After much hesitation, I decided to put this up after all. It's unbeta'd... I don't know why *pointed stare* Selene wouldn't read it. D:

Anyways, this was written a while ago (okay, not too long - it was written right after I took the original Brotherly Bonds off FFN), and I just recently (AKA - last night) forced myself to pick through it, despite my urge to bang my head off the wall. And I, admittedly, changed it a lot. So, now, it most likely (AKA - definitely) doesn't flow right... I'm sorry. It was just too horrible before... |||OTL

Also, this time, I am going to try to keep a relatively... reasonable plot going... So, if you catch me jumping to the smut, slap me for me.

Hika/Kao, Kyou/Tama, Hani/Mori. ... ... ...Hika/Haru

Twincest. Yaoi. Lemons later. S&M later. Hawt smex- oh wait.

I hope you enjoy...?

"Kaoru, shower's free." Hikaru called, walking out of their washroom and grabbing the towel that had been laid out for him by the maids. He didn't bother covering himself up, instead using the soft cloth to wipe away the lazily dripping water in his hair. The twins were used to seeing each other – all of each other.

Upon hearing his name, the younger Hitachiin looked up eagerly from his book. He had been sprawled out on the bed, waiting for Hikaru to finish that extremely long shower. They had always taken their showers together, and Kaoru was a bit bummed at his twin's sudden rejection earlier.

"I don't get it, Hikaru. Even if you were jacking off in there, I could have helped, you know." Kaoru pouted, jumping off the bed to walk over to his twin.

"Don't be stupid. I wasn't doing anything."

"Yeah? Then why did it take so long? And why wouldn't you let me in?" Kaoru questioned, upset about his twin's sudden coldness.

"I was... thinking..." The towel was pulled over his head, hiding Hikaru's expression as he muttered the words halfheartedly.

"Thinking about what?" Kaoru frowned. Hikaru rarely hid anything from him – at least, not to his knowledge.

"Thinking about..." The older twin trailed off, falling silent for a moment before he unexpectedly pulled the towel off himself and threw it at his brother. "Oh, stop being such a worry-wart, Kaoru, and go take your shower." he laughed, ushering Kaoru into the washroom and slamming the door shut.

Hikaru sighed, turning around to lean his back against the door. How can I ask him? He thought, frowning as he drowned himself in worry and running a hand wearily through his still-wet hair. Thinking of all the different reactions Kaoru could have, all the things he might say when Hikaru did have the courage to ask, was scary – especially since nine out of ten of those possible outcomes were bad ones.

Kaoru stepped out of the shower, grabbing his own towel and draping it over his head much in the same way his brother had. He tried opening the door again, and found that Hikaru had stopped blocking it.

Why did he have to be so stubborn? If Kaoru didn't know better, he'd think his brother was falling in love – but that couldn't be the case... could it?

The younger twin walked over to the bed, where Hikaru was lying on his back, staring up at the ceiling. Hearing his approaching footsteps, the twin turned his head to look at his soggy counterpart.

"Done?"

Kaoru nodded. "Why were you blocking the door?"

"You wouldn't take your shower."

"Why didn't you let me take it with you?"

Hikaru sighed, draping a hand over his eyes. "I needed time to think alone."

The standing twin stayed silent for a moment, before circling the bed to lie down beside his brother. He turned on his side, so that his face was close to Hikaru's when he spoke. "Are you... falling in love with Haruhi?"

The older twin startled, turning his head quickly to meet Kaoru's gaze. "What made you think that?"

Soft, sad eyes gazed into the matching confused ones. "You've never been this distant, Hikaru." Kaoru bit his lip gingerly, pausing for a second before he spoke again. "Not since you confessed to me."

Hikaru's breath caught in his throat. Never had he seen Kaoru so worried. And to think that the worry was caused by him, by Kaoru's assumption that he wasn't loved anymore. It was so... cute. So cute that it made Hikaru want to hurt his brother, in a way that would make him beg for more–

Hikaru stopped mid-thought, slapping himself mentally for having thought such things in the first place. And that stupid heat building up between his legs– He fought to keep his feelings in control. It would only cause more misunderstandings if Kaoru saw his obvious arousal, on the topic of Haruhi, no less.

"Hikaru?" came an uncertain question when he didn't answer. "Hikaru... you really ARE falling for Haruhi, AREN'T YOU?" Kaoru demanded, shooting up to sit on his heels. "I knew it..." he started tearing up, "you were never serious with me, were you?"

"Kaoru, I don't–"

"You just wanted someone to fuck until you found a girl, didn't you?"

"Kaoru, you've got it all wrong, it's not like–"

"You took all my feelings for granted! YOU WERE JUST USING ME!"

"SHUT UP!" Hikaru yelled, letting out all his frustrations. He sat up as well, to be on the same eye level as his twin. "I told you, it isn't like that. I don't care about that girl." He growled through clenched teeth, "So don't you ever dare bring up that topic with me, ever again, understand?" Kaoru's eyes widened, and he stared at his brother in shock for a moment before quickly nodding his head. "And if I hear you raise your voice with me one more time, I'll–"

He stopped mid-sentence, eyes widening in shock at his own words. He'll what? What was he about to say?

'I'll hurt you.' It made Hikaru sick. How could he even think about saying that to his twin? He hadn't even asked about Kaoru's feelings towards...

