"I DON'T WANT TO LIVE ANYMORE" I screamed putting the knife to my chest right under my rib cag

"Gome please put down the knife" My adopted mother pleaded

"NO! Don't you get it? This is all my fault everything bad that has ever happened in my life has been my fault. From my family's death to your husband's death! I JUST CAN'T DO THIS ANYMORE"

"Please stop I don't want to lose you too" Tears coming to her eyes

"Why not? I've done nothing but hurt you guys since the day I got here. Your husband died because I wanted to go to a competition. He died because I won! It shouldve been me. He didn't have to die because of me. Why would you still want me around? My family is dead! My friend may never talk again! My other friends dead because I was hanging out with her! Your husband saved me and now he's dead too! I can't do this anymore!"

"I don't blame you for his death! I don't blame you for any of that."

"But everyone else does. I can't go outside these walls without being called a killer a MURDERER! Cause that's all that i am. Every time i get close to someone they die! Now it's my turn!"

"Gome please I don't want to lose you I love you like you're my own daughter!"

"Your 'daughter' is the reason your son won't have a father"...

"But he'll have a big sister"

"That he'll hate when he learns how his dad really died"

"He died in an accident"

"Yeah caused by me"

"Caused by an angry man who couldn't accept defeat"

But I didn't want to hear that. I couldn't. I knew it was all my fault just like everything else life has thrown at me. At 11 years old I was ready to die. In all truth I was ready at 5, when the rest of my family was murdered but I was to scared to do anything.

"Gome please put down the knife"

"Mrs. Higurashi um mom, I appreciate everything that you and your husband did for me but I can't continue to hurt the people I love and care about… I'm sorry" Those were the last words I spoke before plunging the knife in my chest. Pain erupted from the wound and I could faintly hear my adopted mom scream and saw her rush towards me as much her pregnant stomach would allow before fading into darkness and hitting the floor.