A/N: Song Fic! I'm very excited for this, ever since I listened to the song all I thought about was how it related to Asha and her abilities.
This is set just before the start of my story Whatever You Desire, so if u have not read that, I suggest that you go back and read it first because this song fic will not make much sense.
Disclaimer: I do not own the song "The Tower" by Vienna Teng- and neither does Asha- nor do I own the Dono ab Desire. All I own is Asha and Dria.
The Tower
Asha POV
It was a bad day. Compared to the constant battle for control of her new found abilities and the stress of the possibility of failing her Literature- 01 test, she would take the test any day.
She hated crowds, especially since the day her abilities appeared. Not that she was a fan of them before, but now, sensing the desires of all the people around her, it made her want to become a hermit. Power, lust, love, death, life, happiness, cruelty, these were the many things that she had to endure day to day. Listening and feeling what the people around her desired and wanted.
She took off her coat and placed it on the back of the couch while kicking her shoes every which way. Dria, her best friend and roommate, wouldn't mind. She herself had the odd bad day and left her belongings scattered across the rental.
She made her way to her room, rubbing her temples with her fingers, and grabbed for her guitar. Music she found great comfort in, the notes and harmonies that were created lulled her stressed mind and body. It was better then a spa, and much more fun for herself.
She didn't proclaim herself to be a musician, but the odd time she was known to create a song that summed up her emotions, allowing for the stress to float away with the musical notes.
She strummed a basic melody, and when she was satisfied, started to add the words.
The one who survives by making the lives
Of others worthwhile
She's coming apart
Right before my eyes
The desires of people weighed heavily on her, and it showed. No matter how much she tried to hide it, the people close to her, like Dria, knew differently.
The one who depends on the services she renders
To those who come knocking
She's seeing too clearly what she can't be
What understanding defies
It doesn't matter how much she fights it, if the person has said the words "I Desire" she has to grant it. All she wants is to be normal, to be free, like so many people in this world. But she knows she can't, she can never be normal, because of what she can do.
She says I need not to need
Or else a love with intuition
Someone who reaches out to my weakness
And won't let go
The words "I'm Fine" or "I'm okay" always escaped her mouth, because she can't need, she can't desire, because knows she can never have what she desires most. It was the way the Genie in the legend wanted it. He wanted to teach a lesson, because the person he loved most reached out to his weakness and used him.
I need not to need
I've always been the tower
But now I feel like I'm the flower trying to bloom in snow
She has always stood strong for others. Like her friend Dria, with a heartbreaking past and a list of mistakes, she needed to be her tower, someone she could depend on.
But for herself, her powers push down on her, threatening her life. She wanted to break free of the weight of the stress; to bloom.
She turns out the light
Anticipating night falling tenderly around her
Watches the dusk
The words won't come
She likes the night; it is the only time when it is her thoughts alone, when she is at peace. The beauty of the night leaves her speechless, the stars, the cool air, all wrap themselves around her. Protecting her, loving her.
Every other night she will sneak out her window and on to the roof, much to the dislike of Dria, and watch the dusk. I calms her; calms her powers.
She carries the act so convincingly
The fact is sometimes she believes it
She can be happy with the way things are
Be happy with the things she's done
She has granted many desires. Some good, while others are unbearably bad. Her powers have no limits, no rules to govern what a person can or can't have. She has granted desires that weigh so much upon her conscience that she knows that she could never be happy with what she has done. No matter how much Dria or anyone else tells her it is not her fault, she can never accept it. She can try to convince them, but she ends up trying to convince herself.
Reach out, hold back
Where is safety
Reach out and hold back
Where is the one who can change me
Where is the one
The one
She is constantly running, running from the people that want to use her. People who she thought were her friends; changed and molded to the people she was afraid of. Dria was the only one left, the only person who never used her. Although she knows that Dria wants certain things, and has to remind her that she won't give them, she is still a true friend. The one person who has dealt with her "episodes" and tries to help her fix them, by research or by calming gestures, she is always there.
I need not to need
Or else a love with intuition
Someone who reaches out to my weakness
And won't let go
I need not to need
I've always been the tower
But now I feel like I'm the flower trying to bloom in snow
She needs to stay strong, or else her powers will consume her. The Dono ab Desire is not all that she is, and she will never let it be. But it is hard when you're subjected to the desires of others, it is like a cage, and you are the slave.
I feel like I'm the flower trying to bloom in the snow
The danger and the power
The friend and the foe
"Bad day Asha?" Dria asked with her body slumped against the door frame.
"You could say that." She replied putting her guitar back on its stand.
A/N: Well there you have it! The first song fic for Asha and the first song fic that I have ever written! As soon as I heard this song I automatically thought of Asha and her powers. I hope you think of that too! And I kind of gave away Asha's powers just a little bit, but you don't know specifics, and I'm sorry for that, but you will figure them out later in the story!
I am currently working on chapter 4, and after that is up and posted, I will post Dria's song fic!
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