Warning: This story will become Yaoi in future chapters so if you don't like boy x boy relationship then don't brother reading this.

Sitebzen: This will be my first yaoi fanfic about Sasuke x Sai. I totally mess this up since I don't know much about Sai. Oh well I did have fun messing with his personality as well as the other characters. Yeah the characters will be OOC sorry about that.

Sasuke: Am I your favorite character or something?

Sitebzen: As if. My favorite characters right now are Kabuto Yakushi and Sai. You're just lucky to be in my stories.

Sasuke: Whatever.

Sai: What did I miss?

Naruto: Sai you jackass!

Sai: Oh crap! (~Leaves in a puff of smoke~)

Naruto: Where did that freak ran off to? Sai you bastard come back here! (~Runs off to who knows where~)

Sasuke: …

Sitebzen: Okay…moving along.

Disclaimer: I, Sitebzen, don't own the anime/manga call Naruto. All of its characters belong to its creator, Masashi Kishimoto.

A/N: Oh yeah I forgot to mention that this story will be in the point of view of whichever character it says so. There might be lots of grammatical errors as well as spelling errors so yeah it might get annoying at times but bear with me. Writing isn't my thing and as of yet I haven't improved at all. Now that I got that out of the way enjoy my insanity!

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Title: My Heart's Will

Chapter One: Finding You…!

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SAI'S POV:

After our fierce battle with Akatsuki somehow the rogue ninja Itachi Uchiha and Kisame Hoshigaki managed to escape. I watched as Naruto punched the ground continuously.

"Relax Naruto, I'm sure we'll get them next time," Sakura reassured him as she tried her best not to cry as well.

"No! No! No! This was our chance. If we had captured Itachi Uchiha then Sasuke…Damn it! This isn't fair!" He yelled frustrated and sad with the situation. I could see his tears softly falling from his face. His once bright azure eyes now clouded with sadness.

"I know Naruto. I want Sasuke to come back home but…," Sakura trailed off her voice breaking towards the end. Naruto looked up to see her crying as well. There was an unusual silent that filled the air.

Naruto wiped his own tears away as he took Sakura's offering hand.

"Yeah, I get it." He said as he got up on his feet. "I won't rest until I bring him back home. I promised didn't I?"

For them their top priority is to find Sasuke Uchiha. He was their former teammate and now missing nin. I still can't see what's so special about him. To me he is nothing but a traitor who chose power over everything else. However I also understand the importance of keeping a bond. Even if I don't remember too well the bond I used to share with my brother. This feeling is still here deep inside my heart…this pain. It's only presence when I watch them.

Why do I feel this way?

"Are you alright Sai?" I heard Sakura's soft angelic voice calling out to me.

"I'm fine, Ugly." I simply responded.

I began to head back to camp where Kakashi sensei was, but was stopped by the nine tail vessel.

"Idiot…! She only asked because she was worry about you!" He barked out to me.

"She can save her concern." I said as I turned my back on them. I didn't even bother to look at him as I said, "Instead of crying over this defeat you should get stronger dickless."

I heard him growl from behind me and before I knew it I meet the harsh cold ground. He had punched me on the face and it hurt like hell. I slowly got up from the ground and plastered on my face was my trademark smile.

"Taking your anger out on me won't change a thing. You're angry because you know it's true. Being weak and always rushing in recklessly. Letting your emotions control your action. Your flaws will cause your life someday. How do you suppose to rescue him at your current state? He has surpassed you in strength and obviously in intelligence. He doesn't seem to care a thing about you and yet you still chase after him…why? Despite everything he has done, you still plan on finding him?"

He gritted his teeth, "I absolutely hate you. Always looking down on me like you were better than me! Why do you have to act just like Sasuke?" Naruto's eyes dilated in shock at his own words.

I looked at him confused. Was he comparing me to that traitor? Why? If nothing more I feel slightly offended.

He turned around not wanting to look at me.

"Just forget it," he said walking away.

Sakura looked at me, "Don't push Naruto too much. You know how much he cares about Sasuke."

"Like a brother right," I said not looking at her but at Naruto's retrieving form.

"He's willing to do anything to get him back. Inside he's suffering a lot and he doesn't need you to tell him the cold truth he already knows. Keep your comments to yourself alright," she said as she left to join Naruto.

It looked like they were having a conversation so I just turned my gaze to the skies. It looks like it was going to rain today.

NARUTO'S POV:

Why is he such a jerk?

Emotionless freak just staring into his dark empty eyes irritates the heck out of me. I shouldn't care what he says but somehow he gets under my skin. Almost the same way how Sasuke used to annoy me by calling me dead last.

