Warning: This story has a homosexual incestuous relationship and sexual content between two women. If you find this offensive or do not like it please do not read.

Rating: K

Summary: Sara loves Tegan but only she knows this. Tegan loves Sara but tries not to. This story is set when Tegan and Sara are quite young and will show the struggles of their relationship as they grow up. This fic will be around 12 chapters (The first one is quite short) and I'll try to update as often as I can.

A/N: So this is my first fic..Ever. I hope you enjoy it and if you do I'm hoping to write sequels. The way I plan to do this is by giving each story an album name and the chapters are named after the songs in that album. This fic is "Under Feet Like Ours." Reviews and any criticism/feedback are always appreciated :)

Chapter 1 - Divided

Sara's POV

I always loved Tegan. I had to, didn't I? We were twins. We were basically the same person. The only thing is, is that I love her more than a sister. I don't think it's wrong but deep down, I know it is. It started when we were born I guess. She was dying and even then I couldn't bear to lose her. Time passed and I grew to love her even more. The summer we were five, we kissed. Tegan laughed and said 'You're silly Sasa' and she kissed me again. That was it for me. I fell deeply in love with her from that moment on.

We're now fourteen. I still love her. She doesn't have time for me now though. She's going through a moody stage and she refuses to talk to me. I guess it's because I'm so clingy and I still follow her around like a lost puppy even though she makes it clear she doesn't want me around.

Tegan's POV

I never really let myself love Sara. I thought it was sick. Twisted. I've loved her ever since I can remember but the summer we were five, Sara kissed me. I was over the moon but I laughed and told her she was silly. Then I kissed her again and I've loved her unconditionally since.

We're now fourteen. I act like I hate Sara and that kills me. I ignore her all the time hoping the love I have for her will go away but it's impossible. She follows me everywhere. She even hangs around with my friends and goes to parties with me even though I know she hates it. I can see it in her eyes. The deep fear and anxiety she shows when I get too drunk or high.

Sara's POV

I waited until I heard her key in the door, the lock clicking shut and her feet pounding up the stairs. I was angry at her for not waking me to go with her. I have to be with her even though I hate parties. I'm always afraid something will go wrong if I'm not there. I couldn't bear to lose her.

"Tee?" I called out for her but there was no reply. I edged my way out of bed and crept to the door. I went to grab the handle only for it being shoved open by Tegan and knocking me over. I fell to the floor with a loud thump. "Sara! Shit Sasa are you okay?" I gazed at her and smiled sheepishly because it's the first time she's paid any attention to me this week. I groaned and reached for her hoping she would pick me up. She turned and shut the door, kicking off her shoes and shrugging of her jacket. She bent down and looked at me with sadness. "I'm so sorry Sasa. Did you hurt yourself?" She picked me up and cradled me in her arms, stroking my hair. "I'm fine Tee, honestly. I just bumped my head. I'll be okay, you can leave, go to your room." I don't want her to go. Not really. I would have happily lain in her arms on the floor.

Tegan's POV

"Do you honestly think I would leave you?" I asked her with shock. She looked at me, playing with my hair. "I don't know. Maybe. You never have time for me anymore." She looked away as a tear fell from her eye and I felt my heart stop. "Sara, look at me, I would never leave you. Ever. I love you, so much you can't even begin to understand." She stopped playing with my hair and sat up straight. "What? What do you mean you love me? You love me as a sister? I mean, obviously. Of course you do. You couldn't love me in another way. I, I love you as a sister too. I mean. You're my twin."

Sara's POV

I was babbling. I finally stopped and looked at Tegan. "You're impossibly cute, Sasa" she smiled at me. "Thanks Teetee" I grinned at her, my smile so wide my gums were showing. "How's you head? Feeling okay?" she asked, stroking my hair. "I'm perfectly fine. Stop worrying" I laughed at her playfully. "Um.. Tegan?" I knew I was being very daring but I hoped she would say yes. "Yes?" "Will you, I mean, Can you maybe sleep in here tonight? Please?" I was afraid to look at her so I kept my eyes on the floor. She turned my face towards her and smiled at me.

Tegan's POV

I thought about my answer. I want her to be happy but I still have my doubts. "Of course I will" I leaned into her and rested my forehead on hers. "I'd love nothing more." The look on her face was enough to make me burst with happiness and I knew I made the right decision.