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Castiel had come to feel more and more at home with residing primarily on earth. It was something that took a lot to get accustomed to. Even with human's, they had such terrible jokes and they said a lot that Cas found questionable and only, just recently, after nine years, had come to understand sarcasm. There was a lot that Cas still had to learn, a lot he needed to understand but there was one thing in particular that Castiel had wanted more so then anything. Sexual intercourse was nothing something the angel had been /that/ experienced with. The only physical contact in that manner he had was with April and it was needless to say that the only thing the angel gained out of that was an education and a death. Since then he had almost been too nervous to even touch another being. His most in-depth relationships that the angel had was with Sam and Dean Winchester. He was fond of them both, very greatly. They were his family, people he trusted, admired, respected and loved. He would always chose them over everything, all the time. Dean in particular, but for both of them, Castiel would always go into battle and even die if it meant they were safe. It was a type of love that even still Cas didn't quiet understand. He had never fallen in love before, the most passionate thing he had felt was how he came to love human's in general, he was always close to the human's he was designated to look after but Dean was someone that he had got exceptionally close to, so much so that Cas was thinking about Dean during times where there was a feeling of arousal. But the angel wasn't about to admit that, not out loud because it wasn't always just Dean that he thought about, it was Sam too.

For Castiel being this close to others he had come to feel things that most angels wouldn't other wise feel. They weren't supposed to feel physically attracted to another being, they weren't supposed to be aroused by impure thoughts and they certainly were not supposed to want to have intimacy with a human. If they felt those things then it needed to be with another celestial but Cas had come to associate the Winchesters with love, comfort, friendship, loyalty, respect and from what the angel understood these were all feelings that one would associate with being in love. Did this mean that he was in love with the Winchesters? Not just Dean and not just Sam, but both the brothers? It had to be impossible but then the pizza man loved the baby sitter and he was always spanking her and every day he saw people who claimed to be in love with their wives/husbands but then had another lover as well. Maybe it was normal? Maybe monogamy was just a trick the humans played on God and the angels, to fool them? It was a very smart- but unfunny joke.

This was a confusing thing for Castiel. He didn't understand fully the dynamics of a relationship. He had never been in one to know what it entailed, he didn't even fully understand sex let alone anything else and did intercourse feel the same with men as is it did women, obviously the anatomy was different but did it hold the same pleasure? was it different? There was so much that he wanted to know and he wasn't about to go see Chuck about it. He could only imagine the look he would have got from his father if he had asked about what it felt like to fall in love and have sex with a man. These were things that Castiel had to figure out for himself and being the blunt angel he was he couldn't exactly find a round about way to ask Sam and Dean about it, it would take some practise for him to find a way to ask about it without it being too obvious. It had been clouding Cas' mind. It was all he could think about since he hadn't got any answers. Google was no help when he typed in the term "male love triangle" all that he was greeted with was images of three men having sex in many different ways. He was surely intrigued by it, given that he didn't actually have a preference to sexual orientation so he wasn't stunned or felt uncomfortable about the said imagery but it was really rather curious especially such a small orifice had the capability of fitting two male reproductive organs in it. It really was fascinating to the angel. But because his mind was lost to this idea that had remained unanswered, he had been acting rather peculiar around the Winchesters and it had not gone unnoticed-

"Have you noticed anything about Cas lately he seems a little weird"

Sam looked out the windscreen of the car as they sat in the parking lot of Burger King. Both of them eating as if they hadn't eaten all week. They had been without food for the past couple of days since on a hunt for a group of rather powerful and not so friendly ghosts that had all haunted one particular mansion. It was a rough forty three hours and they were both a little worse for wear but with a little help from Cas, they were mostly as good as new. But the hunger- it was almost insatiable even as they sat there eating.

"You mean weirder"

Dean had a mouth full of half masticated burger when he responded. There was no way he was going to stop eating just to play "What's up with the nerd angel" especially since he had always been a little peculiar and that was to say the least. Castiel was always kind of odd. He understood that Cas was an angel and things weren't always going to be easy for him. He loved the dork though. They both did. He would fight and die for Cas' there was no doubt in that. He was just as important to him as Sam was they were his world, his /life/. Dean honestly couldn't live without either of them, when Sam was in hell or when Cas was in purgatory or after he had killed himself- Dean was heartbroken.

"Yeah. It's like every time I get physically close to him he makes some kind of excuse to leave and then just vanishes and his seems..I don't.. nervous around us?"

"Cas is a weird little dork Sam. Remember what it was like when he first saw a fairy? dude used me like a damn shield. He is probably just in after shock or something?"

