Yep, yet another story to add to the dozen or so unfinished ones I'm still working on. Now if only I could finish some of them. Tell me what you think. Ta! ~vicci
oh yeah, and a happy early b-day to Six and shout out to moonstorm for no reason.
Tai should have had a problem believing that they were fighting again, so soon, but he was too use to it now. The sad thing was it was almost always over the same topic. Coming out.
Tai didn't want to, plain and simple. He couldn't understand why Matt couldn't just accept it.
"Do you know if we were to become domestic partners we would at least have some of the benefits of being married."
"You just want the benefits then?" Tai demanded angrily. "Is that all I am to you? Some one to help you get the benefits."
"Do you even know what the benefits are? My company would medically insure you. Meaning the next time you get sick we can take you to the hospital with out worrying if we'll be able to pay!"
"I don't need to go to the doctor, how many times do I need to tell you that. Why are you even worried about whatever or me being insured? It won't change hardly anything, except the fact that everyone will turn on us because we've finally admitted to being gay."
"Who cares about them? I'm willing to bet none of our friends will act any differently to us. You just wont give them the chance."
"Look at this Matt," Tai said throwing a newspaper at his boyfriend. "This is the third time this MONTH this kid has landed in the hospital. Because he's gay. That's why he keeps getting beaten up."
"So what?" Matt asked angrily, nearly growling in his frustration. Why couldn't Tai just accept that as part of the burden. He noticed Tai was starting to look paler then normal and tried to get him on the couch, but he was shook off.
"Matt, I don't want to have to come home and find out that you've been murdered because of us. Because of me."
"Tai, sit down please. Look, I'll promise never to go out after dark alone, alright. They wont have opportunity to hurt me."
"You think that's going to stop them? No, I'm not going to sit down," he snapped irritably. Tai started pacing trying to ignore the lightheaded feeling that had suddenly appeared. Matt shook his head, Tai was too stubborn for his own good. He decided to try a different angle.
"I don't want to have to catch myself every time I go to touch you in public Tai. I'm not ashamed of what we are, I don't want to have to hide anymore."
"I'm not ashamed either," Tai said huffily. "But I just don't want anything to change. I like our life just like it is. And that includes the Friday night soccer game. If we come out they'll probably kick me off the team."
"Is that all you care about?" Matt asked dumbfounded.
"No."
""You stupid jock," Matt said cutting off the rest of the protest. "I can't believe I let myself believe you had feelings for me. You are nothing but a coward aren't you. It's hard to believe you had the crest of courage, because you sure didn't and don't deserve it."
Tai stared at Matt in shock, and slowly all the emotion left his face. His eyes were cold, unbelievably cold. It scared Matt, Tai was always so open so warm. Even when he was angry, it was fierce, hot emotion. He was never cold, he never looked like this.
"Tai," he started to apologize, he didn't want his beautiful Tai to look like that. He had always been so close, always in reach whenever Matt wanted, or needed him. But now he was about as distant as the moon.
"No Matt, I don't want to hear another word."
Matt could have sworn the temperature had dropped several degrees. Oh he had crossed the line this time.
"But," he tried again.
"I said not another word Matt. You've already said more then enough. There's only one thing left for either of us to say, and I'm going to be the one to say it."
"Tai," Matt tried to interrupt. He didn't like where this was headed.
"We are through Matt. I never want to see you again, goodbye."
"Tai," Matt said before trailing off. He didn't know what to say. "Maybe we should talk when we've both calmed down."
"Why? What's the point? You just told me what you think of me. Obviously I'm not good enough for you, and I wouldn't want to hurt your image," Tai said the words cruelly, hoping the words would strike hard. Tai swallowed hard, trying to ignore the taste of bile and the empty feeling in the pit of his stomach.
"I didn't mean it! I was just mad!" he protested.
"And when you are angry you let the truth slip Matt! Now get out." Matt didn't move. He didn't think he could. Tai was kicking him out. It had never happened. Tai had run out in anger on a couple occasions or locked himself into the bathroom, leaving Matt pounding on the door, begging him to come out, but never this.
"GO AWAY!" Tai bellowed, shoving Matt towards the door. Matt stood stunned, staring at the door that had slammed in his face. After a second the door opened again and Tai stuck out his hand.
"Tai, please," Matt started but was cut off by Tai's sharp words.
"You can come for your stuff tomorrow, while I'm on shift, but I better not catch you here."
Matt took his wallet from Tai and slowly turned, walking down the street, trying to figure out what to do.
Tai lent against the door, shaking. He couldn't believe Matt had said that. Then he had the nerve to look shocked when Tai had kicked him out. What else was he supposed to do? If he had hit Matt he wasn't sure he would have been able to stop.
Tai pounded his fists against the door before pushing himself off of it and heading towards the kitchen. He got out a plastic cup and poured some juice into it. His hand was shaking so badly the liquid splashed onto the counter.
He picked the glass up but it slipped out of his fingers, catching the edge of the counter and falling to the floor
Tai fell almost silently to the kitchen linoleum, not even making as much noise as the clattering cup. The noise fell on deaf ears though, Tai had blacked out already.
oh yeah, and a happy early b-day to Six and shout out to moonstorm for no reason.
