Slips & Regrets

Set after new moon. Hope you like! Oh and hi to my crazy girl-friends; Tiarne, Madi and Sarah! And hi to my weird lil sis Amelia xoxo!

BPOV-
I only have to survive one more day of high-school and then Carlisle will do what he gave his word on, and change me. I still haven't been able to sway Edward to do it him-self, I had even tried reasoning with him but all that happened in the end was him choosing me out a new sports car, but also agreeing to stay away while I burn. I know it will kill him to watch me wither in agony for three days, but it will be worth it in the end, when I can be with him for all of eternity.

I have to admit, I'm starting to freak out. I have never been any good with pain without complaining about it...ALOT. And it really doesn't help that it's going to be for THREE DAYS straight.

*the next day*

BEEP, BEEP, BEEP...
argh, great my alarm that means it's time to get up for school, oh well on the bright side I will be seeing Edward in just under an hour and all my 'end of year' exams are done. I slowly pulled my blanket back and as soon as I did, a gust of freezing cold wind ran over my skin, instantly making my skin break out in goose bumps, great.

I dressed quickly, throwing on a pair of dark wash denim jeans, a black 'V' cut top with splashes of white on it, and a designer hoddie that Alice had gotten me, as well as my favourite shoes in the whole wide world... my black and white all star converses. I ran down stairs and checked the kitchen clock, shit 8:05. I have five minutes until Edward is getting here take me to school. I sprinted to the cupboard and pulled out a granola bar and quickly chewed it down, followed by a glass of orange juice. I checked the clock again 8:11, oh god I hate being late when I have to meet up with Edward, but he never complains. He is so understanding and caring and loving, I will never understand him for choosing me, but I love him with all of my heart.

I ran over to my book bag that was lying in the corner and swung it up over my shoulder and headed for the door. I pulled it open and stepped out in to the freezing cold morning. I shut the door behind me, locking the dead-bolt and turned around to see a familiar shinny, silver Volvo parked in my drive way. I smiled at the gorgeous god like man, leaning against the passengers door, as soon as our eyes met he smiled his perfect crocked smile and with that me moved so fast I didn't even see him.

The next thing I know, he pulled me in to the safe cage of his arms and crushed me lightly to his chest. I leaned back to look up at his beautiful face, and he bent his head down to mine to press his cold lips to mine. And in that moment I forgot everything; where we were, where we were supposed to be and the most important fact of all...Edward was a vampire.

I opened my mouth slightly and my tongue swept out of my mouth and along his bottom lip, silently requesting access. He willingly opened his mouth and I slid my tongue inside. He tasted so sweet, and it was the best taste in the world. I heard a low rumble deep in his chest, I think reality must of just dawned on him, because he sighed, his fragrant breath washing my face and making me dizzy. And with that, he pulled away slowly and released me from his iron grip, he took a step back from me and held out his hand, I took it willingly as he towed me to his car.

He opened the door for me and I slid inside. It was nice and warm in here. Less than a second passed and he was sitting next to me putting his seat belt on. He put his car in to reverse and backed out of my old driveway and started speeding towards the school. I was finally getting used to the Cullen way of driving, but i always felt a little uneasy while travelling at 125miles and hour especially when it was Edward- he would always look at me and hold my hand on the seat.

We were almost at school when Edward finally spoke for the first time today, he looked over at me with an almost upset expression in his eyes and said;
"love, are you sure you want to do this tonight?"
i turned to look at him, and said "Edward I have made my choice and now i want to start living my life with you as soon as possible" i paused for a second "by the way good morning to you too".
At this he chuckled before continuing, he quickly looked at the road then back at me "I know Bella, it's just i feel so horrible knowing what you're going to be going through, and I won't even be there to help while you're..." he trailed off.

By now we were at school and I would soon have to leave him for classes, so I stared him in the eyes and spoke with much finalization in my voice as possible "Edward this is my choice, and I think it's better now than in a few weeks time," he looked like he was about to protest so I talked louder and faster to get my point across "besides Edward, even if you were there what are you going to do to help me?"

