DO YOU BELIEVE IT? Chapter 1, a glee fanfic

"DO YOU BELIEVE IN?"

Chapter 1: Sam the Unicorn!

Everyone's at Breadstix. It's right after Will and Emma's wedding, after the win at Regionals. Everyone is happy, they dance, they sing. It's like they want to make this night last forever. New Direction kids sing and dance all the time. Santana, Kurt and Mercedes are sitting on a table and talking and laughing. Somewhere to the back, Brittany is sitting alone with a bittersweet smile on her face, watching everyone, watching Santana. Suddenly she felt someone touching her. It is Sam. He hugged her and sat beside her. Brittany felt a warm feeling inside her.

Sam: Hey! (He smiled at her!)

Brittany: Hi! (She was very serious.)

Sam: Are you mad at me? You seem mad.

Brittany: Why would I be?

Sam: Because… I brought Santana back…? But I thought… You know… she's Santana… she must be the only one who could you help you.

Brittany: And did she?

Sam: Yeah I mean… you've found your way back.

Brittany: Way back, Sam. (She smiled at him)

Sam: What do you mean? (He was confused)

Brittany: (She took a deep breath.) Let's have the talk you wouldn't expect us to have. The talk you wouldn't expect me to have. I'm not stupid Sam. (Sam tried to stop her.) Please let me finish. And I'm not saying that because of MIT. Things were strange for me growing up. I used to think that thinking kept me away from people or things. And I stopped… I continued my childhood, and I had fun… so much fun. And I didn't care about school. I could love people to the core of my soul and have fun and I was okay. That's why I didn't tolerate people call me stupid. Cause I wasn't. I was just me… truthful to myself. And I was naïve and simple and you know… "Easy". Then she came in to my life and stepped all over it. And I liked it. I followed her like a puppy everywhere. She was my best friend. She didn't judge me, she wasn't mean to me, and she could feel me somehow. You know that about her, don't you?

Sam: Yeah… (He was feeling so sad suddenly)

Brittany: (Small tears starting to form in her eyes. But she was smiling) I loved her more than anyone else. I would put myself on fire for her. And I knew how good, how genuinely good, was inside her. But she wasn't ready to admit her feelings. Not her love but the fact that there was a person in her life who could bring her on her knees, that could make her cry, could make her soft. She couldn't let that out. I didn't care. I was okay. You see? I could be okay with everything people gave me. (She paused for a minute. She looked Santana who now was laughing really loud.) She hurt me many times these years. She did hurt me a lot. But that was okay again. However I reached a point. I wanted her to give me the place beside her that was rightfully mine. And she found the strength and did it. And do you know something, Sam? That was when I realized how much I've lost by not thinking. Because when you think of things you get to enjoy the true meaning of them. Being her girlfriend, her partner was the best time of my life so far. (She was crying a lot. Santana saw her. She was nervous but she didn't do anything.)

Sam: Hey… don't cry… please.

Brittany: It's okay. I want to tell you these things. Not because you were my boyfriend and I broke up with you, but because you are my friend. My best friend right now…

Sam: Hey… I'm not your best friend. She is.

Brittany: Is she? She has forgotten that. You are my best friend right now… and what did you say to me that day, remember? (She sang to him.) "Saying I love you, is not the words I want to hear from you , it's not that I want you, not to say, but if you only knew , how easy it would be to show me how you feel… "

Sam: Yeah I remember… (He smiled to her.)

Brittany: I broke your heart that day, didn't I?

Sam: Kind of…

Brittany: You know? I didn't. And I'll prove it to you. I want to show you that you and I are smart people and we know it. And we understand each other. And that you didn't have to bring Santana back to reach me. You could do it. Bringing her back was the easy way to do it, because I can never hide from her anything that's inside me. And I can't help myself of wanting her to be part of my life. But this time, it was the first time of my life that I wanted her out. Because I knew how screwed I'd be after that. And I am, Sam. I am devastated. I am broken.

Sam: Why? She loves you. She came back the minute I called her. She cares about you.

Brittany: She does but… in her mind I'm holding her back. (She was looking Santana again and Santana was looking at her. She could feel that something was going on but somehow she couldn't make a move.)

Sam: Don't say that.

Brittany: No, it is true. She's right. I did hold her back. She had to make the next step and find her way and I was stuck here, in high school, doing something that was supposed to be over for me. But as I said to you I was naïve. I thought "hey, she'll do her thing, I'll do mine. We love each other, we'll overcome it". But love is not enough, Sam. Not for everyone at least. Santana is a powerful woman, very energetic. I wasn't the right one for her. I was simple and good and she could be real with me and she loved me but that isn't something that can make someone like her complete. A woman like Santana wants more… and deserves more. (She paused. She was out of breath.)And I gave her more. The only way I could. I gave her the truth and the freedom to do it. She wanted to go to NY from sophomore year. I held her back. She would have left after her graduation but she didn't want to feel that someone is left behind. She wanted to leave our relationship but she wasn't strong enough to do it. And you remember how I was those days, don't you? I was torn apart from her absence. I couldn't think of her needs. So she used my pain to find her way out from us. I'm not mad at her for that. She did it right. But I lost my world. And then I made my decision.