Sasuke…

It seems my thoughts always revolved around him. I still remembered how he chose revenge over us. Even though this wound has healed this pain is still here, so close to my heart where he hit me with his chidori.

Why didn't he kill me?

I could feel the tears wanting to come out from the corner of my eyes. I turned my gaze back to that jerk. He was so like Sasuke and at the same time nothing like him. I'll never accept him as Sasuke's replacement. No one can take his place.

"Are you okay?" Sakura asked me as she sat next to me.

"Yeah," I said flatly.

"What's his problem anyways? I wish he stops treating me like I'm a burden or something."

"I'm sure he doesn't even realize he's doing it," she said trying to defend him.

"Why? Is it because he's so cool? It never crossed my mind that he was like Sasuke. At least Sasuke show some emotions unlike that guy. I really hate him."

"Oh come on Naruto you don't really mean that. Think of it this way. It's not that Sai has no emotion but that he has somehow lost the ability to feel. You have witness it yourself. After our first fail attempt to rescue Sasuke he tried to be some what more social with us, like he wanted to be our friend. "

"Oh like coming up with names like ugly or dickless?"

"Well no but he is trying. You can't blame him for that."

"I suppose he isn't that bad. Instead of following that Danzo guy's order of killing Sasuke he decided to help us bring him back home alive."

I can still remember that day when Sai gave me a true smile not the fake ones he usually gives out. He was smiling at me as he showed me his completed picture book. I couldn't help but to smile at that memory.

"See. Let's just give Sai some time until he fully trusts us, alright?" She said as she poked me on the shoulder. I couldn't help but let out a small laugh.

"Alright but if he makes fun of me again I'm not going to hold back."

"Yeah me either. I'm getting tired of being called ugly." She said closing her eyes as she leaned against the tree. I watched her for a while before I asked her something that was bothering me for a while.

"Hey Sakura, do you think Sasuke will ever come back home?" She opened her emerald green eyes and looked straight at me. I couldn't help but look away.

"You're not planning on giving up are you?" She said with a serious tone.

"I'll never give up!" I said as I quickly stood up.

"It just that no matter how strong I am Sasuke…he's always ahead of me," I said as I sat back down. I can never catch up to him. No matter what I do I'm just not strong enough to bring him back.

"Naruto…," she said as she smiled at me. I couldn't help but blush as she seemed to glow in the sun. The wind gently played with her pink hair as her shiny green eyes connected with mine.

"In no time I'm sure you'll become very strong and Sasuke will be the one chasing after you."

"Sakura…" I couldn't help but feel happy inside. Not only is she acknowledging me, but she also believes in me.

"I know how determine you are. When you become Hokage I bet you'll be a great leader. Don't lose sight of that dream. Ever since we became squad seven I watched you grow each day. I was useless to stop him from leaving and you…," she trailed off as tears fell from her face.

"You almost die. Just to keep that promise for me…I almost lost you too! It-It was my fault!"

"Don't cry Sakura," I said wiping her tears away.

"Don't blame yourself. Even if you didn't ask me to I still would have gone after him. He's our friend and I never turn my back on a friend." I told her.

Sasuke is more than just a friend. He was one of the first people who accepted me for who I am. One of the first bonds I ever made and I don't want to lose him.

"Naruto…thank you," she said wiping her own tears away.

"I know we couldn't save him before but…"

"We'll save him together," she said smiling at me.

"Yeah," I couldn't help but smile back. Even if I were to die in the process I want Sasuke to come back home. I want to save him from the darkness no matter what.

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SAI'S POV:

We all meet Kakashi sensei who was sitting on a large boulder reading his Icha Icha Make-Out Paradise book. He stood up and put the book away behind his back pocket. Naruto and Sakura smiled at me.

Where they up to something?

"Alright team we need to head back and huh?" Kakashi sensei said baffled as he saw a bird heading our way. It was a messenger hawk and it landed on his shoulder. It was carrying a letter probably send by Lady Tsunade no doubt. He scanned the document before turning to us.

"You guys can head back now, I'll catch up later. I need to check something out." He said vaguely before disappearing into the forest and leaving Pakkun with us. We walked silently through the forest as we headed back to Konoha.

"So Sakura when we get back do you want to eat ramen with me? You know just the two of us?" Naruto said grinning at the kunoichi.

She smiled back, "Sorry Naruto maybe next time."

"Oh and why not…?" He whined at the usual rejection.

"Have you forgotten? I also help out in the hospital so I'll be busy all week."

"Well that sucks," he said kicking the dirt.

Sakura chuckled, "Why not ask Sai out for some ramen?"

I was surprised at how fast his face turned bright red like a tomato. He pointed at my direction, "Sakura you're not implying that I swing that way? Not that I have anything against that Sai."