As I stared into his eyes I saw my victory and my cue to leave, so I leaned over to him and whispered into his ear, "I love you, have a good last day and I will see you a lunch" I kissed him on the cheek and opened the car door and got out.

Just as I was getting out I faintly heard the bell for first session ring, so I shut the car door and hurried off to my first class: English. My class with Alice.

I sprinted down the long corridor to my English home room, I stopped just outside the door and took a deep breath, - I was late and no doubt going to get told off in front of the whole class. Great.

I released my breath, opened the door and stepped inside. Everyone was staring at me and as usual, my blush started creeping up my neck and on to my cheeks. The teacher stopped talking to glared at me.

"Hurry up and take your seat NOW, Miss Swan or I will keep you in after class to do lines". Mr. Smith said to me in his best, 'if I could, I would kill you' voice.
I mumbled a quiet "yes sir" and took my seat next to Alice and a girl whose name I didn't know.

As the lesson continued, I day-dreamed about Edward and what it would be like living with him. It was ten minutes until class ended when Alice, who had been silent this whole lesson piped up. She turned to me and said;
"Bella, we are having a graduation party for you, me and Edward, at our house tonight and everyone is coming. So you have to come. And if you don't, I will go to your house, dress you up as Bella Barbie, and drag you back with me."

I was shocked to say the least. I could feel all the blood draining from my face, as I stared wide- eyed at the grinning Alice. For someone so small, she could be SO evil. She knows about my hatred of parties and she still went and organised one!

"Alice," I said already starting to hyperventilate "please no, you know...I can't...why" was all I managed before my chattering teeth bit my tongue, drawing blood.

I could tell that she had smelt my flowing blood and had stopped breathing. She sat motionless, staring at me with hungry eyes. While I stared at her with fear, shocked and pleading eyes.

She slowly got to her feet, and walked out of the classroom, totally ignoring Mr. Smith's calls for her to "sit back down this instant", and walked down the hall.

I instantly felt terrible, which was in a sad way, better then the horror of thinking about the forced party I would be going to tonight. I wondered if I got drunk enough if I would remember the party or not. I must remember to ask Edward.

I looked out the window just in time to see Alice sitting at our usual lunch table. She noticed me and smiled, to assure me that everything was fine. I smiled back with apology written all over my face. I looked back to the clock and it was time for second period break. Great, now I can sit and talk with the Cullen family and waste my second last human high school break.

I tuned back in to what the teacher was saying just in time for him to say, "It's been a pleasure teaching all of you students, and I know you will all go on and become great things. Class dismissed." He sounded tired and board, I'm pretty sure the school made him say that or else there is no way he would have said that to our class.

I giggled as I packed up all my belongings, put them in my book bag and headed for the door. As I walked out I noticed my gorgeous boyfriend/ Greek god, waiting for me.

I smiled up at him, as he took my shoulder bag and swung it over his shoulder, and took my hand and began towing me towards the lunch room. He turned to look at me and said;

"how was class my love?"

I smiled wider as he said this, I probably looked like an idiot right now, but while I was with Edward I simply didn't care. "it was ok, did you know about the graduation party tonight?" if he did he was dead.

By now we were in the lunch room. "well," he looked uncomfortable "I sort of knew," he must have seen my expression so he talked faster. "But I was not allowed to tell you or else Alice would have burnt me!"

I stopped dead where I was, stopping Edward too. "EDWARD CULLEN, YOU KNEW!?" I shrieked.

Every head in the cafeteria was pointing in our direction; Edward tried distracting me by pulling me closer and leaning down to try to kiss me. I pulled away, and stomped over to where the rest of the Cullen's were sitting. Emmett was shaking with laughter while the others were trying to hide their smiles behind their hands.

Everything was silent for a few seconds, and then I remembered my most important question at the moment. I turned to my right to see an upset Edward looking down at his lap. I decided if I wanted and answer I would have to make things right.

I got up and sat down on Edward's lap. He looked up and smiled me favourite crocked smile, with big puppy-dog eyes, pleading for forgiveness. I smiled and immediately he knew he was forgiven because his entire body relaxed.

