A/N: To break it all down, this is like Yusuke's day-to-day diary, in his POV, of course. The bad days and the good days, the angsty ones and the hyper ones, writen in short in Yusuke's kind of style, if you will. It starts at a bit of a random day, December 17, sorry, and each chapter is entries for a month. It may not be exactly a month each chapter, but bear with me on this. R/R please! Advice is great and much appreciated! Also, if you have an idea for the story or something, leave a comment! Sorry for such a long note...
Disclaimer: I don't own Yu Yu Hakusho, it's characters, or it's anything. I don't own it!
-17 December 4:06 am
My first journal entry, and all I have to say to today so far is shit. I woke up to the sound of a loud crash, and came downstairs to find Ma piss drunk and smashing windows and our sliding glass door. She had deep cuts everywhere and bleeding pretty bad. Once she passed out, I called for an ambulance... This is the third time I've had to do that this week... I'm now riding in an ambulance to the hospital as I write this. She's been horrible lately. Something's gotten into her, and I dont know what. I'm getting worried. This journal writing makes it no better.
Kurama told me I should start writing in a journal. He said it would be good for me. I don't understand him, though. He even forced Kuwabara to do this. It only makes me more angry and depressed when I have to write the horrible things down again...
-18 December 11:43 am
Ma's now being hospitalized. I'm here alone at my house. Kuwabara said he'd drop by later, but I'm doubting it. He tries though. It does cheer me up a little, him with his big, cheesey smile saying he'll make everything better... When he can get to it. Hiei's here right now though. It's snowing outside, so he came here for the day. He's not the fondest of the snow, he says, but he likes to watch it from a distance where he won't get covered in it. I laughed at him, and he got pretty angry. He's now sitting on the windowsill in one of my fluffy jackets, drinking hot chocolate. It's nice to have him here, no matter how angry or annoyed he is.
-19 December 9:00 pm
Kuwabara came over today instead. He brought board games, which made me laugh my ass off. He said we weren't gonna play them, 'cause he just wanted to lighten me up by making me laugh. I didn't wanna play them so I just nodded. Ma's still in the hospital. I'm still worrying.
-20 December 3:28 am
I woke up again early... There was a gun fight in the middle of the street between two of the neighbors, right in front of my house, so I had cops knocking on my door. I told them I didn't have anything to do with it, and closed the door in their faces. Now they're sitting outside my door looking in at me pissed... I want them to just leave me alone. I've had enough of all this crap for once.
-21 December 4:53 pm
Cops are still on the street, looking for one of the two guys involved in the fight. The one they can't find shot and killed the other man involved, and they think he's hiding in one of the houses. I wouldn't let them into my house, so now they're trying to get in by force. Kurama's over, talking to them all, trying to convince them the guy's not in my house. I called him and told him about the situation, and I feel bad that he's doing this for me... I was up all night last night. If that bastard ever comes into my house-well, anybody, for that matter, that I don't know and is uninvited, comes into my house, I swore to Ma I'd kill them. And I mean it.
Life is too hectic for me at this point. Depression's starting in, and I'm trying my hardest to ignore it... It's not working.
-22 December 9:31 am
The cops left yesterday night, and all is at peace. Kurama resolved the problem by helping them find the guy. He was hiding in the neighbors cellar. Kurama is sitting across from me sipping tea. How can he be so simple? After being up all night to do something for his dumbass friend, how can he just sit there, sipping tea and smiling? He confuses me more and more by the day. Ma is home. She's sleeping right now, and came home after the cops left, sober for once. She cried herself to sleep last night, but I didn't have the courage to ask what was wrong.
-23 December 6:20 pm
Ma's been sober all day. I had the courage to ask what was wrong, and she told me while she was in the hospital, she got a call from my Grandpa that Grandma's close to death. Grandma was always really nice, but not to me. She seemed to like everyone more than me, so I said nothing about it. I don't care what happens to her, only because she never cared about what ever happened to me. Two days until Christmas, and nothing is very good at the moment.
-24 December 5:42 pm Christmas Eve
Woke up early for no apparent reason. Sitting here listening to the radio. It's snowing, tomorrow's Christmas, and I have nothing to write about.
-25 December 12:13 pm Christmas Day
I woke up to Kuwabara standing over me, poking at me to get me up. He had brought me a present, wrapped in nice silver paper with a golden bow. I was surprised, because I haven't gotten a present for anything in a long time. I opened it up, to reveal nothing other than a white, brown-eyed kitten. It was very small, so I could easily hold it in my hand. It was amazing, and I nearly tackled Kuwabara for it. I felt bad, though, because I had no money to buy him something. He must have seen this look on my face, because he said: "Urameshi, it's no problem, and don't worry about it." I'm not going to listen, because whenever I get the money, I plan on buying him a gift.
