September 21
The Cullens have left. Sam Uley's little gang, plus some other superstitious freaks, are having bonfires on the cliffs. It looks like fun, I love bonfires, but not the reason why they're celebrating. For me it has a different significance, though I'm sure not as bad as some peoples'. Bella. I mean, I've always liked her. But she looked like she really loved that Cullen guy. And then for him to leave her like that...why would he do it? I wish I could go over and see how she was doing. I walked over there the night he left because Billy wouldn't let me take the car, got there like three in the morning, when Bella was asleep in the house. Apparently Sam had found her in the woods, pretty far in, and she said she was trying to follow Cullen.
September 23
My life sucks. Quil and Embry are being annoying and Sam's little gang is looking at me funny. Billy says there's nothing to worry about. He thinks they're great. Billy says Charlie says Bella's...not doing too well. Actually, doing horrible. He says that in the last few days Bella won't eat or sleep, and all Charlie can do is try to get her to drink so she doesn't get dehydrated. The doctor says it's shock, Billy says. He still won't let me go over there.
September 25
Sophie asked me to go to the movies with her today. I said no. Quil's telling me I made a mistake. He says she's hot. I don't think so. I mean, she's pretty, but Bella's prettier. I still can't go see her. Maybe I'll try hitch hiking or something. It's my only chance to get down there until my Rabbit is finished, which is going to be a while.
According to Billy Bella's mom came up here from Florida or where ever, to try to get Bella to eat, sleep, talk, and if she couldn't she'd bring her back with her. She threw a huge tantrum or something, because she didn't want to leave Forks. Can't think why. You'd think she'd want to forget about Edward Cullen.
September 29
Ugh. I hate school. It's so unbelievably boring. I just play tic-tak-toe with Embry and Quil all day, so I might as well just not go at all.
September 31
Charlie called again, asking Billy if anything like what's happening with Bella had happened with my sisters. Apparently she's like a zombie now. Eating, sleeping, doing her homework...but nothing more. And she's having nightmares, Billy says. Screaming in her sleep. Maybe she needs professional help.
I'm asking around at school if anyone's driving to Forks, but no one is. I guess if I want to see her I'll have to walk there.