Chapter 1

"I can't do this anymore"

"Blair…wait!"

"No Chuck I gave you every chance I could but I'm just … exhausted! You've pushed me away every time I tried to help you."

"Oh come on, Waldorf you know this isn't serious! I was bored!"

"I told you once that I would stand by you through anything but not anymore. This was the last time. It was our last chance and you blew it. This is your fault!"

"Oh Blair, can we cut the drama there is no one here to see this so there's no need for a show?"

"Do you see that? I talk about walking away after finding you cheating and you make a joke out of it! I'm done! Goodbye Chuck!"

As I closed the door to the limo, I wasn't just closing it to leave, I was shutting out a part of my life that I thought I would never lose. I woke up this morning and I never expected this. I hadn't expected to find my boyfriend in bed with his step mother's decorator. I love Chuck Bass but I can't suffer like this. I can't wonder what he is doing every time I'm not with him. Worrying about him cheating, drinking, getting stoned.

I gave him my heart and he threw it back at me every chance he got. I fought for him when his father died. I know we had happiness for a while but it's not enough. I want forever not just a time of bliss and then pain. That's not how I want my life.

And so here I am, taking yet another clean break or at least attempting to. I have done this before. I have stared through these tinted windows as I head towards the awaiting jet sitting patiently on the tarmac of J.F.K airport. I'm going to my father's chateau and staying until I heal once again. Only then will I be able to return. Now it's not that simple. There are more people in this game now between Chuck and me, it's becoming dangerous.

When I said I woke up this morning not expecting this, I meant it. I came over to The Palace today to tell Chuck he was going to be a father. The jet was waiting to whisk us away to Venice. Chuck and I had this planned for so long. I was going to tell him the news as we sailed under the Bridge of Sighs. He made me believe I had changed him.

After a year of pure bliss, after I helped him to get over his father and every other piece of crap that was thrown at us, this is what I get. Chuck suddenly changes his mind and turns back into his old womanizing self, overnight. How the hell does that happen?

So is this the end of Blair and Chuck? For now it is. At the age of nineteen, I never thought that I would have found love and lost it so quickly. I never thought I would be a single mother but at least I know I'll do better on my own without Chuck hurting me and this little person inside of me. I know this child is ours but he isn't going to know that. I'm going to make him believe that this is a mistake I made with a French heir to a fortune. He'll accept it. It's not very difficult change a few dates on some papers then he can't dispute this. I still have another seven months after all. It's not going to come to that though because Chuck won't bother to try to find me, to find us. Always…it's me that comes back first. It is never the other way around. I want him but I want happiness. Maybe I'll come back but I need to fix me now and then everyone else, but we all know that nothing is ever easy or simple.

Gossip Girl here. Oh dear, oh dear. What is it that we have here? A white flag flying? Never before have we seen Chuck Bass standing broken hearted on the sidewalk, gazing after a black limo. Who even knew he had a heart? Oh and that limo belonged to a certain Queen B heading to the airport. I feel like I'm watching a sad movie and this is the tragic ending. You know I'll be looking forward to the summer months ahead and the drama that will surely unfold. Until next time.

You know you love me,

Xoxo

Gossip Girl

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