-26 December 11:45 am
I'm sitting here on my bed, playing with my new kitten. It's pretty hyper all the time, so it keeps me busy. In addition to the kitten, Kuwabara came over to my house again today bearing more-A big old cat bed, almost a years worth of cat food, toys, a small tub to wash it in, a flea collar, two small bowls to put food and water in for it, a litter box with cat litter, and a freaking little leash!! I told him it was too much, and he said he knew, but didn't care. This time I actually did tackle him. I haven't named the kitten yet.
-27 December 8:06 pm
Hiei came over today again, due to more snow. He said I should name the cat Stupid. I told him to fuck off. I'm going to ask Kurama what I should name it. He seems good with names and such. Kuwabara bitch slapped Hiei for that. They got in a huge fight, so I had to literaly put them in different corners. It was embarasing as Hell.
-28 December 5:10 pm
I have decided to nae the cat something everyone will laugh at. For a joke, I named the hyperactive little thing Munchies. It is a very stupid thing to name a kitten, and I would normally never name a cat of mine this, but it suits him, and it's funny. He'll eat and eat and eat. Then he'll come to me mewling for more. Kurama nicknamed him Chewy, because he likes that better. Hiei calls him Stupid, and Kuwabara calls him Kitty. Too much, man.
-29 December 3:30 pm
Ma got drunk and almost threw Muchies outta the window 'cause he was sitting there meowing at her. I wasn't home, but Hiei came by to visit and caught the thing as it flew outta the house. Munchies is perfectly fine, and Hiei said it looked like it enjoyed it. I think he's lying.
I went over to Keiko's house to loan her my textbook for study.
I got in a fight at school again today. Some freshman jerk. I kicked his ass, and Takenaka was pissed at me the entire time I sat in the office getting yelled at by him. Takenaka can be really cool, but today I wanted him to get shot. I said I damned him to Hell. I wish I can take back what I said and thought, but I can't. I hate myself for it.
-30 December 6:07 am
Got word that Grandma died yesterday. Ma's sober and depressed up in her room. I'm no better than the day before. Kuwabara came over today, saying he wanted to comfort us. I told him I didn't need it, and he understood. Botan came by too. It was surprising that she did, because she never does. Botan was just coming to tell me Happy late Christmas.
-31 December 11:22 pm New Years' Eve
I can't get to sleep tonight. I'm sitting here, petting the sleeping Munchies and watching T.V. Hiei's sitting on the windowsill. It scared the crap outta me when I woke up and saw him there. He's listening to my old CD player. I was surprised he'd want to listen to it.
-1 January 3:59 pm New Years' Day
New Years' has finally come. My resolution: Tell Takenaka I'm sorry. Nothing more to say. It's a boring day.
-2 January 4:00 am
My resolution is a hard one, I realize. It's going to be hard, but I can't wait too long. He'll forget what I'm saying sorry about... Saying this, I've reworded my resolution: Tell Takenaka I'm sorry for being a jackass to him ever since I met him, and I'm sorry for everything I've ever done. This is harder, but I think I can do it. Stayed up all night thinking about this...
-3 January 7:20 pm
There's a new guy at school... And it's rumored he likes guys. I don't really care if he likes guys at all... But the other half of the rumor is that he likes me. I'm not sure if it's true or not... And I haven't seen or met the guy yet, so I don't think I'll do anything. Kuwabara says he saw the guy, and he's enormous. Huge muscles, really tall... I ain't afraid, though. He tries touching me without warning or anything like that, he's dead. Not 'cause he's gay, 'cause I don't like the touchy type.
Keiko says the rumor is fake. Kurama says to live with it. Hiei says he doesn't care. I'm so confused with everybody...
-4 January 1:41 pm
Singing today. Metal songs, of course. Today has been weird for me... I told Takenaka how sorry I was, which resulted in me getting pathetically hugged, which I didn't like, but dealt with it, I ran into that new guy, and he looked at me really funny... And I pushed Kuwabara into the stream at the park on our way home. He pulled me in after him though. We're both sitting here in room now, singing along to one of his Megalica CDs, wrapped in warm clothes.
-5 January 6:10 am
I'm sitting under the covers of my bed writing this with Kuwabara, holding Munchies tightly. Ma's gone for a week to go to Grandma's funeral. We heard something downstairs hissing and laughing. It's a little creepy, and I think it might be a demon, damnit... I'm going to go downstairs in a little while to see what the Hell is down there. Reigun ready!
