Hey guys, I haven't read the books in a while so it may be a little out of order but this takes place when Rose, Dimitri and Lissa get back to court.

Chapter

I could see it. I could see the way they looked at each other, they way they moved.I watched them today, I got to the prison and Lissa was already inside with Dimitri,there wasn't anything really were just facing each other, her hands held his.

In that moment I knew, I knew that I had lost him. God did it hurt, I had risked everything and in the end I just lost him. I couldn't even be that angry because I know better than anyone else, you can't change a bond. He already told me he didn't love me. I should have taken his word for it.

The tears wouldn't stop falling, the pain was indescribable, even worse than how I felt when I lost him the first him.

"Little Dhampire?" I heard Adrian's voice from behind me. With everything going on since I got home, we hadn't had time to talk about us yet. I had no idea where to start.

"Rose." I didn't turn around so he ran up so he was in front of me, and could see my face. "what's wrong." He looked at me with so much concern it made me cry harder. I realized I would be losing him too. How do you tell a man that you are heartbroken because you lost your chance with another man?

"I can't tell you Adrian."I looked down afraid to meet his gaze. " You can tell me anything." He cupped my chin forcing me too meet his gaze. I looked at him for a moment, sucked in a deep breath and told him what I had seen and why exactly it had upset me.

"Did anything happen?" He looked at me, he wasn't showing no real emotions on his face."Besides him feeding on me when he was a strogoi, no." I wiped away the wet tears on my cheek, I had calmed down a little now.

"I'm sorry."He surprised me by pulling me into his arms and hugging me tightly. I clung to him. I felt so horrible crying to him about another man.

"Come on."After a moment of standing there with my face burried in his chest, he pulled away and wrapped his ar, around my shoulders and led me to his apartment.

" Adrian you don't have to do all this for me." I told him as we stepped inside. " Rose, I care about you and I'm not going to leave you alone while you are hurting like this." He shrugged.

So nonchalant about it. I couldn't say I would be as good of a person as him if the roles were switched.

But that is just the kind of man that Adrian Ivashkov is. You can pick something you want to sleep in." He gestured to his dresser and then walked into his bathroom. It was late and I didn't want to be alone at the moment, so I changed into Something comfortable and got in bed.

I made myself comfortable while he was in the bathroom. I had stopped crying by now, it hurt like a bitch. Like someone reached in my chest and was squeezing my heart.

" I am really sorry I am so selfish Adrian." I said when he came out and got into bed.

" Stop saying that Rose." He sounded agitated with me. "I get Dimitiri was your first love and you did, and went through a lot of shit for him. You deserve a good cry." He looked at me, his eyes never waivered from mine.

"Thank you." I leaned forward and hugged him, when I pullled away I caught his gaze again. He looked at me with such love, I leaned forward and kissed him. It started as sweet but grew in intensity.

"Little dhmapire."He breathed heavily pulling away from me." I love you, you already know that." He looked me over. " let's just take it slow for now, you need time to figure out your feelings for Belikova, and whatever is going on." He smiled at me. "Then we can pick up where we left off." I nodded and he kissed my forehead.