."
"I will my love." He replied as he stroked her lips with his.
"I want you to hold me, touch me and love me like you may never get the chance to again." She said softly as she fought back the tears.
Chakotay wiped her tears from her cheeks with his hands, and then cupped her face with them. Then he bent down to her and kissed her.
Somewhere:
It was the next morning; Spike and Angel were both up, drinking their morning pig's blood.
"What are we going to do?" Angel asked. Spike had informed him of Z's plan, both of them had a feeling that he was hiding something from them, but didn't know what, apart from it had to be bad.
"Nothing that's what." Came Z's voice from behind the door. Spike and Angel both looked over to him. "Well, not until I say."
"Bloody Hell, you could kill someone by sneaking around like that." Spike said.
"Good, shame it didn't work this time." Z retorted as he unlocked the door. "Angel you're coming with me."
Angel got up and looked at Spike, who was about to make a run for the door. He shook his head and Spike stood still, glaring at Angel then Z. Angel walked out to stand beside Z, who then locked the door.
"See you later Spike." Z laughed, and then he and Angel disappeared. Spike sighed and sat down on his bed. He then picked up his cup, and slung it across the cage, making it hit the opposite bars and sending pigs blood everywhere. "Bloody Hell!"
Voyager:
Z and Angel appeared in the living area of Chakotay and Janeway quarters. Z sat down on one of the sofas and motioned with his hand for Angel to do the same. Angel hesitated but did what he was told to do and sat down opposite Z.
"We'll wait for them to wake up before we swap." Z told Angel who just nodded in response.
One hour had passed before the bedroom door opened. Janeway walked in, but stopped dead in her tracks when she saw Z and Angel. She pulled her pink dressing gown tighter together then walked over to the sofa that Z was sat on, Chakotay followed behind her and sat next to her.
Angel eyed up at Z, he was watching Janeway and Chakotay. Then he looked over to them, Chakotay, who was in his grey boxers, was hugging Janeway.
"Get changed." Z ordered Janeway who looked over to him. "Or get dressed, depends whether you have anything underneath." He smiled at her Janeway looked away from him in disgust, but got up and walked back into the bedroom. Chakotay glared at Z before getting up and following Janeway.
"Are you sure you want to do this?" Chakotay asked when the door had close behind him.
Janeway turned to face him. "I won't lie to you. I don't want to do this, but if I don't Z will kill them and I don't want to be responsible for two death. I wouldn't be able to live with it."
Chakotay walked over to her and hugged her tight. "It's your decision, and I respect that. But never forget that I love you."
"I know, and I love you to." Janeway kissed him, walking over to her cupboard to change.
Somewhere:
Z appeared with Janeway outside Spike's cage. Spike looked up at them, Janeway was dressed like Z, black tight trousers and a black tank top, but Z was also wearing his ankle length, black, leather jacket. Z grabbed Janeway's elbow, unlocked the cage, and pushed her into it. Janeway fell to the floor, but quickly stood up and turned to face Z, who had finished locking the cage.
"What's this for? And what about your promise?" Janeway asked then looked at Spike who was standing next to her.
"Haha!! Your in there so you don't contact Voyager, and my promise, I've never kept a promise!" Z laughed, before turning and walking out of the cave.
Janeway looked at Spike, who looked at her. After a silence he said. "That's you bed." Pointing to Angel's old bed, then he sat on his bed. He knew this was going to happen, so it didn't really surprise like it did Janeway.
Janeway walked over to her new bed, sat down and sighed. This is great.
Two days had passed since Janeway got locked up with Spike. Right now she was lying on her bed, staring up at the bared ceiling. She knew Spike, who was sitting on his bed, was watching her: she could feel it. And it annoyed her.
"Kathryn." He said.
"Yes." She replied.
"You never told me what happened between the times you entered you one body and the time you left." Spike said.
Janeway sighed, and then sat up swung her legs off the bed and looked over at him. "What do you want to know?"
"Anything. What happened when you were in your first body?"
Janeway thought for a moment. "The year 1649 springs into mind."