24th of October:
Afternoon:
I've met a wonderful guy. I've never seen him before but it felt like I had known him for a lifetime. He didn't want to tell me his real name though, but you know what? I didn't care. I never believed in love and I'm not sure how it feels like, but whenever I looked at his face it is as though flowers are growing in every part of myself and that scares me. But at the same time it's so fascinating that I'm losing every sense of rationality.
He gave me his number.
I don't want to call and sound clingy.
I already miss him.
Fuck it, I'm gonna text him.
Evening:
He hasn't texted back yet. I don't know whether to call or not. Bet he's just busy. I'm going to sleep now.
Night:
I can't sleep, my mind is bewildered.
25th of October:
Morning:
Good fucking morning! Guess who just got a call? Have to get ready now, I've got a date in two hours!
Evening:
I'm not gonna bother you with the details but I had the most beautiful day. You know I don't believe in soulmates but if I did, mine would be a lot like him, it's crazy that we didn't even know each other until yesterday.
26th of October:
Noon:
We only met up yesterday but I'll text him anyway.
He's going to pick me up at 2.
Evening:
I'm going to have a muscle ache for days because I've been laughing so hard.
27th of October:
Morning:
He has to work today. I'm not gonna be sad, I can't be, he's not mine after all.
Noon:
He called during his break, apologized for not having time, I love that he cares.
Evening:
He asked me to come over.
I'm nervous.
I bet I'm going to embarrass myself.
Praying that I don't fuck up.
28th of October:
Morning:
Just woke up next to him.
I didn't fuck up.
Noon:
He drove me home but I didn't want to go inside. We sat on the porch for three hours and talked and laughed.
I still don't know his name.
Evening:
We kissed.
Night:
I can't sleep but I don't care, I'm SO happy!
29th of October:
Evening:
Do I really have to tell you what I did today? Must be boring for you, isn't to me.
Noon:
I'm going to fall for him, hard, I can feel it.
30th of October:
Morning:
Who am I trying to fool, I'm already head over heels in love for him.
Afternoon:
We went to see a movie, I don't remember most of it because I was so busy being comfortable around him.
31th of October:
Morning:
We spent the night at his placed again, talking most of the time. I still don't know his name, but he told me he works at some kind of army. I'm worried.
He also told me he only had a sister, didn't say what happened to the rest of his family but that topic seemed to upset him so I didn't ask.
Afternoon:
Lately we talk a lot, I think that's good.
Night:
I miss his body next to me.
1st of November:
Noon:
We had lunch together, he held my hand. To be honest, I don't even know what we are.
Evening:
I couldn't ignore the lurking doubt so I called him and asked. He said to come over.
2nd of November:
Morning:
We're a couple.
Noon:
I just want to lie in his arms forever.
Night:
With him again, I can't imagine being alone ever again. I think I love him.
3rd of November:
Morning:
I definitely love him.
4th of November:
Afternoon:
He called saying he needed to leave for a while because of work.
I'm worried.
5th of November:
Noon:
He hasn't called yet.
6th of November:
Evening:
I bet he's just busy.
7th of November:
Afternoon:
He needs to be busy, there is no other explanation.
9th of November:
Morning:
He still hasn't called.
12th of November:
Night:
He wasn't busy.
24th of November:
Afternoon:
I met a wonderful guy. He never wanted to tell me his name, he said I'd be better of this way. I asked him again and again but he never replied. Today I finally found out. His name was Pietro. How I know? It is engraved in stone at his new home.
Evening:
I'm just glad he finally gets to meet his family.
27th of November:
Evening:
I miss him.
Night:
I can't do this anymore.