Tai should have had a problem believing that they were fighting again, so soon, but he was too use to it now. The sad thing was it was almost always over the same topic. Coming out.
Tai didn't want to, plain and simple. He couldn't understand why Matt couldn't just accept it.
"Do you know if we were to become domestic partners we would at least have some of the benefits of being married."
"You just want the benefits then?" Tai demanded angrily. "Is that all I am to you? Some one to help you get the benefits."
"Do you even know what the benefits are? My company would medically insure you. Meaning the next time you get sick we can take you to the hospital with out worrying if we'll be able to pay!"
"I don't need to go to the doctor, how many times do I need to tell you that. Why are you even worried about whatever or me being insured? It won't change hardly anything, except the fact that everyone will turn on us because we've finally admitted to being gay."
"Who cares about them? I'm willing to bet none of our friends will act any differently to us. You just wont give them the chance."
"Look at this Matt," Tai said throwing a newspaper at his boyfriend. "This is the third time this MONTH this kid has landed in the hospital. Because he's gay. That's why he keeps getting beaten up."
"So what?" Matt asked angrily, nearly growling in his frustration. Why couldn't Tai just accept that as part of the burden. He noticed Tai was starting to look paler then normal and tried to get him on the couch, but he was shook off.
"Matt, I don't want to have to come home and find out that you've been murdered because of us. Because of me."
"Tai, sit down please. Look, I'll promise never to go out after dark alone, alright. They wont have opportunity to hurt me."
"You think that's going to stop them? No, I'm not going to sit down," he snapped irritably. Tai started pacing trying to ignore the lightheaded feeling that had suddenly appeared. Matt shook his head, Tai was too stubborn for his own good. He decided to try a different angle.
"I don't want to have to catch myself every time I go to touch you in public Tai. I'm not ashamed of what we are, I don't want to have to hide anymore."
"I'm not ashamed either," Tai said huffily. "But I just don't want anything to change. I like our life just like it is. And that includes the Friday night soccer game. If we come out they'll probably kick me off the team."
"Is that all you care about?" Matt asked dumbfounded.
"No."
""You stupid jock," Matt said cutting off the rest of the protest. "I can't believe I let myself believe you had feelings for me. You are nothing but a coward aren't you. It's hard to believe you had the crest of courage, because you sure didn't and don't deserve it."
Tai stared at Matt in shock, and slowly all the emotion left his face. His eyes were cold, unbelievably cold. It scared Matt, Tai was always so open so warm. Even when he was angry, it was fierce, hot emotion. He was never cold, he never looked like this.
"Tai," he started to apologize, he didn't want his beautiful Tai to look like that. He had always been so close, always in reach whenever Matt wanted, or needed him. But now he was about as distant as the moon.
"No Matt, I don't want to hear another word."
Matt could have sworn the temperature had dropped several degrees. Oh he had crossed the line this time.
"But," he tried again.
"I said not another word Matt. You've already said more then enough. There's only one thing left for either of us to say, and I'm going to be the one to say it."
"Tai," Matt tried to interrupt. He didn't like where this was headed.
"We are through Matt. I never want to see you again, goodbye."
"Tai," Matt said before trailing off. He didn't know what to say. "Maybe we should talk when we've both calmed down."
"Why? What's the point? You just told me what you think of me. Obviously I'm not good enough for you, and I wouldn't want to hurt your image," Tai said the words cruelly, hoping the words would strike hard. Tai swallowed hard, trying to ignore the taste of bile and the empty feeling in the pit of his stomach.
"I didn't mean it! I was just mad!" he protested.
"And when you are angry you let the truth slip Matt! Now get out." Matt didn't move. He didn't think he could. Tai was kicking him out. It had never happened. Tai had run out in anger on a couple occasions or locked himself into the bathroom, leaving Matt pounding on the door, begging him to come out, but never this.
"GO AWAY!" Tai bellowed, shoving Matt towards the door. Matt stood stunned, staring at the door that had slammed in his face. After a second the door opened again and Tai stuck out his hand.
"Tai, please," Matt started but was cut off by Tai's sharp words.
"You can come for your stuff tomorrow, while I'm on shift, but I better not catch you here."
Matt took his wallet from Tai and slowly turned, walking down the street, trying to figure out what to do.
Tai lent against the door, shaking. He couldn't believe Matt had said that. Then he had the nerve to look shocked when Tai had kicked him out. What else was he supposed to do? If he had hit Matt he wasn't sure he would have been able to stop.
Tai pounded his fists against the door before pushing himself off of it and heading towards the kitchen. He got out a plastic cup and poured some juice into it. His hand was shaking so badly the liquid splashed onto the counter.
He picked the glass up but it slipped out of his fingers, catching the edge of the counter and falling to the floor
Tai fell almost silently to the kitchen linoleum, not even making as much noise as the clattering cup. The noise fell on deaf ears though, Tai had blacked out already.