I just raised my eyebrow in confusion. Did he honestly believe I'll be interested in guys?

"Dickless I don't care to know what your sexual preferences are but I'll admit I don't mind going out with you." Going out was just another form of hanging out at least that's what he read.

I think I touched a nerve as he glared at me and his face continued to burn red. I couldn't tell if it was from embarrassment or anger. Did I do something wrong?

"Hey if anyone is gay it's you! What's wrong with you anyways? Wearing belly-shirts and always talking about other people's penis! If you ask me that totally qualifies as not being straight!"

Sakura just giggled behind her hand. I had a sneaky suspicion that she planned this whole thing.

"What about you, ugly mutt? Do you have any opinions on my or Naruto's sexual preference or perhaps your own? As I recall you did like Konohamaru's jutsu call Oiroke Otoko No Ko Doushi No Jutsu. You know the one of Sasuke and me about to get it on."

Her face was all red and a scowl quickly appeared on her face. She clenched her hands as she kept on glaring at me. Yup she was definitely angry. She cried out my name as she charged at me with all her strength trying to hit me.

"What's wrong ugly?"

This only got her angrier and poor Naruto tried to calm her down. The results getting beat to a bloody pulp.

Hate to be in his shoes.

I kept on dodging until the dog began to bark.

"Knock it out you guys. For a bunch of ninjas you sure act like little kids. At this rate we'll never reach Konoha in time."

"What are a few days late if I get to beat the crap out of Sai," was Sakura's response. She punched a nearby tree and I was still surprise of her unusual super human strength.

"I'm sorry," I replied.

"You're what?" She blinked a few times surprise of what I said.

Why wouldn't she be, I was surprise myself. I shook my head, "Never mind."

They were both looking at me and I couldn't help but look away. I could feel warmth on my face. What could it mean? I was puzzled by the emotions that surge through me. Was I getting sick or something?

We resumed walking back to Konoha.

I took a quick glance sideways and noticed she was calm and smiling. Naruto looked annoyed but the smile told me otherwise. I had to admit being with them is quite entertaining and I feel at peace. I'm not usually like this but I'm starting to like it.

Pakkun began to sniff the air and the ground.

"What's wrong Pakkun?" Sakura asked looking at the dog curiously.

"Don't tell me you have to twinkle or something," Naruto said crossing his arms behind his head.

"No you idiot. We aren't the only ones here. I can smell another presence."

We all stopped as we each glance at each other. Was it the enemy?

"I recognize this scent. It's Sasuke's!"

Sakura looked at Naruto who clenched his hands. I stood there quietly as they talked to each other.

"What should we do?" She asked.

"It's obvious. We're going to go after him."

"But Naruto what if…"

"No buts Sakura. This is our only chance."

"Alright let's go. I'll do everything in my power to help you." She declared.

"Thanks."

Naruto turned to me. "Sai I know we don't get along at all but please. I need you to help me bring Sasuke back home. I can't do it on my own," his eyes pleading for me to agree.

For some reason I didn't want to see Naruto or Sakura with that sad look on their face. I closed my eyes, "You don't have to ask me. We're a team aren't we?"

I opened my eyes as he gave me one of his brightest smiles I ever seen. He hooked his arms around my neck as if we were friends.

"That's right we're a team. You know Sai your not so bad after all, aside from being a complete ass 24/7."

I couldn't help but smiled at that. Sakura also smiled at us and said, "Sai please don't push us away."

I could feel my eyes soften. Were they offering me friendship? I read about it but experiencing it made me feel somewhat happy. I shouldn't feel this way. In root I was taught that emotions get in the way. The training I went through erased those feelings. However being with these two has slowly reawakened these lost emotions. I fear it but at the same time I welcome it.

I shook my head, "Let's not waste any more time."

They nodded as we speed off to find Sasuke.

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To be continued

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Sitebzen: Did you enjoy it? Did ya? Did ya? Did ya?

Sai: Remember to review.

Sasuke: You don't really have to. As long as you read this is fine. Don't trust her to update so soon since she takes months even years to do so.

Sitebzen: Hey it's not my fault! I…

Sasuke: Save your excuses. Do you think I really care?

Sitebzen: I guess not… (~watches Sasuke leave~)

Sai: I should be going too.

Sitebzen: Hey wait a minute. Why was Naruto chasing you earlier?

Sai: I sort of saw him naked when he came out of the river and he accused me of being a perverted stalker.

Sitebzen: O.o Were you?

Sai: (~blushes~) No! I was just passing by!

Naruto: Sai!

Sai: I have to go!

Naruto: Come back here! (~chasing after the ANBU artist~)

Sitebzen: Until next time! Have a wonderful day!