Ok so this takes place in the meadow during their 1st visit

Ok so this takes place in the meadow during their 1st visit. This is my perspective. This is also what might have happened if Bella was less reasonable, I guess. I think that if this was anyone other than Edward Cullen she might have said this. Disclaimer: I don't own my angel or my angel's angel (Edward and Bella) no suing me please.

BPOV

"I should have left long ago," he sighed. "I should leave now. But I don't know if I can."

"I don't want you to leave," I mumbled pathetically, staring down again.

"Which is exactly why I should. But don't worry. I'm an essentially selfish creature. I crave your company too much to do what I should."

"I'm glad."

"Don't be!" His voice was harsher than usual.

(A/N: this is where I stop quoting Edward and Bella and start MY story.)

I understand that he doesn't want me to like him for my own good but if I am going to like him anyways I would really appreciate it if he was a bit more understanding.

"Ugh! This isn't right!" He said in a voice that was torn between pain and anger.

"What?" I asked.

"You with me. But, please, you have to understand. I cherish your presence. I think everything about you is utterly marvelous. And as much as I would like to think that's alright, it's not." He looked as if he were in pain. It broke my heart to see him look like that.

" It's okay. If you are worried that this is not right for me then, well, that's probably true. But I trust you. I know you wouldn't hurt me." I tried to conceal the pain in my voice but I failed miserably.

"See!? This is what I mean. You shouldn't trust me. I don't understand how you can trust me. You, dear Bella, deserve more than me. Some one better…" His voice trailed off as he wandered into thought.

"Edward, you are what every girl wants. How I even ended up deserving you, well, I probably don't deserve but I'm not going to complain." I said trying to lighten the mood.

"Ugh. You're doing it again." He complained in an annoyed voice.

That is it! This is getting on my nerves! How come he is allowed to come right out and say things referring to my death and tell me that he loves me, and when I try to tell him that I share the same feelings for him he gets really mad at me!?

"Do you find anything wrong with this conversation?" I asked calmly but sternly.

"Yes I do. We shouldn't even be having it." He replied just as calmly but more sternly. It almost made me feel the need to dismiss the discussion I was trying to have. But I didn't.

"You see, I find this conversation wrong for a different reason." I said with an unintentional edge in my voice.

"And what would your reason be?" He asked a bit annoyed. I figured it was because he couldn't read my thoughts.

"Because, Edward, you are allowed to come out and say things referring to my death," he cringed and winced when I said that but I continued," and tell me that you like me with out me throwing a fit, but when I even hint at returning your feelings, it becomes all wrong and terrible!" My frustration was evident in my voice. I could tell he was torn between disappointment and sadness. I started to feel bad for him. I could have been a little nicer after all he was only doing this for my own safety.

"I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said that. It's not your fault, you're just trying to keep me safe but I can tell I am making this a lot harder for you. Really, I am sorry. I don't know what came over me." I apologized with every ounce of sincerity I had.

"You were right, though." He said softly, "I do tend to overreact when you say things like that. It is not your fault. I should be the one apologizing for behaving so rudely to your comments. I will behave myself better from now on…. And I honestly appreciate it when you say things like that but it pulls me in deeper and I know it would make it harder to leave if I had to. But, truly, I really am happy that you feel the same way."

So when I tell him I like him that makes it less likely to make him go? Wow, I should tell him just how much I like him… BELLA! What are you thinking!? You can obviously tell this is a huge dilemma for him already you don't need to go and make things harder and more complicated than they need to be. Wait, he also said he liked it when I said things like that...

"I am sorry for making things harder." I said again.

"Its ok as long as I'm forgiven" He said with a smirk on his face.

"Is it possible not to forgive you?" I joked. I was just glad that the mood has been lightened.

AN: Sorry for the sortness if u dont like it then tell me. I might leave it a oneshot depending on how many reviews i get.