I giggled to my-self and started asking my questions; "Edward, can vampires get drunk?"

Emmett answered me before Edward had the chance, "no, we can't, trust me I have tried SO many times it not funny." It was such a depressed voice; I had to laugh at him. ", and why so curious, lil' sis? You weren't thinking for drinking were you?" He asked in a mock horror voice.

"Well Emmett, a) I've never tried it before and I want to try it before I'm changed and b) if it will make me forget this party then it can't be a bad idea".

All the Cullens were laughing even Rosalie, all except Alice and Edward. Alice looked like she was about to kill me, while Edward looked shocked and deep in thought at the same time.

"Edward?" I asked as soon as everyone had stopped laughing.

"hmmmm?" he answered

"What are you thinking?" I asked.

"Well, if you're going to be drinking, I can't leave your side for the entire night" he said in a 'well durr' voice.

"And why is that?" I asked playing innocent.

"With your luck, you'll probably end up drinking too much, or getting taken advantage of, or-" I cut him off, by placing my hand over his mouth.

"Edward, I'm not THAT bad. Relax, if you don't want me to drink then I won't". I smiled up to him.

He smiled back and whispered in my ear, "no, that's one of my regrets from being human, never trying alcohol. You won't regret it; I'll stay with you the whole night and keep you from harm." He paused for a moment, and then smiled again "besides, I think it will be fun to watch you get drunk". I laughed with him. For the rest of break we all just joked around and talked, but all too soon it was time for class.

***

As school ended I found my-self being pulled towards the Volvo by a hyperactive Alice, and I sad looking Edward. I turned back to him and said; "why are you so sad?"

He smiled grimly at me before answering "Alice is taking you for the afternoon, she's going to be playing 'Barbie Bella' and I won't get to see you until the party."

My jaw just dropped before I squirmed out of Alice's hold on me and started to run in the opposite direction. I was free for about three seconds before I felt small, cold arms wrap around my waist and drag me back to the car. The whole time I was yelling for help, but no one would dare fight an angry pixie/ Alice.

***

For the rest of the afternoon Alice pulled and poked at me under the pretence of doing my "make-up". There is no way putting make-up on could be this painful. I sat as still as possible, to make it hurt less.

After about three hours of torture Alice finally told me i could open my eyes. My eyes snapped open, and i was amazed. As I stared at the unknown girl in the mirror, I noticed Alice was gone.

I spun around to see where she had gone, when she appeared right in front of me smiling hugely.

"Oh no, what is it?!, What have you done?!" I asked getting panicked more and more by the second. I knew something was wrong, and it involved me directly.

"Nothing's wrong, Bella." She said slowly "but it's time for you to get dressed now. I've put your cloths on the bed." And with that she left the room too fast for me to question her further.

"What ever" I mumbled to my-self, as I made my way over to her bed and saw the out-fit she had laid out for me, and I just about choked.

She had laid out a pair of black fishnets, extra shot black-mini skirt, a tight, low-cut black with red hem 'v' cut shirt and a pair of ruby red 4 inch heels. All topped off with a red choker.

"ALICE", I screamed, "get your butt up here NOW!" I think I'm going in to shock.

"What Bella?" Alice asked, appearing right in front of me, with her hands on her hips.

"There is NO WAY I'm wearing that!" I shouted at her.

"Jeez, what's wrong with it?" she asked again, playing innocent.

"Alice, I'll look like a total slut in those" I said pointing to the bed.

"no you won't" she said simply, sounding so sure of her-self.

"Yes I will Alice" I argued back, sounding like a five year old.

"You will put those cloths on RIGHT NOW, OR I WILL PUT THEM ON FOR YOU!" Alice yelled back at me. Oh no, she wasn't kidding.

"Fine Alice, I'll wear your out-fit, BUT you have to wear one too." I said

"Fine" with that she was gone again, and back in a second in an outfit the exact same as the one I was supposed to wear. "Happy?" she asked, proud of her-self for getting me to wear this.

"Not really" I replied, starting to get changed, I sighed deeply and said "This is going to be a LONG night".

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