Taboo

Chapter One - The Test

The cold wall behind me felt like it was making my head flat as I rested against it. My eyes were closed as water began to form in them, and drip down my cheeks. A light thump sound was heard as the test slipped through my fingers and landed on the wooden floor.

How had this happened? Well, how it happened was obvious. But… Why? Why me of all people? Why didn't the injection the clinic gave me a month ago work?

My head began to spin as I let my body drop to the bed and I buried my face in my pillow. I felt dead as my body went almost limp, yet it still began to shake. Groans escaped my lips as H20 seeped through the pillow.

"Temari? What's wrong?" I jolted up as I saw my brother standing beside me. He found me like this only a few weeks ago, he must be thinking I'm a cry baby right about now. I remained silent and continued to sob. He wrapped his arms around my shoulders and back, in an attempt to calm me down. When the groans were simply a hiss, he pulled back and looked directly into my eyes. "Tell me, what's wrong?"

My breathing turned rapid again and I attempted to wipe way the wetness pouring out of my nose. He pulled me back into his arms and I buried my nose into his shoulder. Then, I think he saw it. He let me go for a moment to pick up the test, before catching me again.

"Are you pregnant?" He flatly asked.

I said nothing and collapsed backwards onto the bed. Kankuro just sat there in a daze; shocked, I thought, I couldn't exactly blame him.

"Wh-Which one?" He finally spoke.

"I don't know" I managed between sobs. "It wasn't meant to happen, I shouldn't have happened."

He looked at me with sympathetic eyes. Gently he put a hand on my shoulder. "What about an abort-"

"No!" I quickly pulled away from him. "Do you know how they abort babies? I'm not letting them rip mine up!"

"Temari…" He pulled me back into a warm embrace. I began to shake again; more violently this time. "It's ok…"

When I had finally calmed down completely, I stood and got a tissue to blow my nose and dry my eyes.

"Are you gonna tell Gaara?" He asked as I sat back on the bed beside him.

"We shouldn't keep it from him." I replied.

"I'll tell him." He stood and made his way to the door. "You get some rest." He said just before he disappeared.

I sighed before I lent bent and stared at the ceiling. I could just imagine the look on my other brothers' face when Kankuro told him. To think, he was probably doing that right now.

xXxXx Flashback xXxXx

I was lying on my bed; tears streaming down my cheeks. I didn't know why I was crying so much, it wasn't that much of a big deal.

"Temari, what's the matter?" I looked up to see Kankuro standing above me. I said nothing in reply and willed myself to stop crying. I rolled onto my stomach and rested my chin on my forearms.

"Shikamaru… he…" Was all I sobbed out.

"What? Did he hurt you?!" He automatically assumed. "Because if he did I'll-" He sounded like he was ready to kill.

"No" I replied "Nothing-… like that" He sighed in relief and sat down next to me; resting his hand on my shoulder. Groans became soft whimpers, soft whimpers became an almost silent hiss, an almost silent hiss became quiet breathing.

"I don't know what came over me" I said once I was completely calm. "He only broke up with me." I heard Kankuro sigh.

"You made me think he beat you up or something"

I chuckled a bit "You must think I'm a weakling"

"Or course not" He rubbed my back. I felt the bed dip in as he crawled beside me and lay down. We sat in silence for a moment before another voice broke it.

"Are you two gonna lie there all day?" We both look over to see Gaara in the door way. He said nothing as he walked over to us and sat on the edge of the bed.

I wasn't as hysterical as before, but I still felt upset. I had liked Shikamaru ever since the chunin exams. He would always be my escort when I visited the leaf on business.

And then one night, the day before I was about to leave the village, I found out it was his birthday and a few of his friends were celebrating it. After much drinking and partying, we went back to his apartment. I lost my virginity that night, and so did he. That morning we admitted we like each other and decided to go out. Our relationship lasted a year. Three days ago I was in the leaf village once more. He told me that we should break up because we didn't live in the same village and he hated the constant travelling I had to do in order to see him. And that the only time I could see him was when I was on business. And that was only for a few days at a time. I made it al the way back to the village without a single tear, but as soon as I walked into my bedroom door; I collapse on my bed and let it all out.

I had grown to love that boy, and he broke up with me just like that. I knew the relationship wouldn't last for ever, and that it was probably for the best, but even so, I still loved him.

"Shikamaru broke up with her" Kankuro put it strait forward.

"I see" Gaara simply replied.

"Well you're a great help" I muffled against the pillow. I looked up to see Kankuro smirk slightly. I rolled my eyes at him.

"Temari, you're our sister. We'll always be here for you, no matter what." He said moving closer to me and wrapping an arm around my waist. Gaara did the same thing as he leaned over and lay beside me. He never did utter many words, instead relying on his body language. I found it to be quite reassuring and a smile grazed my lips.

"Kankuro, I'm glad to have you as a brother" I leaned up and gave him a quick peck on the lips; it was meant to land on his cheek but I just shrugged it off.

"You too Gaara" I said as I leaned the other way and gave him the same kiss.

"Sometimes I can get so depressed by the way the village treats us, there cold stares as they turn there backs to us. I feel like a complete ass when I think about our childhood, how they treated you Gaara. I should have been there for you. I know it's too late to change that, I just wish I could cheer you two up the same as how you're always able to cheer me up."

"Were all here now" Kankuro said.

"Temari" I looked over to Gaara who was staring at me. He moved closer till our lips brushed in a light kiss. "The past doesn't matter"

"He's right" I turned back to Kankuro. "The past is in the past, let's live in the present and forget it" He brushed his lips over mine as well, just like Gaara. Only he deepened it. I felt Gaara push himself closer and begin to trace light kisses over my neck.

"You two are ok with this?" I said as I looked from Gaara to Kankuro back to Gaara.

"We've discussed it before" Gaara replied after a pause.

"The three of us have always been fucked" Kankuro commented "I don't see how this changes it."

"I guess you're right" I simply replied. Incest was a crime, but right now I just couldn't care less. The world hated and rejected us, why should I care what it thinks?

Kankuros hand traveled down my back and lightly caressed my but. I lend up and kissed him once more; my tongue tracing over his lips asking them to open. I let out a slight moan as he complied. Gaaras hand traveled up under my top and made circles on the skin there. I whimpered as Kankuro broke off to roll me onto my back. I lifted my arms above me as they pulled the garment over my head and discarded it on the floor. I let out another moan as his mouth found a button on my mound. Gaara sealed it with a hot hiss; his tongue rolling over mine as it swallowed all the sounds I let out.

xXxXx End of Flashback xXxXx

"Temari" I herd a voice bring me out of my thoughts. I looked up to see Gaara leaning over my bed and staring at me.

"I take it he told you" I said as I sat up. He nodded. "I'm definitely not getting an abortion, I'm having this baby."

"If you do, what will we tell the village?" Kankuro pointed out.

"Nothing" I replied "Go on living like it's nothing unusual. They don't need to know."

"What if the kid comes out retarded or something?" Of course Kankuro would say something like that. "I mean, won't its DNA clash or something."

"I don't know" I replied. "Let's not think about that right now."

"You could tell them it's Shikamarus" Said Gaara as he sat quietly at the window; staring out into the streets "After all the two of you practically just broke up. The reason why we ended up having sex was because you were upset."

"That's not a bad idea" Kankuro stated.

"No, that's cruel" I fought back "What if Shikamaru heard?"

"What other options do we have?" Kankuro commented.

I sighed and shook my head "I don't' know. Well think of something."

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