Squeezing his eyes shut, the older twin fell back onto the bed with a frown. "I'm sorry, Kaoru. I'm really sorry. I just completely lost it back then, I'm– I'm sorry, really."

Silence. Kaoru didn't even move from his position.

And Hikaru knew, had thought through what Kaoru's silence meant. It meant one of two things: either Kaoru was disgusted with him and thought he was weird, or he was scared, and would more than likely never speak to him again. Either way, Hikaru knew that he had messed up.

And while Hikaru lay there, arm draped over his face, wallowing in misery, Kaoru just sat in shock, replaying what had just happened in his head.

The tone that Hikaru used – so demanding, so forceful. It sent shivers of pleasure through his body, and unfortunately all that pleasure ended up between his legs. He just wanted his brother to use that voice again, to finish the sentence he had started. If felt so right, and though he didn't understand why, he just wanted to feel the helplessness again. The complete surrender of his will. He was ready to give up control, easily. If Hikaru would just use take it.

There's a word for this feeling. Kaoru sat there, musing over the new excitement. But I can't seem to remember what it is...

Finally moving his head, he looked at his brother. "Do– Do that... again."

Hikaru lifted his arm, looking up in surprise at the words. "Huh?"

Kaoru shivered in anticipation, and though it wasn't from the cold, he hugged his arms close to his body. "Do that again. What you just did. Do it again."

And that was when Hikaru seemed to notice Kaoru's obvious boner, gaze lingering there for a moment before climbing up to his face. "Was... was that from... me?" he asked hesitantly.

Kaoru nodded slightly, swallowing. "I don't know why. Your voice- that tone- you've never used that tone with me. D-Do it again." he said, voice slightly shaky with uncertainty.

Hikaru stayed unmoving for a second, before the familiar mischievous glint returned to his eyes. Kaoru's reaction wasn't something he had been expecting, but it came as a pleasant surprise. Maybe it's about time to ask, he thought, confidence boosted significantly. A smile played at his lips as he shot up, tackling Kaoru down and pinning him to the bed before he could react.

"Do you wanna know what I've been thinking about?" He asked, voice seductive.

Kaoru just nodded. He was still worried about his brother abandoning him.

"I've been thinking about... going a little further."

At this, Kaoru couldn't help but frown. "How much further could we go?" he asked, confused. They had sex at least twice a week – was there anything beyond making love to your partner?

"Well..." Hikaru smirked widely. "Maybe drag the foreplay a little."

Kaoru blinked.

"Or..." Hikaru's smile just kept getting wider. "Maybe we can focus on foreplay."

He blinked again.

"You know, experiment." he suddenly closed the short distance between them, leaning in so close that their noses were touching. "With ropes... Blindfolds..." the older twin's soft tongue swept out of his mouth, flicking at the lips beneath him, "control..."

And then it sunk.

"Oh– Oh." Of course. Was the word he was looking for – masochism? Up until then, S&M came as a joke, something to tease Tamaki with. But this time it was different. Even if Kaoru wanted to laugh it off, it wouldn't come. He should just push it off, reject the idea– 'That's ridiculous, Hikaru, you must be joking' is what he should say. And then everything will be normal again, and he can ask Hikaru what was really wrong. And if it was about Haruhi, he would accept it, and congratulate his brother for finding actual love. But his voice wouldn't come.

Hikaru frowned from on top of him, and the confidence in his eyes started to fade. "Is it– am I pushing it?" he asked, lifting his hands off Kaoru's shoulders and winding them in his wet hair. "You can reject the idea. Say no. Just say no, and I'll never talk about it again. And I'll never snap at you again, like I just did. I'm sorry..."

Their eyes met, and Kaoru knew his answer. His brother needed this– he needed this. If rejecting meant that Hikaru would never use that voice with him again – the one that had given him so many pleasurable feelings – there was no way Kaoru was going to do it. Foreplay, he pondered, quite surprised at how calm he was about the thought, What he really means is, "Let me tie you up and torture you." Oh well, I'll probably enjoy it.

"Hikaru... I'm probably going to regret saying this..." Kaoru started, unable to hold back the shy smile that burst forth as he reached up a hand to stroke his brother's cheek, "But I really liked it when you yelled at me. And I would really hate it if you never do it again. It... really turned me on." Kaoru bucked his hips up just to prove a point. His smile widened when he heard the sharp gasp it created. "But, despite how much I really want it," he stressed, letting his body fall limp on the bed, so Hikaru knew he was giving up. "I'll let you decide what to do. Because, after all, that's what a good submissive does, right?"

Hikaru beamed down at the younger twin. "Hmm. I think you're going to regret that." He teased.

"Yes, I think I will..." he trailed off, getting a sudden idea that made a sly grin creep onto his features. He wondered how far Hikaru's restraint stretched, "...Nii-sama."

Hikaru gasped, a look of utter surprise on his face. It took a few minutes for him to reply, but when he did, it was with an evil smirk, and playfully narrowed eyes. "You...!"

That was the last thing said before the older twin leaned down and took his brother with a forceful kiss.

-sigh- I'm considering making an account on adult fanfiction...

And I'm not sure when I'll update this. I have it written, but... *grabs taser and goes to Selene's house*

kekeke... -eye twitch-

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