Sam: Which decision? But she came back. You know… I had a talk with her when…

Brittany: (She stopped him.) I know, Sam. I know everything. I always know. But she didn't come back for me. She was lost. She had lost her way. She came back TO me… like she used to, to hug her and rock her and show her what is right for her. She couldn't realize that.

Sam: No, the way she sang…She was so in love with you… So in love that she scared me, I mean… she did won.

Brittany: I know Sam. I know she loves me. (She paused) But for Santana it is important to be someone special in a different way that you and I understand it. And her high school love wasn't cool for her anymore. I couldn't let her hide under my skirt. Afraid, lonely, full of anger again. I couldn't have her here watching her hate me more every day for her broken dreams. If she couldn't wait for me, she didn't have a place beside me. And I hugged her, and I showed her the truth, I sent her free to NY. I sent her way from me once again. And I think I did it right. She is happy there. She has started to find her way. But… (She cried again. Santana made a move to go to her. Brittany waved her not to do it. Santana sat again looking sad.) I wanted to die… I want to die every minute since she broke up with me. That's how much I love her, Sam. I set her free. And I stayed here hating every corner of this school, every hour of my life, every place in this town, because all of that have something from me and her but I didn't have her. And let's face it. She loved me but she couldn't take me with her. (She took a deep breath and smiled.)However I was lucky enough to have you. You took care of me. You eased the pain, the loneliness.

Sam: I am in love with you.

Brittany: No, Sam, you are not. And I am not with you, but you know that, don't you?

Sam: I am, Brittany.

Brittany: No, you love me but you are not in love with me. Do you know the difference?

Sam: I guess…

Brittany: You don't. Falling in love is a wild feeling, a fierce one. It leaves you with no breath, no other choice but to ache to be with that person. And when you are with them then everything find their way. And you feel like you… belong. Have you ever felt that? That you belong?

Sam: I don't know.

Brittany: Well I did. I, the girl who slept with so many people, who gave in mindless sex... I have felt it. And though it's been a while I can't get over it. I guess I need more time. But I also need a new life.

Sam: What do you mean?

Brittany: I can't be in Lima anymore, in high school, in our choir room which I love so much. Everything screams her name. My life here is connected with her. And
I thought that it would be easy to make new memories, new friendships, especially before our break up. But it is impossible. I have to start a new life away from her. If I do that, I think I'll be able to forget her. And MIT is my door to that.

Sam: That's why you are going there?

Brittany: Of course. Why did you think? That I want to be a mathematic genius? I am not like that and I know it. I really don't care about that. I'll go find a dance class and I'll dance all day until I am cleansed. I don't know what they saw in me, and what is all that stuff about codes, but these people treated me there with so much respect, so much admiration that it made me feel good. After all this time I was feeling so good. And I can't let that go, you know, I need it. Do you understand?

Sam: Yeah…

Brittany: (She smiled and took his hands.) Babe, you and I are not like Puck. No ex partners or friends are going to fight for us not to be left behind, to graduate. We must make it by our own. And we can. You can. You have to believe it. I mean… You sent Mercedes to LA. I sent Santana to Kentucky AND to New York. We are perfectly capable to do that for ourselves. I'll be with you from everywhere I am. I'm not letting you give up like you didn't let me. Hey! I'm willing to do Britney week on you if I have to. I want you to take time for yourself, to think what really makes you happy and fight for that.

Sam: What makes you happy?

Brittany: Mmmm right now? The sense of freedom I am going to pursue.

Sam: What about Santana?

Brittany: What about her? She'll go to NY. Come on, do you have your guitar?

Sam: Yes!

Brittany: Come on; play me that song of ours. I promise I'm going to sing it for you now!

Sam: Okay!

They make their way to the stage. People are cheering for them. Sam speaks to the microphone.

Sam: People! I dedicate this song to my best friend Brittany and I wish her to find true happiness.

Brittany: Love you, babe!

Santana is looking at them. Her face is deadly serious. She feels so confused and hates that feeling. They start to sing.

Sam & Brittany: "More Than Words"

Saying I love you
Is not the words I want to hear from you
It's not that I want you
Not to say, but if you only knew
How easy it would be to show me how you feel
More than words is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know

What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I love you

More than words

Now I've tried to talk to you and make you understand
All you have to do is close your eyes
And just reach out your hands and touch me
Hold me close don't ever let me go
More than words is all I ever needed you to show
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know

More than words