It's now 8:26 am... Kuwabara and I went downstairs to find a small imp-like demon crawling on all fours around on the floor. It was weak, and we didn't have to go down all the way and attack; It couldn't climb stairs. I smashed it with a bat, and now Kuwabara and I are sitting on the stairs waiting for Botan to come and bring it to Spirit World. It's smashed on my floor, so she won't be too happy.
-6 January Noon
Botan hasn't come yet... And it's been a day. The demon is still in the same place as yesterday. Kuwabara now has a shovel, and is attempting to move it without touching it. It's kinda gross. Kurama and Hiei came over to see it, and are uninterested. Kurama says: "It is but a simple imp. How it got here, I can guess it was so weak it was able to get through the portal unnoticed. It is of no importance." Well, Kuwabara got it into a corner, so it's okay. But now, I have to scrub imp guts off my floor. Damn, today sucks.
-7 January 10:36 pm
Botan came this morning, and took the smooshed imp away, looking really sour about it, too. I'm now over at Kuwa's house, staying the night. Kurama and Hiei are here as well, and are planing on staying too. I've never had a sleep over before with Kurama and Hiei, if you don't really count the Dark Tournament... Kurama's staying because there's nobody at his house and he was bored. Hiei came because neither me nor Kurama were at our houses. He's sitting there throwing a Hiei fit-Where he ignores everyone and snaps at Kuwabara whenever he says something.
-8 January 10:49 am
Hiei got owned!! Kuwabara has lots of video games, so we were up playing them all night. He has a racing game that's two player, and Hiei beat me and Kurama! Kurama is really hard to beat, too... But then, Kuwabara beat Hiei! Hiei would've blown up if Kurama didn't calm Hiei down. I laughed my ass off...! I'm still laughing!
-9 January Midnight
Ma got back around 6 pm today. She looks gloomier than ever. She's been having a hard time lately... I'm really worried for her. She's up right now, with a few people over playing poker. I can't sleep.
-10 January 2:47 pm
Ma's not here this morning. She didn't leave a note, either. Normally, she would. There's no sign of the poker players either... I'm sitting here hugging Munchies. He's gotten a little bigger. Kurama is here to pick up a magazine I loaned him... He says to stay alert to her whereabouts. How can I do that? Put a tracker on her or something?
-11 January 5:40 pm
Ma came home today. She said she went to the doctor. I asked her why, and she didn't say anything. She isn't drinking, and she's cleaning, which she never does. I'm seriously worrying... It's rainy today, and a bit foggy. Damn weather...
-12 January 1:37 am
I can't sleep once again... I have a feeling the day is going to be boring. Bad day to write. The fog is thick, and the rain is pelting the roof.
-13 January 3:50 pm
Ma went to the doctor again. She still won't tell me why. She doesn't seem sick... I hope she isn't... I plan on spying on her while she's at the doctors... First, I gotta find out how to do that, damnit... The weather has cleared up, and the sun is shining again. I also went to Kuwabara's again today. We hung out in the park, the very wet park.
-14 January No idea
Sorry I can't put a time... It's snowing, and the power is out. Hiei is over and he lit a few candles, so I'm writing by candle light, with him reading over my shoulder. No working clocks, since all of ours are electric... Ma's trying to find a flashlight she put somewhere. Amazing... She cleaned the house, and she has a harder time finding things than before... My mother is truly interesting.
-15 January No idea
The power won't come back yet. The snow is still coming, and I'm freezing. Thank god Hiei is here. I'm sitting right next to him to stay warm. When in doubt in the cold, get close to a half-Koorime.
-16 January 12:03 pm
I think this is the time... I don't know if this wristwatch Hiei stole has the right time. The snow is clearing and melting, but the power is not back. Hiei went out and stole me somebody's wristwatch. Ma is asleep... Kuwabara trudged through the snow to get here, now he is sitting by the fireplace cold. Kurama telepathically told Hiei where he was... I forget... Oh, wait, he's at school... i don't know why, but that's what Hiei said Kurama said.
-17 January 5:21 am
Ma's in the bathroom getting sick... Just wasn't even drunk either... I'm debating on wether to take her to the doctor or not... I'm scared now, not worried. I haven't heard from Keiko in forever... I would've asked her about it, too... my phone doesn't work though, and I can't leave Ma all alone... Why me?
A/N: End of the first month! Please comment! It would be very much appreciated!