"I think it's more then that Dean. Something is wrong with Cas and I think that you should talk to him about it"

Dean looked over to his younger brother and swallowed the mouthful that he had been chewing up. Still with the burger clenched between his hands his green gaze was clearly that of an agitated disposition, he just said Cas was fine, he knew that if the angel was really in a dire situation then he would say something, yeah he was as cryptic as a hieroglyph but he was still honest, he was still blunt and obvious so Dean knew for a certain that Cas wouldn't have been able to hide it for too long.

"Why should I be the one to ask him?"

"He is more comfortable around you, you know that. Look it's just a precaution. Something could be really wrong and if there is then he needs to at least know that he can talk to you or me or us about anything. It's not like his family is much help"

Sam gave his brother that pouty look. That one that looked like a kicked puppy that no one, not even Dean, even after years of being subjected to it, was able to say no to. It would have been like saying no to an orphan child who just wanted a piece of bread. It was almost heart and soul destroying.

"Fine, I will talk to him. But I am telling you Sammy, there is nothing wrong with Cas. He is fine"

The eldest hunter was just trying to convince himself of that. He noticed it too. The way that Cas was behaving it was odd even for Castiel. Something had been up but he wasn't saying anything so Dean could only assume that it wasn't life threatening or altering. Maybe that was what angels did sometimes, like the emotional equivalent of shedding skin.

Dean placed the burger and took out his phone, scrolling through the list of contacts until finding Cas, pressing the icon he held the phone to his ear. After only two and half rings he heard that recognizable voice. Deep, gravelly, husky

"Hello Dean"

Not that the hunter would ever admit it but that voice was rather...sensual. It was sexy and it did stir Dean a little. It made him feel a tweek of excitement shoot up his spine. Castiel was certainly an attractive man- well at least his meat suit was. He had a decent personality and he was actually rather...adorable.

"Hey Cas, listen, if your not busy I need you to meet me back at the bunker"

"I will be there immediately"

Castiel didn't give time for Dean to respond instead he left for the bunker, obviously arriving there in less then a second. He would assume he was going to be waiting for the Winchesters. But what did they want. He could feel due to his bond with Dean that they weren't in any immediate danger and he didn't sense anything was wrong, not that Castiel always had a way of reading atmosphere. He hoped that everything was alright, nevertheless.

He found a spot at the table where no one could come near him. He had taken Sam's usually seat so there was an array of books and papers all over the place and no one would have bothered to move them so he was safe. With all his confusion he just didn't want to be touched by either of them, he certainly didn't want any wonderful eye sex that seemed to last for so long, especially with Dean. They both had beautiful eyes but he was particularly weak to the elders.

"Hey Cas"

"Hello Dean"

Dean gave a soft smile and he took the closest seat he could without messing up Sam's "area" that sort of reminded Dean of a nesting bird. He found it wholly amusing, but there was no time for jokes, he needed to fix the broken angel.

"So, man, Sam and I have noticed that you are acting a little more weirder then usual. Is there something you want to tell me. Are you in trouble or in danger? Or are just going through a weird phase?"

"I am not in danger or in trouble, no, and I don't understand what you mean by weird phase. I am still Castiel"

Dean let out a soft chuckle, that poor sweet naïve angel. He just wanted to hug him sometimes. Precious little dork.

"Cas. You have been avoiding us like we are the plague or something. You seem nervous and quite frankly it's freaking Sam out and we just want to make sure that you don't have some dick angel on your ass, hunting you down or something"

There was so much about that statement that Cas wasn't to question but he stayed silent for a moment trying to convey "Deananese" into English then into a way that he got the point of what Dean was saying. He concluded that he had been too obvious that he was acting in a peculiar manner.

"I am having an issue that I am not able to gain a conclusive answer on and it is greatly affecting me in a way that I just feel as if it would be best that I keep my distance until the issue vanishes or I am able to get resolve"

Dean furrowed his brows, head jolting just a little in confusing. Were they causing him some kind of problem? Well he didn't like that thought so one way or another he was going to get Castiel to talk.

"What is it Cas , talk to me"

"I would prefer not to say anything"

"Dammit Cas! how the hell do you expect us to help you if you don't tell me what's going on in that friggen fruity head of yours? We're supposed to have this profound bond or whatever and you ain't making it easy on me. So just spill, what the hell is up with you?"

Cas could always tell when Dean was going to lose his temper. Right before his outbursts he got a little flicker in his eyes and the colour seemed to flare suddenly. He didn't always like seeing this side of the hunter but there were occasions he felt almost...proud. His human was a badass.

"I think I am in love...with you Dean... and Sam too"