Why Matt Smokes
January 19th
I asked why he smoked those bad bad things
But he only laughed and blew smoke rings.
I never really go an answer
Cause we both knew that they bring cancer.
January 20th
Matt is mad because once again I asked
I wonder how long this addiction will last.
Matt says he's sad, that's all there is
But he keeps puffing on those bad things of his.
January 23rd
Matt is crying and I don't know why
He said he was ok but I knew that was a lie.
I don't think I can write for a few days
Lately Matt has been in a strange daze.
January 29th
Today I gave Matt's hand a kiss
'Cause I found out he cut his wrist.
He says the cuts don't hurt or matter
But I was there to see him make his own blood splatter.
February 9th
Matt started cutting his wrist again
He saw my notes and broke all my pens.
He said I shouldn't write like this
About he smokes his life away and cuts his wrists.
February 11th
Today Matt and I went to the doctors office
The Doctor told him to stay away from the bad things of his.
But when Matt got home he smoked again
That's why I went out and got new pens.
February 12th
Matt threw me on the floor last night
He was mad 'cause we were in a fight.
'Cause I threw all his bad things away
But he went and got more anyway.
March 2nd
Matt tried to kill himself last week
He tried it right in front of me.
He cried on the ground when it didn't work
And when I tried to help he said I was a jerk.
March 3rd
Today he said that he was mad
And all this was because what I did was bad.
Now I know why Matt is sad
Matt is sad 'cause murder's bad.
March 5th
Matt told me why he smoked this week
He said it was never 'cause of me.
Matty smokes because he's sad
And Cause wammys house just made him mad
He smokes because though he knows it's bad
It reminds him of his mom and dad.
They were murdered years ago
And all I can say to that is so,
Now I know why Matty jokes
About dying every time he smoke.
Matty always looks up above
And I know he only smokes out of love.